what's good free boards besides proboards?

[Chaos Mage]

I'm just about to search for some anyway, I dunno, maybe just sign up another proboard.  I like proboard cuz you can play with the colors and stuff, plus, it's got a good design.  Thing is, nobody takes it seriously, they look at it and it's like garbage, never minding the info on it.

I want to get a new message board thing so that I can start the Church Of Ultima.  Basically it's a group dedicated to chaos magick.  But at this time, even now, I'm unsure if that's what I really want to do.  I love Jehovah greatly, and tonight, I was praying, and I got 'effect'.  So it's up in the air, either go with a chaos magick based in phantasy/visualization/self hypnosis, or start something that works in line with Jehovah.  It's one or the other, baby!

Seeing as how I'm not a Jew, I don't think that I'll go hollaring and have a big screaming fit about Jehovah.  Yes, I've studied the Bible for most of my life, yet, I was born with the knowledge and abilities of Aleister Crowley.  I guess I'm wasting my breathe.  Doesn't matter, even if I had one hundred percent concrete evidence that Jehovah Lives, it wouldn't alter the fact that I 'come from Crowley' and that other things have happened to influence my life stream to this point.  And if I had one hundred percent concrete verifiable fact that I was the spiritual descendant of Aleister, then it wouldn't change what Jehovah did for Israel and how Jesus is supposed to be the first born of all creation.

I got it figured that God is peace and if Christ is for real, which, I always thought he was since then, well, Christ would be love.  Love Itself.  God used love to create all other living things?  But then I have to compare what I know and have experienced, and it seems like the more that I cling to Jehovah, the more magickally impotent and trapped I become in this reality.  Sure, it looks like Jehovah saved my life many times, always healing me and preventing death, but, what if it's actually The Master Therion?  And I still don't know how to pronounce that name!! Grr.  THERION, as a rushed vocal, or, THE RYAN, with more pronouncement to the parts of the name?  Ah well...

Actually, you know, the more I think about it, and wonder about whether or not I should continue to trust the name of Jehovah, the less likely it is that I'm really going too.  The whole Bible seems to explain my life perfectly, the prophesy adds up, so then I have to wonder about corruption of the old books to make my life miserable here on Earth.  At least the Bible mentions the satyr, which, nobody believes me, yes, honestly, I was born as a satyr.  They took most of my original body and I've been dead and risen since, which, consequently, had little involving Jesus Christ other than an imagined figment of 'consistent faith' in his works and name.

I guess I'm not ready to manage my own message board.  I've tried it before, with heinous result.  One thing about it, if I can't write a book soon, I might as well give up, and just sit there and play video games all day, ignoring money and food and things like that.  Of course, then the power will be cut off...  as it is, I'm in debt with the power company, and getting no help from anyone to pay it down.  They even cut my money in half!  So it's bogus man, I figure shield myself with infinite darkness and let the body die, so that it can't be used without my controls, and just rocket off back to the Sun.  See what's up there, maybe be reborn, I don't know.

But yeah, if anyone knows of a decent message boards, I'll check it out.  If not, I'll stick with proboards, they have been top notch for me, in terms of their layout.