Maybe you can help me out?

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Hi. I have been having some problems recently and I honestly have no one to go to. Everyone has let me down but this site. I think we are more alone than we think.  I don't want to get too personal because that would just make it seem like I am trying to feel sorry for myself. Anyway i have a few things maybe I can use some kind of spiritual  energy or something of that nature to assist me?

I am 100% that some kids want to come over here and either kill me or hurt me really bad with bats. How can anyone do that to another person? I can never bring myself to injure someone that much, no matter what they did to me.

Why can't I just motivate myself to do anything? Whether its run to lose weight, mediate, raise energy? Even the things that are most important to me I cannot bring myself to do.

Every close friend I have ever had has back stabbed me or seriously disrespected me in one way or another. What is it that is so bad about me? Maybe I'm to nice to everyone.

So can anyone here help me out?

[Nagual]

I could relate a little bit to your situation, and my mother even more.
She is way too nice with people.  I could almost say 90% of her friends tried at least once to abuse/trick her...  It's being human I guess.  But, in her case, she almost seems to be looking for it.  She seems to "enjoy" complaining about people abusing of her or playing tricks on her.

Personally, my "problem" is that I don't give warnings.  I let people do whatever they do, until they go too far.  At that point, I stop seeing them.  Sometimes it's like a game; I kind of enjoy seeing how far some people feel they can go.  Sadly, a lot of them went too far.

I want to find real friends, that I can blindly trust.  I don't want pseudo-friends that I have to constantly monitor...  Sadly, even nice people will feel the surge to abuse of things/people if they are/feel "allowed" to.

[CaCoDeMoN]

I think that people can attract false friends of all sorts, mostly by their own naivety. For me such friends are very easy to recognize, and I don't let them abuse me, I just stop all contacts with them BEFORE they have any chance to strike. You don't need to have many friends, I have only about 10, but I can trust them in every situation...
I think that true and worthy friends are attracted by honor and honesty, cause they have these attributes themselves.

I am 100% that some kids want to come over here and either kill me or hurt me really bad with bats. How can anyone do that to another person? I can never bring myself to injure someone that much, no matter what they did to me.

I think that you are too good for people. Think about such situation: I know a woman, that was punched in the stomach several times when she was pregnant. Her husband nearly killed the attacker. What you would do if you were her husband and if no one would see the incident? I would surely kill the attacker without any mercy, and I would not feel any guilt after that.

Why can't I just motivate myself to do anything? Whether its run to lose weight, mediate, raise energy? Even the things that are most important to me I cannot bring myself to do.

I've also lost all my motivation at the time of Christmas, I could not do anything, this was caused mostly by tiredness after a month of fighting with a really nasty disease(I don't know English name for it). I've cast a spell to regain the motivation and guess what? The problems immediately worsened, I've had to go to hospital for a two weeks and nearly lost my balls due to that disease. But I got what I wanted too. In hospital I've had regained all my motivation, nearly unblocked all chakras, and TOTALLY changed my belief system. I've also met many interesting people there, and I really enjoyed my stay there.
Also I've reprogrammed my body using magick so I could gain weight. This is extremely easy thing to do and I can explain how to do such programming(for weight loss of course)

[Crystal_pioneer]

Well i personally think that you are to good for people.
The exact same happend to me but instead of doing anything i kept on being their friend.
We do live in different countries so it would be a bit different.
They did abuse me verbaly never physically since i was never scared to hit someone if they put me over the edge.
they knew that. But nevertheless i stayed friends with them an over the times my worst enemies became my best friends.
They have said so themselves and they have showed it.
Some decided since i ain't going to do anything they became my best friends. It was very difficult emotionally scarred and so forth.
Motivation comes from within.
It is a decision that one must take in life which is the hardest they have taken. Its the decision to Live. I read this in a book called Living Druidry.
The question took me by surprise. It is very difficult to maintain your decision if you choose to live.
I get my motivation from life and people around me. i think as well that you might be going through a slump in your life which i have recently come out of.
Spiritual energy can do nothing for you unless you decide that you are going to change your life and live.
Thats my opinion.

Peace