Why?

[Ivaldi]

I'm pretty much at that point where nobody can comprehend me. This sounds odd but I want to be consumed by pure darkness or whatever it is. What I'm saying is could it be possible that a few of us came from it?  Deep down inside not only do I want the end of humans but all of existence. I know I'm odd but I see no reason to exist anymore. Perhaps in death I'll return to that very darkness.

[El-Bortukali]

here buddy.... http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/viewtopic.php?p=195112#195112

[AndrewTheSinger]

Perhaps in death there's only brightness and psychoanalysis.

[El-Bortukali]

an everlasting darkness with no sense of existing/individuality,would work more than fine to me.

[CFTraveler]

I'm pretty much at that point where nobody can comprehend me. This sounds odd but I want to be consumed by pure darkness or whatever it is. .

As in relief from whatever is going on in your life?  I've felt like that before, but it was due to external (and changing) circumstances.

What I'm saying is could it be possible that a few of us came from it?  

Why a few of us?  Why not all?

Deep down inside not only do I want the end of humans but all of existence. I know I'm odd but I see no reason to exist anymore. Perhaps in death I'll return to that very darkness.

I guess the question to ask is why the end of everyone else?  Sounds like a problem with situation, not existence.  Revenge is what will tie you more with existence if it is what you seek.  It has been said (and it makes sense to me) that you can only be liberated of a situation by forgiving it.  If you don't let it go, it will not let go of you.   So in your words I don't hear "I want to be gone" but "I want to cling to this by hate, because it makes me feel powerful.  But the power is only power while I hold on."

[GANAMOHA]

your definitely an odd one aren't you

[El-Bortukali]

is there some kind of meter for oddness is that it?

[Ivaldi]

I'm pretty much at that point where nobody can comprehend me. This sounds odd but I want to be consumed by pure darkness or whatever it is. .

As in relief from whatever is going on in your life?  I've felt like that before, but it was due to external (and changing) circumstances.

It would make me complete.

What I'm saying is could it be possible that a few of us came from it?
Why a few of us?  Why not all?

Few are those that don't wish to be human anymore. Just about 90% of the people here like being humans.

Deep down inside not only do I want the end of humans but all of existence. I know I'm odd but I see no reason to exist anymore. Perhaps in death I'll return to that very darkness. I guess the question to ask is why the end of everyone else?

I'm born into a prison surrounded by beings that are addicted to their pitiful existence. They don't want to be anything else except human and repeat life on earth. Just think I could of been born into a great powerful god-like species but no I'm here of this filthy planet surrouned by apes.

[CFTraveler]

your definitely an odd one aren't you

Me or him?    Thanks, just in case.

[AndrewTheSinger]

youth

[Squirrelly]

Ivaldi, I thought like that once, too    I thought that humans were selfish and etc. I really hated Earth, which led to suicidal thoughts. But humans aren't so selfish. They may seem ignorant on the outside, but once you get to know them, they really do care about others (at my school, at least). There's a point in some people's lives where they think too much about "life". This can also lead to suicidal thoughts. It's something I call "The Realization".

[El-Bortukali]

well.physical suicide is not worth much,if you keep alive on the spiritual realm...

[Ivaldi]

Ivaldi, I thought like that once, too    I thought that humans were selfish and etc. I really hated Earth, which led to suicidal thoughts. But humans aren't so selfish. They may seem ignorant on the outside, but once you get to know them, they really do care about others (at my school, at least). There's a point in some people's lives where they think too much about "life". This can also lead to suicidal thoughts. It's something I call "The Realization".

Suicide is ok for those searching for power beyond this prison.  Just as you ignorant people search for your illusionary love I seek power beyond human understanding. I use to wonder if life existed just to stop me from reaching such greatness but now I know it's true. Squirrelly if you truly do understand me then you would of agreed with me.

[El-Bortukali]

What kind of power do you seek?
I desire only to become one  of the most,if not,the most intelligent being of all times :\ He,little wish heh?

you can achieve greatness on the physical planes.
Look at Alexander The Great,Genghis Khan,Bonaparte,Caesar,etc etc,are you going to tell me they have no power?

[CFTraveler]

Ivaldi wrote:

Suicide is ok for those searching for power beyond this prison.

Yes, but what was there before this prison?

