Success story!!

[AstralCody]

I don't know why I am sharing this... but I am filled with so much joy right now it's just something I feel I want to get out there. Had a major panic attack tonight... and for the first time ever I didn't end up losing complete control. I got a huge adrenaline rush... it was scary... The blood went to my muscles in my biceps and other areas to "survive" I collapsed a bit... when the adrenaline hit. I was tempted to call someone... even though they never could help me... Well for the first time in my LIFE I calmed myself down mentally and avoided all that I have my whole life. The blood is returning to my brain and I am not making a complete goofball out of myself thinking I am going to die or whatnot.

It's rediculous how the human body works, and I guess my body just likes to trigger "false alarms" a lot. I can control it for the first time, and I just wanted to make this topic... maybe so when this happens again I can re look at this. =D

[Lionheart]

 You are learning mental discipline. Great job! 

I use this quite a bit with my chronic pain as well. I really hate taking pills! 

[Bedeekin]

Aaaw dude! Well done. It's the beginning of the end.

This is how it went for me. One day I got hit with a big one and I didn't let it peak. I fooled it and beat the basterd down.

They have never returned with a peak terror.. they just get easier and easier from now on in.

I actually remember my though process the first time I beat it...

"Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah... hang on.... why aren't I dead by now... this has happened to me so many times... if I did have a dodgy heart it would have caved in by now... My heart must be so strong... WTF"

and I pretty outwitted the anxiety.

Keep it up.

[roman67]

Congrats for the success. After having the major attack, you seem very happy. Lol.

[Astralzombie]

I too suffered from panic attacks for the better part of ten years. I know they are horrible and no matter how many times you have one, fear will always grip you. But eventually you will regain your composure faster and faster.


edit: ignore everything after "...part of ten years." and just reread what Beedeekin wrote.

[Mr.Flip]

howd u do that ?? hmm u have panic attacks cool 

[Bedeekin]

haha... probably the most un-coolest thing to experience... unless you were jumping from a plane or bungee jumping.

[ChopstickFox]

Gratz! You show that panic attack who is boss! You've given yourself a priceless gift today: confidence and that you know that you can do it. Power to you!

[Mr.Flip]

eh panic attacks are normal.. lol i hope they are

[Lionheart]

eh panic attacks are normal.. lol i hope they are

For some people they are a very serious problem. Definitely not something to joke about though! 

[Mr.Flip]

i bet they are ha

[Bedeekin]

They are. You actually feel like you are going to die... but in a flurry of panic and adrenaline.

[Mr.Flip]

yeah total feeling of unsecured confusing paranoia, during a biological function

lol like painful diarrhea, u dont know if you'll make it

[AstralCody]

Hey, thank you everybody for the replies. =D I been a bit busy. I landed in the ER again and for the first time it's a physical issue not anxiety related. They booted me out the first time because they pretty much said I didn't need to be here and was wasting everybody who needed to be there's time... I was a frequent flyer there so I think they just thought it was anxiety. I don't blame them... They all knew me well. So I got home and the pain became two times worse and I collapsed. Never felt pain that bad before.

So I called 911... Fire dept came and the ambulance and checked me out. One of the police officers I know drove me to the hospital instead of having to pay an ambulance bill. I thought that was pretty cool... So I get there and I throw up once... I dropped to my knees because the pain was unbearable if I stood. One of the staff members asked if I had been drinking lol... They sent me back out in the waiting and I started itching really bad. I started itching so much I started to bleed in certain ares. I felt like a bear man... I wanted to just go up to a wall and start running my back against it. I look down at my arms... my stomach... my legs... looked in the mirror at mu neck.. chest.. back.. and this is what I see.

http://postimage.org/image/82o0zz57p/


So I am like oh great... here we go. xD I wanted to find that doctor who said I was wasting peoples time. I ended up puking 2 more times throughout my 9 hour stay. I'm still in bad shape.. It turns out my body is fighting itself? That's what a doctor said. So I am getting stomach surgery soon because my hernia is causing many problems I never thought of. They said it can get strangulated and I could die because it would cut off blood flow to my internal organs... so right now I am just happy I get this surgery. Now I can eat 10 baby carrots without feeling like someone dumped kerosene in my esophagus! I'm staying positive just another hurdle I gotta jump. Cool thing is the doctor asked me if I wanted anxiety medication and for the first time in my life I said naw man... I am not anxious. He said I looked really calm considering all the stuff I was going through so that's a big step for me too. I'll get better!

I hope you all have been great =D
-Cody

PS: I'm gonna keep up on my YouTube series but I am extremely ill as of now so just taking a little break from it. I speak to surgeon on Tuesday so we will see. =D

[ChopstickFox]

I will certainly be keeping you in my thoughts. I hope everything goes as smoothly as possible.

[Astralzombie]

Cody- Did the symptoms you felt actually mirror a panic attack exactly or did you have the panic feelings plus other symptoms before you collapsed?

Because it seems to me that you might have experienced some very scary symptoms and than had the panic attack as a response to those independent and unrelated symptoms.

You may not blame the ER but I do. They should not have dismissed you because you were unable to accurately convey your real concern. You were in real pain and danger, yet they dismissed it as a panic attack only. I'm not a DR but even I could see that the panic was caused by the other.

I will pray for your speedy return to good health.

[AstralCody]

Thank you fox. =D

itsallbad- Hey =D Naw for the first time ever this wasn't anxiety related at all. I collapsed because my ribs felt like they were pericing my lungs if I didn't collapse to my knees and gag for a bit. It's harsh stuff man... I was actually really calm! The doctor looked at me and asked if I was anxious and I was like naww... I don't need anxiety meds. He said I looked like I was in a lot of pain but not anxious. =D My pulse was 110 but I am pretty sure that was from the pain. Your heart rate likes to go up when your body is in severe pain.

And I appreciate it man, I am hanging in there. =D

Oh and I like the pic you have on here. Rockstar makes the best games. Can't wait for GTAV lol xD