I phased again (I think)!

[Heather B.]

I say "I think" because I am still so utterly amazed that I could do this!  Anyway, I had the most wonderful experience last night!  Unfortunately, like my other experiences, this one sort of happened by itself, but I think I was pretty conscious once it began.

Earlier in the evening, I had been practicing, just starting out with the Noticing Exercise.  Just as I was thinking I was seeing nothing spectacular (no pretty colors this time), I began to see clearer images.  I saw a very clear, color image of what looked like the outside of a theatre--lights, a big marquee, and lots of people standing around.  I must have gotten too excited, because I lost it then.  I got tired and just went to sleep.  I was satisfied with just getting a clear image.

At some point while I was asleep, my mind became awake, or semi-awake.  I became aware of looking at the darkness in my mind.  But then the darkness began to sort of move.  And these bright red geometric designs appeared.  They were sort of ornate "rings," but made up of straight lines.  Sort of like the Star of David, but more complex, you know?  These red rings moved toward me, one right after another, very quickly.  It was like going through a corridor made of these red rings.  

Then a white light sort of enveloped me.  And the next thing I knew, I was sitting inside a huge theatre!  I was surrounded by people, and I was in this sort of small cramped seat, and I could see a movie screen far down in front, surrounded by curtains.  Like those old, ornate movie houses with the tiny seats and no leg-room.  I'm guessing this was based on the theatre I had seen right before I went to sleep.

Well, I thought it was nice, but I was annoyed.  I thought, "I didn't come here to watch some cruddy movie!"  I got up from my seat, and everything went black.  I don't know if this was the 3-D Blackness, or if it was just plain black because I had gotten rid of the theatre.  I really didn't stop to take note of it.  

Instead, I immediately called out my fiance's name, as hard as I could (to make sure he would hear me).  And immediately, I saw sort of a large, fuzzy outline of his face come toward me, and then, his whole body appeared in rather solid form.  I was thrilled and relieved.  I kissed him and told him how handsome he looked.  He smiled, but he had sort of a puzzled look on his face.  He asked me, "What are you doing out here?"  By "out here" I think he meant outside "Heaven," or else, he was asking what I was doing just standing out in the dark!

At the time, I just smiled and said, "I'm exploring the universe!"  He sort of looked around and said something like, "Well, there's nothing to see here."  So, I took his hand and said, "Take me to where you're living now."  He smiled at me and said, "Let's swim!"  So we "swam" into the darkness.  I thought it was great fun, even though in the physical world, neither of us were the swimming type.  

Before we had "swum" very far, the darkness disappeared, and there was an intense, radiant light everywhere.  I saw what I can only assume was "Heaven."  We were in sort of an open countryside landscape, and not far away was an enormous city of silver and gold, surrounded by a huge wall.  All the light seemed to be radiating out from the city, and it was hard to make out any details of the city because of the light.  I saw all kinds of other people, just ordinary looking people, of all different races.  They seemed to be standing in a line, waiting to enter the city.  

My fiance and I did not join them, however.  Instead, there was, I think, a golden tree there.  He and I sat down on the ground and leaned against the tree.  We kissed and cuddled together.  I told him how greatly I love him and miss him, how great my grief has been lately, and how sorry I am for certain things I had, or had not, done when he was with me on Earth.  I was sad, and I was hanging my head, looking down at my lap.  I saw him put his hand on my knee and sort of caress it.  He said, "You have to forgive yourself.  You shouldn't feel so guilty.  Especially about not having a child."  I hadn't told him I felt guilty about not having his child, but he knew.

I looked at him, and he kissed me again, and said he loves and misses me too.  Then he said something like, "I was disappointed when you didn't come Wednesday."  I didn't really know what he meant by that.  I sort of laughed and said, "What, was I supposed to die yesterday?  Or do you mean this coming Wednesday?"  He just shook his head as if to say, "Never mind."  I still don't know what he meant by that.  For one thing, I wouldn't have thought that in Heaven there would be any concept of "time" or "days" as we know them.  Maybe he meant that he'd been expecting me to come there earlier.  Or maybe this is one of those things that will make sense later?  Or maybe it was just dreamy nonsense.  I'll have to be mindful of Wednesdays and see if anything unusual or important happens.

After that, I don't remember any more.  I guess I came back to the physical world, though as with my other experiences, I don't recall waking up.  I guess I just came back and kept on sleeping.

But it was such a glorious experience!  I feel so happy today!  And it's great, because for the last week or two, I haven't had many "good" days.  And I am just so excited by the prospect of being able to be with him, and see the universe, and know that I am part of something much greater!  I can't wait to do it again!

[Forw4rd]

That sounds to me like a lucid dream more than a OOBE

[knightlight]

Truely awesome.  I really hope it was F3!  I know you have been having hard times and I'm sure seeing him again was very comforting.  

Forw4rd:  I dont really seperate lucid dreams from OBE's because I personally think they take place in the same part of reality.  Do you think differently?  I have always wondered about this myself.  I am fairly sure they are not different.

[Ben K]

I agree with knightlight. Dreams are more complicated than most people think(Whoda thunk Freud got it right?) and the fact that he showed up means that he sent the subjective energy and Almost Mrs. Murphey allowed an objective knowing of this act; albeit in a "dream"/obe. Very cool.

[Heather B.]

HOLY BLEEP!  I just watched that film What the Bleep Do We Know? (yeah, finally), and you know that part where Amanda is in the theatre?  That soooo reminded me of the first part of this experience I had!  It was truly eerie, seriously!  I was just like