Talking to yourself

[pieces-of-a-man]

Do you think there is anything wrong with talking to yourself? I don't mean saying something here or there, I mean having full length conversations and arguments that can last for hours at times.

I searched on google forever on this thinking i'd find some mental disorder associated with it since it seems like its a name for everything. But I found nothing.

I consider myself a level headed individual.  I don't think I am "crazy" or abnormal but I do talk to myself all the time. I sometimes ask myself questions and answer back, not because I am slow at processing the information in my mind but because it just makes the experience seem more real like I am talking to a different person. Mainly I am just trying to express myself. I can think in a second what it would take me 5 minutes to explain but I can't stop at thinking. I must discuss it.

[Adun]

I do that too. When  I understand something complicated or interesting usually i start explaining it to myself like i was explaining to someone else (i don't really "talk" to myself, the conversations are all done by thought).

[SmileySpirit14]

i dont think its anything too big.. i cant do math without talking out loud to solve it, lol it helps me think.. and sometimes when i feel depressed i argue with myself a lot, and thats called 'borderline personality disorder'

look that up and see if thats what youre talking about

[GypsyWanderer]

strange group here guys, i have a real similar quirky habit mix too, with all the sorting info compulsions, and for me, as a kid i was socially really frightened and thus would constantly keep a running log of the infinite variations of every "key event" that would traumatize me.  for me though, lately, its been when i am not talking to myself and "pretending universe" that i am depressed since 5 mo.s ago.  I am also a devoted expressionist, ahem, i mean , ex- devoted expressionist, with the laack of silf inquo ive had while depressed and in this funk for some reason i cant get out of (chakra imbalance, holes, reversal,dream puzzle mania, hyper-manic, bi-polar, schizo gypsy, paranoid, i dont really know)

as such in the former, i have lost my presence as a promising leader to the curse of cognitive looping of a disastrous swirl of old soul syndrome or maybe something related to past life trauma.

it also seems since i lost myself interacting allowed, i have naturally lost the ability to sporadically and improvingly transition into a coherent well orchestrated voice cammando operative.

and lastly, probably not, the ability to proper;y communicate....

anyone ever think of losing "theirs" before?

any ideas further?

[Hpmons]

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[Psan]

Do you think there is anything wrong with talking to yourself?

Nothing wrong at all
As long as you dont do it aloud displaying all the emotions and actions in public
Most of us do it all day long.

[GypsyWanderer]

would it really be that wrong to vocalize your thought pattern in front of people, i mean, it's who you are, isn't it.  
i think if the world has socially warped us enough to need to interact with the self in so many ways to compensate for the actual lack of public freedom we have, we should be able to display it in front of people to show that on advanced analytical/creative minds there's much more then there seems to be acknowledged in ignorance of no exposure.

[beavis]

There are many paths information takes through a brain. Some enter through senses and exit through movements. The sound part of brains does language and other things. The most natural way it gets input is from the neurons connected to the ears. There is little difference between leftSideOfBrain --> rightSide --> leftSide, and some other part --> mouth --> ears --> audio part of brain. But there are much more efficient paths in your brain than through the air.

[GypsyWanderer]

like double takes (entering visual, exiting motion of head turning, no other thoughts or processing)  is that what you're proving here?

[Kazbadan]

I talk to myself many times too. For example, i could argue with myself about any topic that its related with choices on my life.

ITs a little like gollum. Sometimes one voice will say things like "you stupid! DOnt be afraid how hang on that hottie"! and the other voice says "but i am not confortable"...
things like that

[GypsyWanderer]

posted this a few months ago but i think i should also put it here.

