Journal / Third eye discovered (3/1/11) but not yet awoken / Follow my journey

[Anakin]

I want to provide the link to my first journal entry, I switched it to this forum because I thought it would be more suited here.
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http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/welcome_to_out_of_body_experiences/my_first_quotexperiencequot_in_astraljournal-t33359.0.html;msg274818#msg274818
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Alright I started my journal in another section but I seen this one more fitting. So if you would like to view my first entry just check out my posts. I am 21 years old and I have always felt there was more but i never felt to strong for any religion. I almost knew they were close but didn't have the whole picture. Well I thought psychics were just people who were unique. Yes, they are special, we are all special. We have just forgotten. This is my journal of my personal experiences on the path of reawakening myself. I was once a close minded individual. But after researching the topic it has way too many facts to close it out. So here it goes, journal entry 2. I look forward to all your tips and help.

Namaste

Journal Entry 2: 3/6/11 8:11 PM
Issues that need to be worked on
•   Diet – When focusing on my energy traveling through my body I feel an uneasy sensation in my stomach area. I think this comes from a poor diet. Any tips?
•   I feel like I still expect too much, I need to lower my expectations while not losing faith.
•   Practice dream remembering techniques, I really need to get in a habit of writing these entries in the morning.
•   I also feel as though I need to add more structure to my practices so my internal clock is on point with my meditations, I feel like that plays a big part too.
•   All I can think of right now, again it's later in the day and I am anticipating things in the physical.
•   Being able to pick up on the frequency without audio software.
Practicing Techniques
•   Listening to hemi sync or other audio software
•   The noticing technique
•   Rubbing my chakra points to clear them
•   Visualizing energy flow through my body and my head
Second Experience
•   I want to point out I was not intending to astral project or experience anything for that matter, I felt mentally tired from all my research during the day. My body was just saying no.
•   One of the videos I stumbled upon was an energy manipulation tutorial (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mEG2Yffh0jQ)
•   I sat down on my couch and began to rub my chakra points and visualized a bright white light cleaning my system and I was just aware that my chakra points was there.
•   I lied there on the couch again listening to hemi sync, the youtube videos, while cleansing my chakras.
•   When I got to my stomach area I felt an uneasy feeling. Almost that you would compare to when you have to go to the bathroom, but I already went and I knew that wasn't it. I think I need to find a new diet to help with my energy. Any tips?
•   So I lied there visualizing energy traveling through my head, through my spine, the whole ordeal.
•   When I put my hands out and focused on energy within my palms it almost felt as though someone blew cool air into my palms.
•   Like I said, My body "said" no to the idea of trying anything crazy. I just knew I wasn't up to it, the more I practice without cleaning my chakras the more I wake up with the hangover affect. I did not focus at all on a vortex or try to find the wormhole.
•   I'm sure when I can the chakra energy points and understand a little better I will push my body's limit, but until then I'm going to try to move a slow. Any tips on viewing chakra energy?
•   So I lied there thinking of energy traveling through my body, I visualized energy in my minds eye shining like the sun. I did this while listening to the hemi sync. I visualized the energy pouring out of my hands and feet to help reacquaint myself with the feeling.
•   I fell asleep, without even seeing it coming. I just passed out like a rock, just right out of left field. Well I slept, maybe I had a dream, maybe I didn't, well I know I did. Nothing was really there, I was not aware of anything.
•   Then I woke up, but it felt like a groggy state of mind. I felt overwhelmed incredibly, like being in a tunnel. I felt like I just hit g forces when me and my friends did donuts in cars. I don't know I can't place it. But it felt like I was getting tugged?
