My experience this morning

[TheJza]

I am posting this here and not in the dream section, since it shared some qualites of a lucid dream into a (maybe) F3oC-type realm.

Morning of 4/15/05 - 6:15am
I have been getting up at 4am with the intention of consciously phasing. I sat in my recliner and quickly entered a semi-dream state but wasn't conscious enough to know what was going on. Then, my girlfriend woke up at 5am and came out into the living room. I was mad at myself and feeling down at the fact that I will never be able to phase. I went back into the bed, since she was going to get ready for work. I was pretty bummed out, since I always fall asleep during phasing attempts. I was laying on my right side, trying to imagine a scene in F3oC, but I was trying to hard and still felt wide-awake. I prayed a little bit for the ability to phase and re-affirmed my intention that I wanted to be able to phase more than anything. I affirmed that I wanted to face all my fears and that this is something that I consciously wanted to do. I turned on my back and put on my headphones that were playing the "Super Sleep" Hemi-Sync CD. After a while, I decided to just switch to Frank's simple "just noticing" exercise. I was able to see distant points of light that were changing shapes and I must have drifted off shortly after that.

It all started with a dream with the girl from the TV show Alias (Jennifer Garner). We were in a classroom setting and I told a friend that the girl sitting near us was an actress. After a while I forgot all that and I saw that she was beaten up and being held with 3 other people from the show and they were being brought back by gunpoint by 4 men. I was thinking about killing the 4 men with dual guns - 2  shots with each gun, when the scene changed into me getting mugged by 3 black kids. They seemed to be late teens. I think at that point I half-knew it was a dream, so I tried my "guns" scenario that I was imagining for the previous scene. It didn't work out that well and I was on the ground and one kid was going to shoot me. I "made" his gun not work and I grabbed it from him and made it fire into the air, showing off my powers. They ran and I was semi-lucid by then. This scene was in a mall or something. I was walking down the stairs outside the mall, I think with someone, maybe a little kid, and I saw this guy walking into the mall via a service entrance. He was carrying things and looked like a maintenance man and for some reason I felt like I needed to hug him to try and show him that I was a caring person. I did so and he smiled and went on his way.

The next scene was outside with cars parked in a line. Maybe 4 or 5 cars and it was sunny out now (in the mall I perceived it was nighttime). The first person I talked to was a small girl who was maybe 16 or so. Her size reminded me of my little brother's girlfriend, who is 17-18 years old but very tiny. I didn't get the impression that it was her, but her size and age were very similar to his girlfriend. She seemed to be there with her boyfriend, but I didn't talk to him as much. Something happened from this conversation that made me very lucid. I talked to them (mostly her) a LOT and was thinking that it was going to be hard to remember any details about what was said. There seemed to be a radio playing in the background and it was almost a party atmosphere. I think I told them I was a sleeper and that I was dreaming right now. They didn't seem to believe me but they more shrugged it off and laughed rather than think I was crazy. We seemed to be walking around in circles around the cars as we talked. I really wish I could remember what was said, because I have the feeling it was important.

A few cars down the line was another teenage kid. He had brown skin and short semi-curly black hair, and was in his mid-to-late teens. He could either have been Hispanic or half white and black. I told him my sleeper story and he shrugged and laughed it off as well.
I got them impression that he was in a car accident - could have been a black El Camino or Monte Carlo SS with red trim. I approached him and said that might be dead, but he told me that he didn't think he was. He was in a fairly good mood. There were other people with him; maybe they were in his car when it crashed. I told him that I was a sleeper and that I was sleeping at the moment and I was dreaming all that was happening. He didn't seem to believe me but continued talking with me. I told him that I was either making him up or that he might be dead. He told me he wasn't dead, that his car crashed (I think) and that he was paralyzed from the waist down but now he could move. He seemed like a very nice kid, no Hispanic accent but I could tell he was non-white. I was walking with him and he started getting taller and I jokingly pulled him back down to his proper size saying, "Get down here." At this point I thought I could be getting some overlay experiences, although the scene stayed fairly normal, with only minor variations. I told him that it felt like I was about to leave and that if I ever saw him again then he would have to believe me that he was dead. I asked him his name and he said "Daniel Lewis." I said "oh, like the actor Daniel Day-Lewis" and he jokingly said "no, like Daniel Lewis." At this point I had my arm around his shoulder and said my goodbyes and walked off into the middle of the grass. My hearing went out and I waited for the scene to disappear. I just stood there soaking up the sun in an awesome mood. That Daniel kid made an impression on me, he seemed so nice and receptive to me. After a short while the scene went blank and it actually took about twice as long as I thought it would for me to move again. My body was tingling and paralyzed but I didn't feel fear. I just sat there trying to remember everything and trying to just ride out the transition.


Some thoughts about the Lucid Dream. I do not know if Daniel was real or if I made him up in F2oC. Most of the lucid dream was being molded according to some thoughts that came up throughout it. For example, I didn't plan on telling people I was a sleeper, the thought popped into my head and I went with it. With Daniel, him telling me that he was paralyzed but that now he could move was a little too convenient because that made me think right away that he was dead but in a semi-lucid state. I think the lucid dream may have been sub-consciously influenced by retrieval accounts and books that I have read. The whole "sleeper" thing came from Kurt Leland's book, "Otherwhere," which I recently read. Another way to look at it was that I was guided along the process, and that could explain why thoughts were popping into my head. This was definitely the longest lucid dream I ever had. At any rate, the change of moods that I feel is definitely real - and for that I am grateful.