My awakening

[swamp]

I know this is a long read, but I hope everyone takes the time to read it.  Thanks in advance.

First, a little background on me.  I'm 38 years old.  I spent most of my teenage years and my early twenties extremely depressed.  When I would wake up in the morning, I just expected my day to be bad, and it would be.  The severity of my depression started to lessen  when I was in my late twenties.  I'm still not really sure why, but I'm thankful.  

It was during this time that I met my wife.  I was bankrupt and didn't have a penny to my name, yet she didn't care.  We're complete opposites, but had enough in common that something clicked and we got married.  Soon after she gave birth to my son and a few years later, my daughter.  At this point I was the happiest I had ever been.  Like many families, we were living paycheck to paycheck.  I barely made enough to pay the bills, but always felt like something better would present itself.

About two years ago I stumbled upon a youtube video about quantum physics.  It blew my mind, and created a hunger inside me for knowledge.  I would spend hours on the internet trying to find out everything I could about my new obsession.  One night while sitting on my back porch smoking a cigarette, I was staring at the night sky and thinking how everything I thought I knew was wrong.  I remember thinking about I how just wanted to know more.  I kept asking to be shown more.

I began to see the world in a different way.  Most of you on this site know what I'm talking about.  It's like there is a shift, where everything changes.  When I would wake up, I woke up happy and excited about the day before me.  This had never happened in my life.  I began to realize that we indeed do create our own realities. I started meditating and really making an effort to get in touch with my higher self.  All of this happened in about a six month period.  Think about that for minute.  In a six month period, everything I thought I had learned my entire life changed.

One day I was pumping gas into my car, when I looked next door and saw an empty building.  At that moment, an idea for a business hit me out of nowhere.  However, starting a business cost money and I had none.  Something inside me told me to call the number in the window and ask about the rent.  Even though I knew I had zero money to start a business.  So I called and spoke with a lady about the building.  Turns out she didn't really know anything about it.  She told me she would have her boss call me.  He was a real estate developer and didn't typically deal with the rental side, but she would have him call me.  As I hung up the phone, I thought to myself that I should not have called.  I really had no reason to.  I couldn't realistically rent the building, much less come up with the money to start a business there.

Later that day I did receive a phone call from an older gentleman that lived halfway across the country.  He told me how much the rent was and asked what I wanted the building for.  I told him my idea and that I didn't have the money to do it. He responded that he thought it was a very good idea, and he thought I should pursue it.  Hearing a successful business man tell me I had a good idea gave me the courage to go to the bank and inquire about a loan, but since I had a bankruptcy on my record and no collateral the banker told me he couldn't really help me.  Although he couldn't give me a loan, he was also very encouraging and told me that I had a good idea.  He suggested that I try to find investors to help me get started.  

The problem with investors is that you have to actually ask them for money, and I've never been able to ask anyone for money.........even a quarter. LOL. So i just continued to think about my idea and meditate.

About a week later, the owner of the building called me again.  He asked about my situation, and I told him about the bank.  I told him about the banker telling me to look for investors, and he agreed that I should continue to pursue it.  After that, he started calling me once a week to encourage me to keep going.  We developed a good relationship and became friends.  

I would lie awake at night trying to think of the best way to approach any rich people that I knew with my business plan, but just didn't have the nerve to do it.  So I continued to meditate trying to give myself some kind of inner strength to work up the nerve to do it. haha!  

One morning I woke up and told my wife that today was the day.  She asked me who I was planning on pitching my idea to, and I told her no one.  So she gave me that all too common but loving "you're an idiot look" and asked "then how is today the day?".  I told her that today I will not chase the money.  Instead, it will come to me.  I believed this with everything I am.  Why? I have no idea what gave me this confidence, but that day I woke up with it.  

That day I got a phone call from my future landlord.  He was asking the usual questions, wanting to know if I had made any progress. I told him that I really wanted to do it, but I just didn't know how.  For some reason I knew what was to happen next, yet I still wasn't prepared for what I was about to hear.  The voice on the other end of the phone telling me he was putting a check in the mail for me to start my business.  I was immediately brought to tears.  

Yes you read that correctly.  A man that I had never met in person sent me a 6 figure check to start my business.  He basically told me to pay it back when I could.  

My first full year in business I did over $600,000.00 in sales by myself.  I'm not writing this to brag, but to tell how extremely blessed I am.  I have already payed back a huge chunk of the money to my dear friend, who I have still yet to meet in person.  