•   Well I wake up and my girlfriend must've jumped on me while I was sleeping, but she said I woke up while she was walking over to me. I wasn't "aware" or "awake"(I quote these words because I can't place the feeling)
•   When I was in the motion or process of waking up it felt as though everything around me was, I don't know, in my center focus I guess? Especially my girlfriend, it felt as though I knew all her emotions, it felt like I experienced every feeling she had ever felt in her life. Needless to say, this feeling at the time felt like an overwhelming joy combined with the feeling of being in a tunnel.
•   I couldn't even explain any of this if it came down to details because when I was fully aware it felt as if all this slipped from my mind, just gone. This is why I need to write my journal entries immediately after something strange happens.
•   Well needless to say I was intrigued by this feeling and rushed off to bed to maybe have a lucid dream. Nothing, pure blackness. That's really how it felt, that is all I could remember upon awaking.
•   I lied there in bed, bored and tired. Did not want to try to go back to sleep and lucid dream because this takes energy from within your chakras. Like I said I just feel like mine aren't right and it makes me tired as hell.
•   After an hour of trying to remember I took a shower. In the shower I started to roam in my thoughts to pass events. Then it hit me like a friggen bat, déjà vu. I remembered the dream I had.
•   The dream I had the night before was in Vermont, I was living with my friend Ryan, my name is Ryan as well and we always have fun with that. Well the dream, or what I can remember is very short, just the feeling of knowing I was there and I had made it to a place I so badly want to be in. I had a dream when I was 18 of being on top of a mountain watching the sunset (or rise?). The feeling, the emotion of this dream was completely amazing, not a care in the world. Just the feeling of wanting to live in the moment for ever. When I awoke I realized that emotion was never going to be experienced in my life of being awake, I simply would never be that happy. I grew to accept this. Well this mountain has always burnt an impression in brain, especially when I think of happiness and I want to just think of a peaceful place.
•   Well just recently I had visited Vermont at my friend Ryan's house. It was so relaxing being at the top of the mountain. One thing about me as an individual is I grew up in the city and I just have this sense of being trapped. So when I go to remote places(I'm talking in a physical sense like camping or skiing) I feel so free, this is what I dream of, lol literally.
•   When I was driving home from Vermont and I was leaving the mountain it hit me again right in the face, the déjà vu. So overwhelming, I felt the emotion again from the dream. That I was so sure I was never going to feel again in my life, at least not while I was awake. I almost wanted to pull over and just feel it. But I just kept going and let it go.
Conclusion
•   What I think that feeling was, when I described feeling all my girlfriends emotions ever in her life, the feeling of feeling everything in the room. The feeling of touching everything around me, and coming through a tunnel, like tunnel vision. I can't really describe it. But what I think it was, was me possibly tapping into their being, their sense of being? Everything comes from the source, everything. Every inanimate object, because it was thought of. So if it was thought it comes from the source. I don't know I can't describe it. Any input on this guys?
•   I don't know what to conclude from last nights dream but I have the sense of being "pushed" in the right direction, almost as if the dream was a reassurance to move there? I don't know. Are there any spiritual locations in Vermont? Any high energy spots? I don't know I really don't understand any of this. I mean I have studied it and broken it down into a visual perspective for my brain but I still don't "grasp" it.
•   I need to start doing my journal entries after every thought or memory that feels important so I can get every last bit of it. Or dreams even for that as well.
•   I need to understand how the diet affects your bodies energy and I need to follow it.
•   I need to start listening to Robert Monroe's rundowns on a day to day basis, if anyone has any other suggestions please feel free to lead me in the right direction.
•   Stop expecting so damn much and just, I don't know, I guess just ease into it.

