I went through a rabid/obsessive 2-year period of intense work on projecting.
NOTHING. Still stuck.
BUT--I have progressed with a lot of other stuff and have gained a stoical attitude that "sooner or later it will work for me" and made myself a promise that if something IS blocking my progress, there will be plenty of PAIN and blood and guts for whatever that "thing" is. I'm a vengeful bastard at heart--if I don't mess with people [or things] they shouldn't mess with me. Otheriwse--payback is a bi***.
I messed with tapes and CD's and the only result is--I lost some control over my development. How or why don't matter, lets just say the CD's had some weird effects on me, but NO obe's materialised.
I gotta be a cynic here and state openly--most tapes rely on sublimial messages, and you or I got NO CLUE what those messages REALLY ARE and whether there actually ARE any messages or they talk about OBE-ing.
Last 18 months I cooled down considerably and am doing what and when I can development-wise, BUT I have also focused on having a serious CAREER on "this" Earth--otherwise I'd be up sh**-creek, ie no career and still stuck in body, ie a life failure. :(
There is one aspect I'm not sure of--I MIGHT be projecting but I got no recollection...................
Oh, I kinda disagree with the idea that my "double" is doing the projecting whereas my primary self remains in the body--if that WAS the case, then I probably have had hundereds OBE's and................ but it gets depressing here.
So, I believe I will be a success OBE story when my primary self OBE's [here I lean towards the Huna approach to division of subconscious and conscious mind plus the higher self, making up the complete threesome].
Oh, and Bardon's approach to OBE's kinda "puts the spanner in the works" as well...
For now I'm in a 3-way race:
- make a million $ based on some good ideas I got;
- become a full Professor before age 35 based on my current career;
- OBE and outgrow this sad planet;
or
- complete Bardon's training and convert lead into gold and acquire my million $ that way, which will allow me to realise my ideas and BUY a professorship. Simple--my life sorted. All I need is to add a single electron to an atom. LOL
Vendi, Vidi, Vici, Mucho denero.
[I came, I saw, I conquered, I got paid--my mercenary motto]
hello to the people :D
lately ive been quite down because i havent been making any progress in my training what-so-ever....
It seems that i do the same thing every night, but never get any further than raising energy- (which has been pretty poor recently since i keep falling asleep)
I am now buying anything i can which even in the smallest way relates to astral projection, just to fuel my enthusiasm.
ive noticed that some people find that if they take a break, they feel better when they get back into it, but with me its different. With me i feel that if i dont raise my energy and activate my chakras once a day- then i am slacking.
Its as if im addicted to it and get frustrated when it doesnt happen (e.g. recently)
Does anyone ever feel like this??? what do you do about it???
I absolutely cannot lose interest in projecting now, its a part of my life.