Fear... Incredible fear

[lucid44]

Hello all,
Like many of you, i have developed an insatiable taste for spiritual things for quite a while now. Things like astral projection, meditation, energy work, etc.. are very interesting to me and being a spiritual being, i see nothing wrong with harnessing the depths of myself and realizing who i truly am. I am really passionate to do this but there is something that is holding me back that has held me back my entire life. F.E.A.R.

Where do i even begin to describe it? Most people experience fear but in my case it is to an unbelievable extreme. It can literally paralyze me sometimes and i have developed speech impediments, fear of eye contact with strangers, and even to the point where i have tremors (parts of my body shake uncontrollably). I have had a long battle with chronic depression and anxiety but lately it has gotten better as i've learnt to silent the mind and live in the present with peace. It's a blissful way to live and i'm always filled with peace and everything is vibrant and colorful.

For some reason its incredibly easy for me to leave my body while i'm fully conscious, (one time i was actually lifted up and what felt like energy was being showered down on me and i willed myself back into my body), but i become incredibly afraid the moment im leaving my body. I've battled long and hard with this fear.. what am i afraid of? basically i don't want to be trapped there or be possessed or have some negative entity eat my soul/body etc etc.. and because the mind is a terrible thing i cant seem to overcome this fear.

I'm well aware of the kind of trouble you can attract to yourself if you project fear while travelling and this just scares me even more. It would be really nice if i had someone who was into this stuff as a close friend to ease my worries, but sadly that's not the case. Sometimes i talk myself into a very positive strong mood and i say i'll beat the sh/t out of any demon who wants to fight me and i actually believe it for a while but then my mind races back and reminds me of what a little fearful phaggot i am.

Any and all help will be appreciated on helping me cure this disease that i will inevitably conquer. Thanks brothers and sisters.

[Contenteo]

I havn't had a nightmare since I started projection.

In retrospect, my self study of projection wasn't so much about seeing cool things when I closed my eyes as it was discovering plausible answers to many of this worlds unknowns. You are disciplining yourself(kind of like a yogi  ).

The first time you feel PUL(pure unconditional love) when you are deep in there, you will know everything is great, there is nothing to fear.

However, this will be your battle. And it unfortunately, it is a battle that you must go at alone. Shedding yourself of preconceived norms and mental modles is not a simple nor painless task. Its essentially your road to capture our own individualism. I won't say its easy, but I will guarantee its worth the hardship. As it was so aptly said once before, it is again, 'there is nothing to fear but fear itself'.

Cheers,
Contenteo

[NoY]

be a white knight and look forwards to scraps and hardships, its all perspective

you have been metaphysical in your sleep your whole life and you are ok so why would it be worse just because your awake?

Welcome to the Pulse 

:NoY:

[Szaxx]

Hi and welcome to the Pulse.

Your love for this subject will conquer all your fears. There's places you need to go to believe that fear has no value or use. To do this you need to gain control of your emotions. This in itself is easy to say but not impossible. As a bonus your anxiety will go with all the other irritants.
By joining you'll get support and regain your life as it should be. Gaining emotional control should be your first step as it hinders everyone trying to run before they can walk. This can't be stressed enough.
Wishing you the best success in this.

[Lionheart]

 Hello Lucid44, check out this portion of a video by Tom Campbell. The part on "fear" starts at 1:00:00 and goes until 1:07:00.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lRar8IOwic8&feature=BFa&list=PLEB923BB17E5849A3&lf=plpp_video
The best way to be fear is to confront it head on! A lot of us here have consciously aware projected, some of us almost daily and you still see us here today.
Good Luck and Safe Travels!  

[Xanth]

Yeah it seems like fear is the number one reason people fail at projecting.
Watch the video portion that Lionheart posted.  REALLY solid.