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[Chris37]

Hey girls and guys,

Don't know where to post my topic so please move it if you need to. First of all I have to say I'm really glad I found your forum! Hope someone here can help me out and explain what exactly is going on. Unfortunately I couldn't talk to anybody open about it yet. I'm afraid most people I hang out with, even if they say they would believe in esoteric and spirituality, just could not understand me and probably would think I'm going insane. Let me try to make a long story short and start at the beginning.
I used to go to a lot of Goa party's and did a lot of drugs for a few years. I ended up becoming addicted to Liquid Ecstasy (GBL) and had to use it daily to not freak out you could say. I took often way too much and mixed it with other drugs so I got some side effect called sleep paralysis. I woke up after a few seconds of sleep and was trapped in my body. That completely freaked me out. I was completely aware of myself but could not move my body. So I got a Panic attack every time I had this. I woke up couldn't move became panicked and heard my heart going faster and faster and faster till it stopped beating and I just said "Ok that's it. Game over". I really accepted death at that moment and was ready for whatever. But a few seconds later I heard my heart beating again and I could move my body. The thing is this happened at least around 30-100 times I would say and every time I came to the point where I thought I'm gonna die now. I'm sure I can't even remember most of the times could be much more. So around a year and a half later, got rid of my addiction, quit partying and starting working again I had a weird but nice feeling every day in the middle of my forehead. I now know that's the time where my third eye opened. There's a lot more to say but I'm trying to keep it short. I can't believe how ####### beautifully everything is. I mean everything. There are moments where I could cry just by looking at nature it is unbelievable. I also started to hear much better and see a lot more detail in everything. The next thing is if I talk with people and look them in the eyes I can see through them I believe. I know how they feel and what there up to. At least I feel and think that. Now the thing which actually brought me here today writing this is. I think I begin to see another dimension. It began around half a year ago maybe little longer. It's really hard to describe for me especially on English. Everything is vibrating in a green-yellow energy field. I mean everything! If I would guess I'd say it really does seem like we are living inside an energy field which is creating our world. I really don't know how to say it better yet. If I concentrate on it it's starting to vibrate stronger and getting more intense and "real". The most intense experiences I could get till now is when I'm taking some "caffeine" and staying up for around 50-60 hours and then smoke some.....  Then things are really going down. I see a lot of "energy tunnels" moving over and around me in different colors and if I concentrate on them the get closer and closer to me till the stop just in front of my face turning faster and faster. Then my whole body starts vibrating faster and faster till it's on a level where its vibrating so fast u can't feel it as a vibration anymore. But every time the feeling is on the peak you could say I get scared and unsecure because.... WHAT THE ACTUALY #### IS GOING ON HERE?? I start to overthink everything and have to convince myself that I'm not going insane. Deep down I know that everything that's going to happen only can be good! But my mind still just gets in my way. So yesterday I was lying in bed and for the first time had a strong experience completely sober. I mean I see it every day all the time sober but yesterday for the first time it got pretty strong which normally only happens when I do drugs. Before I forget, everything I experience is with open eyes only. For me its way more intense if I keep my eyes open.  If anybody knows what I'm seeing and experiencing please help me out. I think knowing a little more about my situation would help me keep calm in the future.

Peace and love

Chris

[Lumaza]

 Hello Chris and welcome to the Astral Pulse! 

It seems like you are experiencing a "heightened" sense of awareness. This sometimes happens to experiencers of non physical exploration. You notice the colors seem brighter and more vivid and if you concentrate long enough, you seem to be able to see "reality" fluctuations, that most aren't aware of. I can't tell you this is completely normal, for many people don't experience this, even those that do experience the NP consciously aware. But I can say, you are not alone in this either. 

As for the SP (sleep paralysis) experiences. When you find yourself in that state, stay calm and passively observe it all. There is no harm there. You will have to control your conscious thoughts though, because at that moment, you are in a "zone", whereas thought = action is instantaneous. If you think you are being pinned down by some kind of Demonic force, then a Demonic force you will see.

I'm not a Moderator here, but at the time, many of them are busy with other things. So, I will give them a hand and tell you in advance that this is a Family Forum and because of that we try to keep the tone/language at a civil pace, at a minimum. Even "assinuating" (#) crass/bad language is not permitted here.

[Chris37]

Hello Chris and welcome to the Astral Pulse! 

It seems like you are experiencing a "heightened" sense of awareness. This sometimes happens to experiencers of non physical exploration. You notice the colors seem brighter and more vivid and if you concentrate long enough, you seem to be able to see "reality" fluctuations, that most aren't aware of. I can't tell you this is completely normal, for many people don't experience this, even those that do experience the NP consciously aware. But I can say, you are not alone in this either. 

As for the SP (sleep paralysis) experiences. When you find yourself in that state, stay calm and passively observe it all. There is no harm there. You will have to control your conscious thoughts though, because at that moment, you are in a "zone", whereas thought = action is instantaneous. If you think you are being pinned down by some kind of Demonic force, then a Demonic force you will see.

I'm not a Moderator here, but at the time, many of them are busy with other things. So, I will give them a hand and tell you in advance that this is a Family Forum and because of that we try to keep the tone/language at a civil pace, at a minimum. Even "assinuating" (#) crass/bad language is not permitted here.

Hello Lumaza,

thanks alot for the fast answer! And for letting me know about the tone/language. Will edit my post right away! Didnt mean to. Dont really get completly what you mean but i think i know the direction. Gonna sleep over it and be back tomorrow.

love and peace

Chris

[Nameless]

I agree with Lumaza here that it seems you are experiencing a heightened sense of awareness. As you get used to it it won't be so 'in your face' and may actually go away. I know I have gone through phases similar to yours. Everyone is of course different so who knows how this will come to be for you.

Also, I'll reiterate, be calm and passively observe. Your thoughts can and will color your experience.

[Chris37]

Hey Guys,

Thank you Nameless for the Tips! Had some time to think about it. Will have to learn and get over my anxiety to see for myself. Gonna let u know when i make Progress.

peace and love chirs

[astralm]

Hello Chris and welcome!  Thanks for sharing your experience, your heightened sense of awareness is really cool.  I think Lumaza's response was really well worded.  Only thing I will add is just incase you were wondering a little more on the science side what SP or sleep paralysis is basically it is just when your body releases a chemical which stops your voluntary muscles from firing.  Many suggest this is done so that you do not act out your dreams.  For many reasons, in your case the ingestion of a foreign substance, your body can become confused and this chemical either continues to be made, or what has already been made does not go through the normal 'uptake' process clearing it from the system before you become physically 'conscious'.  Important point in all this is it happens every night as you sleep and is a natural process which won't hurt you, it just is very scary when you actually are awake to experience it since it is designed to happen while you are not physically conscious.  Many people actively try to get into this state and most of them in the beginning still find themselves scared when it happens even though it was what they are trying to accomplish.