But my story doesn't end there.  For the last several years, I have been drinking about six or seven diet cokes a day.  For 20+ years, I have been smoking a pack and a half of cigarettes a day.  My diet has been crap for the majority of my life.  I woke up one morning about a two months ago and said I was done with everything unhealthy.  I quit drinking all soft drinks, quit smoking, started eating better. All at the same time.  I've always known that I needed to do that, but have never had the willpower to do it.  It's like it was just taken away from me without any major struggle.  I'm not saying it was easy because it wasn't, but somehow I had more willpower than ever before.

At the same time I started exercising and I feel better than I ever have in my life.  Mentally and physically I am in the best shape of my life.  I absolutely love my life!

Since joining this site, I have had two OBE's and I feel my overall awareness has improved.  That night two years ago on my back porch, I asked to be shown the truth.  I asked to be shown more in life.  Everyday since I asked that question has been magical.  I am just beginning my journey, and I glad I found this place to share some of my experiences with you all.

Thank you all for sharing your experiences and thank you for reading mine.

Sorry it's so long. Haha!

[Stookie_]

Awesome story swamp. It does seem that success comes when you stop stressing it and just let things flow. Then the things that are to come into your life take the path of least resistance, and things just "work out" without much stress or energy .

Thanks for sharing! It's inspiring.

[EEthmane]

I'm currently in my early twenties and struggling with the same stuff. Your story is very inspiring. Bookmarked for reminder, thanks

[swamp]

I'm currently in my early twenties and struggling with the same stuff. Your story is very inspiring. Bookmarked for reminder, thanks

Hang in there and know things will be better.  And when things turn, it will feel like you're a step ahead of everyone that hasn't been through what you have. 

[Lionheart]

Since joining this site, I have had two OBE's and I feel my overall awareness has improved.  That night two years ago on my back porch, I asked to be shown the truth.  I asked to be shown more in life.  Everyday since I asked that question has been magical.  I am just beginning my journey, and I glad I found this place to share some of my experiences with you all.
Thank you all for sharing your experiences and thank you for reading mine.
Sorry it's so long. Haha!

Congratulations Swamp it sounds like you are truly progressing quickly here. Keep asking those questions. I say to myself everynight before I go to sleep, "By my act of WILL I RELEASE my FOCUS over my physical body. TAKE ME to your desired destination, SHOW ME what I need to SEE, TEACH ME what I need to LEARN. AWAKEN ME in my dreams so I may become AWARE I am dreaming and REMEMBER them, so I may LEARN from and ENJOY them".
I visualize all those capitalized words as they disappear into the darkness before my eyes. This technique has worked to perfection. I awaken 2-3 times everynight, sometimes after the dream, this is when I go back in and change the results. Sometimes during the dream, this is when I become consciously aware and take over total control while the dream is still happening. I have not attempted to shut down the dream and project as of yet. That will come once I am more familiar with just the controlling the current dream. Like I say, this is not a race!
Good Luck and Safe Travels! 

[dotster]

I really enjoyed the read, thanks for sharing. Cheers to your continued success and happiness!

[Momluvshilary]

This is my first post ever! I'm a nurse- have went thru ALMOST the identical struggles as you! Feel GOD/ SOURCE revealed to me my business revelation also! I have been looking at all kinds of rental spaces! I also found the perfect little building for my dream business and was disappointed cuz it was up for auction with many other RV type buildings- (mine was the cutest and the only pink one by the way) I feel it was a miracle that although the auction was June 23rd- no one got it!!! I know it's meant for me! I feel it! Now I can just hope for the same results as you! Hey, maybe I'll give up the cigs and my coca-cola also! Lol! Wow how similar! YOU GIVE ME THE MOST HOPE EVER!!!! I know something will work out! Changing the subject astrally- I'm at the point that I have a nephew 15- who projects all the time and told me it was going to happen to me- I get to the vibration stage ALL THE TIME- and I feel like I'm floating out of my body and sometimes even upside down! Then I'll freak a bit n open my eyes n I'm just laying there- nephew says just don't open my eyes! I know where I wanna end up first- but can I "get out" there already or do I have to travel there? Hope I have astral GPS so I don't get lost! Love to all of you!! Thanks for this site and this post!!!!!!     Sunshine & smiles!!!!!     

[Barnowl]

That was a great story, thanks for sharing with us...

It's very true that if you have the willpower, success will come

[AJDIN]

Well done

Thanks!!