Also, I'd like to say something about the user name I have chosen real quick. Anakin Skywalker, he was pretty much brought into the Jedi council before he was even aware of his abilities or who he was. He was trained and taught the way of the force. I guess you could say they had a true intent and a higher self as well if you wanted to. Well as I see it, Anakin lost sight of his true intent. I don't want to say I personally feel as though I'm Anakin, but we are all Anakin. But unlike Anakin we can't lose sight of our true intent. Or ultimately we will most likely end up like him? I don't where I'm going with this but I seen it as showing a significance at we're at in our lifetime. All of us, not just a handful.
I seek guidance,
Namaste

[Anakin]

Journal 3/7/11 2:19 PM

Issues that need to be worked on

•   Again, I'd say diet. I recently discovered certain colored food effect certain chakras on your body. Also about sodium fluoride in toothpaste and paste, as well aluminum in your deodorant. This pretty much coats your pineal gland.
•   Having an open mind to the unseen, or at least the unseen as of now.
•   A daily structure of practice to help tune my internal clock for preparation
•   This is really all I can think of at the moment.

Practicing Techniques

I want to point out that yesterday I kind of took it easy on the research and what not. I wanted to give my mind a day to relax and let the knowledge I've gathered in the last week absorb into my brain. I just kind of let it all float around. With that being said here is what I did. Also, I still want to point out as a child, and a teenager I have been sort of close minded to certain things. When my sister and I visited a psychic I witnessed this lady do this channeling process, she described all the pain he had experienced when he died. Well needless to say she was on point with everything. From then on I knew there was more to this whole picture of "life". I then decided within my own mind that psychics were born that way and they were purely special people. I am now discovering I am wrong, we are all special.
•   So I listened to Tool and just kind of vegged out. I listened to Maynard speak of the astral plane and how he felt about it. I listened to how it was for him to describe certain aspects as I've shared that same feeling already.
•   I did some of those eye tests I posted yesterday and practiced that for a little while
•   I also attempted to view the aura of a few people, I believe I seen a vague impression but I can't tell if that's actually an aura or if that's just my mind providing a visual simply because I want to see it. Lol, my girlfriend said to me, "Stop looking at me so funny, you are creeping me at." So I stopped for a little while.
•   I also decided in my own mind, the pineal gland is it's own sensor, as is the sense of touch. I also read that auric eyes is essentially the merging of the pineal gland sensor with the physical eyes sensor, allowing the physical eyes to provide a visual for the pineal gland. Something like that, but I just concentrated on that and reassuring myself that is how it works.
•   I have been practicing my own technique(I say my own because I haven't yet seen someone discuss something like this) of simply telling my brain, "This is how it works, whether or not it sounds logical, this is how it works, period." I personally do this because I am close minded to things that sound illogical, I feel this helps me accept the information I discover. Any opinions on that?
•   I also rubbed my chakra spots to stimulate them and pretty much say, "Hey I know you are there!" This seems to provide a tingling sensation, again I don't know if this simply because my mind wants there to be a sensation or this is in fact my chakras responding.
•   I tried to visualize for most of the day energy traveling through my whole body. I believe that is very important, not sure why yet. But it's hard to keep the image. I imagine it's like breathing, you know you are doing it but you aren't focused on it, it just works. So I'm trying to make it a 24/7 visual without really being aware I'm focusing on it, it's hard to explain how my mind is showing it to me at this very moment.
•   I mean I guess this pretty much covers it, I tried not to focus on research, just letting it absorb. Oh, yeah, one of the biggest things that I think helps is this journal right here. It helps my brain break all of it down, it pretty much forces my mind to regress through all the information and make sense of it. I highly recommend making a journal. Whether or not someone is reading it, it allows you to show yourself what you have gathered so far.


Third Experience

Alright so this experience is the most interesting by far, considering I wasn't even intending to astral project or anything of that nature. I lied down in bed and simply focused on the energy within my body and I tried to see my aura for a good part of the night.

