So I'm really having a hard time with AP and meditation. Help?

[Xanth]

<sub>Interesting you say that because I'm working on meditation, too. I've been avoiding it for a long, long time, which probably explains why I'm not getting anywhere with psychic skills, spirit/angel communication, and so forth.
So I made meditation a nightly thing, which is handy because it clears the mind before AP attempts.

I get closer to AP every night, but my darn fear backs it away. (._.)</sub>

You probably find yourself just falling asleep more than not, right?
You'll want to try practicing in the afternoon or evening... the reason is if you practice right before going to bed, your mind is already exhausted from the day.  Also, you're trying to practice during that time when your mind is pretty much ready to just call it quits for the night.