I am only now discovering the advice I received in the other thread is true, that one must keep a solid grounding in earthly life to practice this sort of thing.
I'm feeling reallllly shaken up, very badly after I had a bad natural (not drug-induced) experience... I came in contact with a being who seemed very powerful... He was very friendly and at first we were talking normally and then he reveals that he is a demon, so casually. Suddenly I get really frightened and I ask to go back, but he says, just as casual as he was talking earlier, he says that I can't leave and that I have to stay there forever. I then protest this and say he has no right to say that, and he gets really angry and says I am just a petty human and he could kill me if he wanted or take over my body. He then revealed his actual face and.... now I've been shaking the past couple hours.
I don't know where I went but it was a pretty deep place and... the thing is I now feel the reason he came in contact with me was because he knew that he could prey on my energies like a vampire, since I am a very open person. I already have disassociative issues and some mental problems, I don't know what I was looking for with all this tsuff but I feel now I'm on a path which I can't easily sway from... I'm still very drawn to it but now it's starting to be against my better judgment, like 'be careful what you wish for'
can you guys please tell me this wasn't real and I don't have THAT demon stalking after me?
Quote from: thenoob on April 23, 2007, 00:58:57
I am only now discovering the advice I received in the other thread is true, that one must keep a solid grounding in earthly life to practice this sort of thing.
I'm feeling reallllly shaken up, very badly after I had a bad natural (not drug-induced) experience... I came in contact with a being who seemed very powerful... He was very friendly and at first we were talking normally and then he reveals that he is a demon, so casually. Suddenly I get really frightened and I ask to go back, but he says, just as casual as he was talking earlier, he says that I can't leave and that I have to stay there forever. I then protest this and say he has no right to say that, and he gets really angry and says I am just a petty human and he could kill me if he wanted or take over my body. He then revealed his actual face and.... now I've been shaking the past couple hours.
I don't know where I went but it was a pretty deep place and... the thing is I now feel the reason he came in contact with me was because he knew that he could prey on my energies like a vampire, since I am a very open person. I already have disassociative issues and some mental problems, I don't know what I was looking for with all this tsuff but I feel now I'm on a path which I can't easily sway from... I'm still very drawn to it but now it's starting to be against my better judgment, like 'be careful what you wish for'
can you guys please tell me this wasn't real and I don't have THAT demon stalking after me?
Hey thenoob :),
Such experiences can be very scary, and can have an effect after they are over. Each and every one of us carries a lot of baggage. This can take the form of repressed emotions, fears, memories, beliefs – all these things are churning away in our subconscious mind, and they can colour our interpretation and view of the world.
I've had such experiences as yours, and I've been able to trace them back to fear responses which have played upon either dominant worries or things currently preoccupying my mind.
In previous experiences what seemed like a God, attacked me, I've been stalked by devils and deamons, and even had a sword fight with death (skeleton, scythe and all).
At the time I was terrified, and I'll freely admit I used to prey to God and Jesus for help. This was a response to the religion of my upbringing. Such prayers made me feel better, but I was the one making myself feel better rather than any divine intervention.
Over time, such experiences faded as I didn't feed them with fear, and now, even when I have what used to be terrifying experiences, I can on the whole watch them passively. I've also let go of my religious beliefs too - AP can be a very good tool at purging things we don't need :).
The mind contains a lot of powerful energies, and AP can put us into contact with them, some will be pleasant, others will be negative and fear based. Something to keep in mind is that
nothing can truly harm or destroy you in the astral – things can become very scary, but by holding on to these truths, you will come through unscathed.
Something I also did along the way was to learn shielding techniques (these really gain their effect through belief nothing can penetrate the shield, but they are very effective and can be utilised at will). One of them is called REBAL (resonant energy balloon), and to use it I will take a deep breath (seeing pure energy flowing into my mouth and lungs, and being held there), then I will visualise the number 10 in a bubble in my mouth, when I exhale, the bubble expands to surround me with a bright energy layer. Nothing can penetrate that layer unless I want it too.
This tool is from the Gateway Series Wave 1 (Monroe Insititute).
Anyway, I'll stop meandering. If anything becomes too much, then take a break. But just remember that nothing can truly harm you, and that a lot of the bad things you face are parts of you. Facing these things, and going through them will reduce them over time. It's like tidying up all the negativity leached up over a life time.