were these vibrations the wave pattern of my soul?

[EyesOfVengeance]

I feel that this is a matter of importance. Another one of my famous nightmares ladies and gentlemen. But the more I think about the more I wonder if my subconious is trying to get me into astral.

I'm paralyzed again (SUCH AS IN ALL OF MY NIGHTMARES) and I could hear the ringing sound in my ears quite loudly when I concentrate, and I feel the vibrations in my body intesifying as I melt into the dream.

I do not know wheither or not I should call it vibrations. The feeling is quite hard to explain. It's a feeling of coolness, almost coming in waves. Sometimes the feeling is pleasurable other times it is very unconterable.

I also know that when you hear the ringing sound and you concentrate you can get astral hearing.

I decided that since fighting back only makes my nightmares worse and painful that I will willingly let the vibrations consume me. Strangely it felt good, I melted in pleasure. Also when I had nightmares such as these I fight back because if I don't I will fall deeper into sleep and wake up into another nightmare. When ever I didn't fight back the feeling intesify and always in the end the feeling becomes very painful. When I fight back the pain is felt as soon as I struggle. What do they both have in common? Well when I'm in the end of the vibration cycle my head begins to swirl. That is whatever doing this to me lifts me up into the air and I am thrown into the air in a straight line.

My past nightmares as you remember consist of a demon. I still was paralyzed. Sometimes I can see his claws on my ankles as he threw me, other times I did not see him at all. My recent dreams I usually do not see who is ever doing this to me. I know however that it is not a demon but a spirit of some sort. It is invisible. Also ever since I had that nightmare of the demon and decided that I will stop struggling, I did but I also managed to control me fear and said the our father. I felt victorious when I woke up to find that I conquered my fear. Ever since then my nightmares has stopped and I just got crazy vivid dreams that I usually get after that. But now whenever I get nightmares it changes into the one I am describing. It is a little different as you can see. I didn't feel the vibrations before.

Is it like a game where you have to conquer a fear which you must do it correctly and then when you conquer it you go to a new level and have a different nightmare which you must conquer too and this keeps repeating into differnet levels until you beat the whole game?

I begun to wonder when I woke up from my current nightmare.

Also when I'm thrown into a line I wake up into another nightmare and I am again paralyzed in my bed. It could happen millions of times before I wake up.

This dream was different. When I was lifted I saw a black transparent gasous cloud (spirit energy) also the spirit was a fat female. Strange this never happened to me before. Also she had a dog spirit. If I ever saw who ever is doing this to me I see different things each time. I feel that this is not its true form.

I wonder if this dog spirit was the same when the time I dreamed being paralyzed once again and I saw a golden fearie across the bed and two cats and a dog or two. The vibration was very strong then.

In all of my dreams the vibrations are different. Different wave patterns and pains and pleasures. Sometimes it is felt stronger on my head and chest area or other times it was my thighs and legs.

Sometimes pain and pleasure comes in waves and patterns and also different areas of the body.

As for the nightmare with the fearie in it when I woke up I felt energy especially on the floor. It was the size of a dog, it even reminded me of a dog from its strang behavior. Also a another energy who was suspiciously interested in me. It would go on my pillow or infront of me. When I put my hand forward to touch and feel the energy as I also do I could swear I saw the shape of a hand or finger and it touch my hand. I explain before that I never encountered such an energy before. All of the energy I ever saw didn't even noticed I was there.

When I woke up I felt energy which is not surprising because there is energy in every room of the house. For some reason I sense and see high energy levels in the master bedroom which I was there before after the nightmare watching t.v. I started getting chills up my spine and also on my legs and waist. It felt good like the vibrations in my dream, it even reminded me of that.

I'm not saying that this energy caused my nightmare, I'm just noting the thoughts I had when it occured so maybe you can understand me clearly.

So what exactly am I experiencing? That's what I want to know. Also I would like to mention that my senses sharpened when I woke up. I can still hear the ringing sound in my ears, and I could see colors in objects in my room or auric colors. I also noticed that my aura senses are being strengthened. Before I couldn't even see colors in the aura now I can reconize a color and each time the outline over the body becomes a little bigger. I wouldn't be surprised if I could fully see the aura in a matter of a few months if my progress keeps going. Perhaps sooner.