•   I fell asleep, felt pretty deep and heavy.
•   I imagine I wasn't dreaming for a good while or maybe I was just never aware enough to remember the dreams, I don't know.
•   Then suddenly, a dream began, I was running through an airport with someone. I was hauling butt so fast it was crazy, I felt overwhelmed. People were chasing us.
•   Then again, the same feeling I described yesterday, it hit me like a bag of rocks right to the face. I was dreaming.
•   Still running next to the guy I look at him and yelled, "Stop dude! It's a dream." But the guy seemed to pre-animated, he didn't really acknowledge what I said, as if he simply didn't understand the words.
•   I stopped running figuring he simply wasn't going to stop because he wasn't "programmed" to stop, if you will? I don't know how to explain it, but I'm a big nerd so I see it as software of hardware can only do what it's programmed to do. This guy simply didn't have it in him to understand the words dream or stop.
•   So yeah, I stopped running and thought to myself if this is a dream, and I'm fully aware it's a dream maybe I can finally practice a projection technique.
•   I closed my eyes and let everything in the dream slip away.
•   I tried thinking of what Dero said about the vortex. I then thought, "hell if this works, where do I want to go. I'll go to my apartment and maybe I can check out my girlfriend and I sleeping. That'll be cool"
•   So I kept my eyes shut and imagined the vortex and I tried to spin my feet in a circle so I could spin. Well it felt like as soon as I thought of spinning my body just took off spinning(it didn't feel like I had a body more so just being there in general)
•   I want to make this clear, like it feels so important to say this. When I began to feel the sensation of spinning it felt faster than how ever fast you can spin on your feet, it's not humanly possible to spin as fast as I felt I was going. This is so hard to word because I never felt it before, so I guess I can't make it clear.
•   After a second or two of spinning I literally felt my body just disassociated from everything, like imagine a fire crackling and you see the embers kind of like float and glow away and the light just fades out before it hits the ground. But all in a much faster manner. I also want to point out with my past 2 experiences I describe a tunnel feeling, like that of being on a train going through a subway. This feeling is overwhelming right here as I feel this.
•   I would like to say that this stage, this feeling, this sensation was what appeared to be completely black. I look at this as the fuzziness between radio stations, or the white static on tv when adjusting the antenna. I feel as though I was going between some sort of frequency. I don't know this is all so confusing.
•   So after I felt this sensation I popped right up into another dream. It was day time, I was in the bathroom with someone. What am I doing in the bathroom? The light was so bright. Summer or spring?
•   At first I was unaware it was a dream. I started to fade into the storyline of the dream. There was my girlfriends friend, Vanessa. We were in the bathroom admiring how nice it was, we were looking at Vanessa and my girlfriends new apartment. We were fascinated with a quotation we found underneath broken wall tile. It said something, in the dream if you walked up to me and told me to repeat it I'd of had it on the money, but now it's so far away. I think this has some significance to me but hell I'll never remember now.
•   Then it hit me again like another bag of rocks right to the kisser, I was dreaming.
•   But wait, this is my apartment? Why am I not going to be living here? Why is her friend here who I haven't seen in years? What is going on?
•   Then it fades out, That's all I can remember. Right back into the blackness of my sleep. Maybe I was in that frequency staged I mentioned earlier but I was completely unaware at this time.
•   Then it fades into another dream again, again I was running. We were running from someone, a group of people. I could tell you exactly what the room looks like but I feel that has no significance. I'll tell you the general feel of the scenario. It felt advanced, futuristic. The building or structure I was running through was made out of a material that almost seemed plastic, but in the dream I had the sensation of knowledge that it was more advanced than plastic and ever tougher than concrete but easier to work with. Easier to build advanced looking structures but yet so much stronger.
•   So yeah, I'm running and then I realize for the third time I'm dreaming, I think it's important to say that in each dream I was completely and absolutely unaware of the other dreams I had before or am I about to have. In each dream it felt like its own.
•   I stopped running, closed my eyes. I accepted the blackness, I began the process of the spinning sensation. I was gone again in a blackness but this time so completely unaware of anything being there. I honestly think at this point I just fell back asleep.
•   I awoke in the middle of the night sometime later not remembering any of the dreams, just tired and a little groggy. Maybe the neighbors woke me up, who knows?
•   I fell back asleep, after awhile I found myself in another damn dream, again not knowing how many I have already had. This felt in every way unique on it's own.
•   I was in a dark gloomy apartment. Again, I could describe the layout of the room but I feel it has no significance. I was in a room with my girlfriend and maybe someone else,
•   We were in deep conversation and I remembering feeling happiness of communication, I love talking to people and just sharing my knowledge and learning theirs as well.
•   She asked me if I could get here some cigarettes, I want to say in actuality I hate her smoking. Well hate is a strong word, so let's say this. I love her and I want what's best for her and that is not it.
•   In the dream I said, "Heck yeah, I'll go some for you right now! Hold on." I got up walked into the living room, walked into the kitchen. There was a girl in there who was interested in me. I kind of brushed her off because I love my girlfriend and she was present in the house. I looked into the room right in front of me, I yelled for some cigarettes. The door opened, there was my nemesis from my childhood. I never liked fights and I was always nervous of confrontation, it's just not me. He glared at me, but I stood there. He ended up being the one to give the cigarettes to me.
•   I gave her the cigarettes and then I woke up.
•   I lied in bed wondering, struggling to remember if I had dreamed the night before.
•   They started to flow in like water into my brain. It almost felt as if all the images, all the dreams merged into one file and just downloaded into my brain and I knew all the information at once. I don't know how to explain it.
•   I almost remember a 5th dream of being in the woods with an old friend of mine. But nothing significant.
That's pretty much it.

