A scary, wild, wacky place

[Stookie]

This experience is beyond words which is why I'm just now bringing it up. I've never heard or read of a similar experience, but I'm inexperienced at this kind of thing too.

Several months ago I had an experience that is what brought me back to OBE practice:

I found myself catapulted into some strange incomprehensible world. I was a single point of consciousness that was attached to the end of a "ripple" on this HUGE infinite "curtain". I was totally stationary. Projected on my "ripple" of this "curtain" was my entire life from birth until present. But it was as though all of it was happening before me. I felt 100% at that moment like that state of existence was where I "really" am and that I've been "dreaming" the physical life from there. I sensed that my sister was the "ripple" next to me, and a cousin on the other side. Where our "ripples" connected is where our lives overlaid in the physical. It was devastating to see that my physical life wasn't real like I thought it was. This to me seems like what is referred to as "maya" (illusion). The whole experience probably lasted about 30 seconds, however when I was there, time was infinite. It was not "enlightening" as much as horribly terrifying. Over the next couple weeks, I had this feeling as though at any second I could wake up to an entirely different existence as a totally different person. After the depression went away I decided I was going to figure out what the hell this world is, and went straight to OBE exercises.

I still have no idea what happened, but I guess it was some kind of overlay experience. Maybe I've seen The Matrix too many times. Maybe it was just too profound an experience for my inexperienced self to understand, so it was filtered though my mind in that way.

I just thought I would share since it was a crazy astral experience.