Just as you ignorant people search for your illusionary love I seek power beyond human understanding.

If the power that you seek beyond human understanding, then how come you are looking for it?  Do you not have it already?  Are you human?

I use to wonder if life existed just to stop me from reaching such greatness

What is greatness?  To be great you have to be greater than something.  What?  Greatness is a relative measure, so if there can be nothing to compare it to, then what is greatness?
The same about power?  If life didn't exist, then power would make no sense, since power is a tool.  A tool to be used by yourself, to do what?  Anything that exists qualifies as the world, so the things that you seek can only exist in this world, a world of limitation and relativity.

[Ivaldi]

Ivaldi wrote:

Suicide is ok for those searching for power beyond this prison.

Yes, but what was there before this prison?

Just as you ignorant people search for your illusionary love I seek power beyond human understanding.

If the power that you seek beyond human understanding, then how come you are looking for it?  Do you not have it already?  Are you human?

I use to wonder if life existed just to stop me from reaching such greatness

What is greatness?  To be great you have to be greater than something.  What?  Greatness is a relative measure, so if there can be nothing to compare it to, then what is greatness?
The same about power?  If life didn't exist, then power would make no sense, since power is a tool.  A tool to be used by yourself, to do what?  Anything that exists qualifies as the world, so the things that you seek can only exist in this world, a world of limitation and relativity.

I just want the power to know and become. To be honest the longer I exist the more I feel nothing like a robot which only leads me to confusion. I really can't say anymore what was before this prison but maybe it can be answered if I wasn't human.

What kind of power do you seek?
I desire only to become one  of the most,if not,the most intelligent being of all times :\ He,little wish heh?

you can achieve greatness on the physical planes.
Look at Alexander The Great,Genghis Khan,Bonaparte,Caesar,etc etc,are you going to tell me they have no power?

I can't achieve my goals here on earth because of my own personal flawed design. There were normal things I wanted to do but again life has a way of destroying dreams.

[El-Bortukali]

oh,i see. hah,a defected genetic code is not exactly the best way to achieve greatness.i do agree.
that has somewhat prevented me from fulflling my greatest dream..

[GANAMOHA]

lol, hey invalid or invaldi I've met people like you before fisrt they start off arrogant thinking themselves

god-like

then the world comes crashing down that they arent superior beings and that they do this to make themselves seem high and mighty compared to their usually disfunctional life. And so they become angry and seek to be

consumed by darkness

but still continue to remain ignorant and continue their view of life as  a god



the end

[Ivaldi]

lol, hey invalid or invaldi I've met people like you before fisrt they start off arrogant thinking themselves

god-like

then the world comes crashing down that they arent superior beings and that they do this to make themselves seem high and mighty compared to their usually disfunctional life. And so they become angry and seek to be

consumed by darkness

but still continue to remain ignorant and continue their view of life as  a god



the end

Umm actually I think of myself as trash so you're 100% wrong about me.

[Squirrelly]

Ivaldi, please don't think of yourself as trash, you're not. Everyone is different and special. I'm like you, I'm trying to find out the truth behind "life". I think that your thoughts are thought this way because of a belief that you are the only one alive, or if you are in a dream. I do agree that life can hold you back, but it can also push you forward.

[GANAMOHA]

they say death is the ultimate freedom. However, an unforfilled life will leave the bitter taste of dissapoint for an eternity. Life is depressing. That is why humans try so hard to hold on to any happy moments they come by. Even if some may find that to be sad it is the only way we would ever continue to exist. And so giving up and accepting defeat to the less happier moments of life is something pitiful and a waste of something so precious givin to you.

[El-Bortukali]

and what if all the person had was 'less happier moments  of life?

i'd say,spiritual death is the ultimate freedom

[blade5x]

If you're having suicidal thoughts, just think about it like this. You're only here for about 80 years. Might as well stick it out because that's nothing compared to eternity. And hopeuflly you'll find your answers within this time.

[El-Bortukali]

damn.if we get depressed about living 'that many  earth years'now imagine living forever! now there's a thing i don't want to experience :confused:

[Stookie]

Of course, living within space and time for all of eternity would be torture. But being sepated from time, where there is no beginning and end, is incomprehensible to physical consciousness, and probably greater than anything you could possibly imagine. So I wouldn't knock it till you try it.