so last night i went to be really conifdent that i would either AP or get closer then ever. well I did, i went to bed, and then i laid there for a long time. i dont really focus on anything, i just lay and let my mind drift. then i wait for a feeling. it always brings my mind back into focus from the dreamy state. anyways my legs are numb, and my arms and upper body are numb. i cant even tell where my arms are! (my mind cant even tell where my arms are located on the bed) when i tried to find them it felt like my mind was making them stretch out miles away. (if i move at ALL i pop right out of this numbness and im back completely awake) i know for a fact im not APing yet. anways i feel this falling sensation, and my heart starts pumping really hard and my breathing gets really deep and long. before this would scare me but i just kept going, then i thought i might have heard a slight ringing, but maybe i was just imagining it. anyways this falling just kept going and going and i went way deeper then ive ever gone before. so then i opened my eyes accidentally and i looked ahead and i kinda exploded out of my calm state and awoke fully. i knew i had blew my AP chance for the night so i just tried going back to sleep. anyways does anyone know what all this is? and whenever i dont AP (not like i have before) but i find it hard to fall asleep after trying to AP.
First, if you are in that state where you can't tell where your arms/hands are located, trust me, you are not so far from a wide awake projection or at least you are close to wake up in the middle of the night with a spontaneous projection.
Second, from my experience it's a false statement to say that if you open your eyes you just "break" everything. Yes, you get out of that "special state", but if you relax again you can go back to that state in less than two minutes.
I had the same experience of "hard to sleep" after trying to AP. So what I do now instead of just thinking "let's go to sleep", I concentrate on my breath "letting go" and I just fall asleep.
I really don't know what is all this (that's happening to you) but I found out that that method (concentrate on my breath while letting go) helped me to fall asleep when AP practice leave me too "awake" in order to sleep.
Good luck !
Magic.