Conclusion
1.   Practice techniques
a.   Reassurance – Pretty much just telling my brain this is how it works, this seems to help me
b.   Focus on energy flow – I have been visualizing energy flow through my body and so far it makes me generally happier
c.   Focusing on love – this is one I picked up today, think of when you hold your child or your niece or nephew, or your baby brother or sister, when you hug someone you love. Think of that feeling in your chest when you feel what you consider love, try to bring that to your focus where your minds eye is. Hold that feeling of love, and it just helps you feel better.
d.   Research – The more you understand the easier it is to accept.
e.   Chakra stimulation – I have been rubbing my chakra energy points to "awaken" them.
f.   Dream remembering – I tell my mind that remembering dreams is good for my overall well-being. This will help me learn and grow, and I love knowledge so any chance to learn should be fully taken advantage of. I'm hoping this instinct for knowledge will kick over into my sleep.
g.   Breaking down the close-mindedness – This "reality" that has been created around us does not limit us to who we are or what we are capable of. A very close person to me told me recently atoms are 99.99% empty. I'm the type of person(or I was) who only believes in what they see, so you mean to tell me I have only been believing in the 1% I can see? OPEN YOUR MIND, this is my current goal.
h.   Structure – I should have a time everyday that I need to do this journal by, I need to build a structure within myself so my mind knows when its time to progress backwards through the memories of dreams I have. We are very organized creatures at the center, create routine for your body to follow. I am answering my own questions as I type this journal right now.
i.   Diet – Learn and understand how the food on this earth effect or energy cores. Add structure to my diet so I can stay on course.
j.   Will power – Turn my mind into an arrow head and stay true and on point to the things I need, like; structure, diet, and peace within myself.
As you can see I have a lot of things I need to work on. This is why I write this so it puts in front of me and gives me something to abide by.
2.   Dreams
a.   Just in the past few days I feel as though my ability to remember dreams has increased greatly
b.   Last night I can recall 5 dreams
c.   Out of the 5 dreams I regained awareness 3 times.
d.   Out of the 3 times I willing pulled myself out of the dream 2 times
e.   Last night was a truly amazing experience when it comes to the dream factor.

This journey is all so unreal, as I'm sitting here thinking I have this sense of butterflies. I have always been so sure of more but at the same time I break everything down into logics. I have never seen logicality to say bending a spoon with your mind, but turns out its essentially possible. I am now great friends with a person who has this ability. There is no denying the things I have blocked out for my whole life. I want the people who read this to realize I am a kid, a 21 year old kid who plays video games and hackey sack. I am classified as an adult but I am a kid at heart.  I don't know where I'm going with this but I am aiming at the people who are skeptic to psychics, I don't even like that word because as a human we tie meanings to words and we weigh them down with predefined thoughts. If you are skeptic to the third eye, the minds eye, what I like to call the first eye, open up your real eyes and read! Educate yourself as I have done! No one is going to slap you in the face and suddenly you can do all this stuff. You must learn it and accept it as being real. I still haven't had a real experience, like astral projecting or remote viewing, I don't even think I've left focus 2 yet. But what is happening is I'm learning how to move with my astral body while in astral. I'm discovering how to regain awareness in my dreams. We all have our own path, right now I am writing this because it was already decided from the source. This journal could be the key to helping skeptics like who I used to be, awaken themselves to this whole process. Before you can truly be awakened you must be enlightened first.

I seek guidance,

Namaste