Seeking solitude

[manuel]

Hello.

I am 26 years old, male and well to be frank, quite uninspired by anything, nothing seems to ignite any flames inside, every day seems the same, get up, go to work, come back, eat, go out, do hobby, rinse and repeat etc, while that is a simplified run down of what I am trying to get across, it feels as if though im in the movie ground hog day, any one watch that? any one get that feeling of every day being the same?

It feels as if though I am spiritually starving, I was thinking maybe, maybe...if I left some where, found some where secluded, like a place I could rent for a week, by the ocean, just me, no one else, no phone, no TV, just me, and my ambient music collection, at night I shall light bonfires and gaze into the heavens, to be hypnotized by the eternally old milky way, to find silence, I don't know, I am wondering, has any one here, ever done some thing like that? how did it help?

I really need to break out of these old repeating patterns.

[FadeEsdrasX]

I havent done that yet. However it sounds very relaxing.
Its a really good idea to do something of that nature.
Good luck and have allot of fun.

[Embodied Words]

I can definitely relate to being spiritually starved, and wanting to just get away and be alone. It feels to me sometimes that with all the distractions of everday life that you just don't have a single minute to sit around and think about the big stuff. If you really feel like you want to be alone for a while and just chill, well, then I'm sure that's exactly what you need. If it isn't, why else would you want it?  Soo... Go for it! First chance you get!

[Stookie]

Hi Manuel

I try to do something like that once a year, I've done it with a friend and alone. Alone is more adventurous though. Sometimes I'll rent a cabin in the Smoky Mountains for 3 or 4 days by myself and spend the days hiking in the national park. (If I do it when there is a special on cabins, I can pull it off for less than $300.) I recommend it to everyone. Especially alone - It's empowering because you make all the decisions by yourself, for yourself.

I do it, like you said, to break the monotony of life and get a different perspective of the world for a bit. And even though it's hard to go back to work when it's over, I come back refreshed and ready to get back into the routine.

I also try to change my patterns and schedules frequently to avoid monotony. Some mornings I get up well before I have to be at work and take a walk or bike ride or watch a couple episodes of South Park, other times I get up 15 minutes before I have to be at work. I find that small changes like this can help a lot, as small as they are.

I've never "escaped" to the ocean, but you've got me thinking about next spring...

[Beneath_the_Roses]

Sounds like heaven....

[AaronM]

Hi Manuel

I try to do something like that once a year, I've done it with a friend and alone. Alone is more adventurous though. Sometimes I'll rent a cabin in the Smoky Mountains for 3 or 4 days by myself and spend the days hiking in the national park. (If I do it when there is a special on cabins, I can pull it off for less than $300.) I recommend it to everyone. Especially alone - It's empowering because you make all the decisions by yourself, for yourself.

I do it, like you said, to break the monotony of life and get a different perspective of the world for a bit. And even though it's hard to go back to work when it's over, I come back refreshed and ready to get back into the routine.

I also try to change my patterns and schedules frequently to avoid monotony. Some mornings I get up well before I have to be at work and take a walk or bike ride or watch a couple episodes of South Park, other times I get up 15 minutes before I have to be at work. I find that small changes like this can help a lot, as small as they are.

I've never "escaped" to the ocean, but you've got me thinking about next spring...

Sounds like heaven....

I totally agree, that does sound like Heaven *daydreams*

I am fortunate that I live in the Blue Mountains, Australia, my house has views over the mountains, looking at the City of Sydney which is approx 100 kilometres away, I can see the city lights at night & listen to the birds & what Nature has to offer every day, but even this isn't enough at times

Like you I have this same routine, I work nights & sleep all day, basically I work 50 hrs a week & on my days off I feel so tired & lethargic, I used to do a bit of bush walking but I just don't have the motivation any more

Now my partner & I took advantage of a Holiday club which allows us to take holidays at thousands of places around the world whenever we want a break for very little cost, we pay a monthly fee & get credits which we use for weekends away or full weeks & all we need pay is the travel, now we have this membership we can easily afford to go away once every 6 months & seeing we've paid for it, we intend to use it

It is always good to take a break & I can't wait for the next one

[Stookie]

Now my partner & I took advantage of a Holiday club which allows us to take holidays at thousands of places around the world whenever we want a break for very little cost, we pay a monthly fee & get credits which we use for weekends away or full weeks & all we need pay is the travel, now we have this membership we can easily afford to go away once every 6 months & seeing we've paid for it, we intend to use it

Wow, that sounds like an awesome idea. Then you don't have a reason to NOT take a vacation.

[cavernstoy]

ok manuel,  I think I know whats going on here.  You are a victim of conventionalism. 

The first thing I would recommend is that you stop eating.

I'm serious, go on a fast.  Don't eat for a few days, don't talk to anyone, and don't use any technology.

Don't use anything that would make your life more convinient, easier, or artificial.

Stop using the left side of your brain.  This means don't think analytically.  Just follow your animal instincts and bask in nature.

I really need to break out of these old repeating patterns.

Fasting is the perfect way to break old patterns.

If you do choose to do this, and you want me to help you change your life, PM me.

or

you can do nothing, and let society build a repressive box around your formed mind.

Remain

-programmed to sustain
-programmed for a synthetic world
-programmed to be nothing at all

Cavernstoy

[manuel]

I am quite grateful for all your replies, I have read them all and have taken them all into consideration, all sound very good, solid ideas that resonate with me.

At the start of this year, I was going to move to Costa Rica with a life long friend of mine, there, my friend has a nice villa by the pacific ocean, which quite literally overlooks the ocean, and adjacent to that, is a rainforest, there we where going to setup a clinic for people who need help, every day people with there emotional problems, it was all charity work based on donations, I was really looking forward to it, my friend even offered to pay for my flight and everything, my friend moved there...and I never heard from her again, that was a year ago, what ever she is alive or dead...I do not know, much to my sadness.

For the last 5 or so months, I have been doing nightshift, now, my job simply entails sitting in a warehouse filled with various snack foods and make sure no one nicks any thing, no one has ever has and I doubt any one ever will, the job its self is not stressful in the sense of the word, I have no supervisor watching over me, I have no boss to keep there watchful eye on me, hell I don't even have a Bundy clock, its just me, and some other blue collar workers who race around dangerously on forklifts doing there errand's.

During this time I can do almost as I please, read, listen to music, watch movies, hell...even stick lose change on the frieghtrail out side and watch diesel locomotives slowly flatten them to my mere amusement! as long as I am there, thats all that matters, it doesn't sound so bad does it? it isn't.

What is bad is my melatonin deprived brain, the long, boring nights, the shite pay the complete and utter meaningless to my work, the same shite day in and day out, the repressiveness, after a while it begins to affect you, you begin to snap at people, get irritable, hell, even my thought patters and level of base consciousness has changed negatively, my attention span has dwindled, I need to...reclaim my core, my core self, to reconnect to it, desperately, more than ever.

Its such a synthetic world we live in, concrete jungles for our homes, some thing must give in, if only I could be in Costa Rica right now, it reminds me very much of the time, I left my pet parrot a bit to long in his cage, and he too started showing simmilar signs..huh, no suprise huh.

[Embodied Words]

Is there any way you could just move to Costa Rica on your own? Save up some money. That should be easier to do, once you stop paying for so many things you don't need. Maybe if you move there, you'll meet someone you like, even.

Btw, I noticed your quote: "Sticking feathers up your butt does not make you a chicken." I love Fight Club! Brad Pitt was awesome in that movie!