The other night I had a very peculiar dream and i was searching for some input, or guidance, or suggestions, or anything.

it started i was driving in my home town and my mother, in the passenger seat, pointed to the sky and what i saw i can only describe as i giant , cloudy, moon-like rock, about the size of 2 moons, slowly falling i believe, from the sky.

we figured it was the end of the world or something and it was some kind of asteroid, but it is strange that it was such a bright moon-like white. the next oddity was the sun, which was farther away then it should have been, and very red. i didn't have time to think about this for at that point the driving had stopped, i don't remember why, and i was only examining the sky.

looking up i saw another out of place shape, not the moon, but some sort of foreign translucent planet, and close to that another white object i instinctly believed to be some sort of UFO. unfortunately i didn't have time to think anything else, for at that moment, what i can only call a tear in my reality occurred and there invading the space of my dream and sleep, some kind of alien being humanoid, large and with burning glowing red eyes, starred at me, looking over me with his flashing beams.

i couldn't move for fear, but had time to think, i believed for some reason it resembled a creation of mine, i guess i would call it an art project, but anyways, it is a tall robot i made out of lots of wires and metal, but thats too off subject i think, anyways, it was only worth noting because it was the only thing i thought other then alien at the time i saw it. i struggled for a moment and moaned and then woke up in my bed.
later, while listening to an interview with Robert Bruce, i found that similar humanoid beings with glowing red eyes is common for coming projectors, sort of as an initiation or something, like a test, or challenge.
i looked up some information on this dweller on the threshold and found some information that said it is somehow cast off parts of one's soul, lost in past lives, and that to progress, you must come to accept it, and leave it behind you, but then again, if it isn't part of me, i don't want to just ignore it.
then last night, i tried inducing a trance state (normally i have a hell of a time quieting my mind down, i am constantly in a state of talking to myself in my head out of habit, and the passed month or so has been devastatingly worse , because of some personal issues and depression) but thankfully, with some body awareness i was able to stimulate my legs and feet and then it quite easy to fall into a trance from their (legs are normally the hardest part for me to develop)
after this i got the strange sensation and feeling the being was at the foot of my bed. i tried for some astral sight behind closed eyelids and found i could vaguely make out his figure. i decided i should not fear it, and come to accept it, but then found that cold chilling sensations came over my body, but not like normal vibrations that i have experienced before.
i stayed in this meditative state for a little while , tried to obe, but couldn't, or didn't notice and don't remember, rolled over and went to sleep.

i don't think Ive dealt with this entity, despite trying to accept it and have empathy towards it. i also find it important to mention that as a person i am socially quiet and shy, except around a close group of trusted friends. we are all creative smokers who always make the most out of those "creative opportunities" through music , art, and really an onlooker would be amazed that we as people would be able to function as diversely as we do.
having a wonderful time in our friends basement interacting and acting as any character we feel compelled to jump into and do any antic we feel like engaging in. recently however i found myself sitting their watching them, not participating, in my own world of self doubt and criticism. this led to paranoid thoughts of self worth and eventually i came to not even know myself.

normal overlooked antics of talking to oneself in a mirror or dancing around to music after a shower ceased to exist because i would be to busy being aware and thinking about what i was doing, rather then doing it. needless to say, its been over a month or two since Ive had any real fun, my routine is broken, my friends supportive but surely confused.

also important to note is while this was going on, lymph nodes on the back of my neck began to swell and spread down and after weeks of doctor visits and tests returning negative, including radiology and biopsy, it came back nothing. of course i suppose all my stress and anxiety could have been related to the appearance of the bumps, and the thought of death inevitably crossed my mind, and it could all be because of that.

i find it important to point out Ive read that the heart chakra is directly related to the lymph glands, and i almost feel like my heart chakra is blown. please, i haven't been myself at all lately and any advice or direction or suggestion would be greatly appreciated.

I'm open to anything...

that was Jan 3 this year, and being its now May, i went back and split it into paragraphs, anyone who wants to read it now should be able to follow.

also seeing a thereapist, he tells me about living in the moment, seriously though, i don't even know what i would be like if i acted and reacted according to what ive come to know of myself. im in a weird situation, whats stopping me from turning it ALL AROUND?

[beavis]

i didnt mean the part of brain between sound input and speech output is simple. brains are very complicated and hard to understand