right fresh experience

[i smoke and drink coffee]

i just had an experience
i thought it would be later than this at night, i must have just barely slept, only two hours have gone by
it's not like the experience was very long winded
i was dreaming, and there, some people were trying to get into my house
i kept waking up and they would go back outside  but i couldn't move
sleep paralysis
so then, something was attacking me
something dragged me off of my bed, down through the floor, and into the basement, all the while, i'm screaming, "Jehovah!!"
it couldn't drag me down any further, and i escaped quickly up the steps
when i got up the steps, i was out of control, but quickly began to cast some form of white magick
i was forming these shield beams, expanding them, then projecting them outwards
something was attacking my back
i fell back asleep, and was in bed
then, i managed to get up, and looked at the door to the hallway
a reflection of myself was still practicing the magick, so i perfected it and made a perfect white shield, which enabled me to levitate
inside of this levitation field, i went out of control again, and started to spin very fast
doing that ripped a hole in the floor, and i fell through to the bottom of something and was annihilated
then, i was back in bed
and the people were coming in to look at my computer
so finally, i managed to slither through one table and off onto the floor, slithered over to the heater, and behold, a man
i said to him, "Come on in, I don't mind company."
and he said, "Yes, we've met before Chad." then he said to his younger partner, "Bring them in, they won't mind."
so two girls came in
and we went, sat down, and he said to me, "Chad, I want you to remember, do you remember?" and I said, "Yes I think I remember you, seen you before." and he said, "Good.  I want you to remember what Dale said about how everything is an expression of God." and then I was phasing out, trying to wake up to deal with it.  I heard him say, "He's not into it, he's not ready."
then I was back in bed, and woke up once or twice to get back into my reality

This man, was he Frank Kepple?
Did Frank Kepple just pay me an astral visit?
Can anyone say?

Apparently, there are many symbols involved in this dream.
A penis creature of the nether world dragging me down into the sewer of the underworld, and God saves me, and I escape to practice white magick, perfect it, spin out of control, and hit rock bottom, and God saves me.
Seems like I'm partially watching a reflection of myself do the same thing over and over.
I'm not on stable ground
So that's it.

Oh, but, this astral/dream experience comes after some fantasy based /imagination practice.  Thing is, I know I've seen this man before.  He used to visit me, I'm almost deadly certain.

[Thaki]

wow,cool.....id watch a movie like this..

im nooot suree...what this is....however do try to remeber Dale said,if you know who Dale is....that may be the key..

wow i so wanna hear the rest of the story,when you astral project next time.....also you couuuld call up your astral guide to help you.They supposably know stuff..

[AstralBeginnings]

Hi Smoke, why do you think this may have been Frank?

[i smoke and drink coffee]

I got my injection today, so I will be in a period of dreamless, or fragmented dreaming for another week or so.  This drug prevents spiritual awareness, by disconnecting, blocking, and damaging the entire soul.  There is no medicinal benefit to this drug they force me to take.  I'd rather be dead than take this drug, so I smoke and use drugs because at least they help keep me on a course where I can type and be somewhat useful.

I thought it was Frank.  I don't know why.  Something about him seemed to be of an ultra light vibration, as though he was a highly evolved astral entity.  As it went through the dream, it's possible that some kind of hypnosis was used.  Does Frank know hypnosis?

I don't have emotional energy anymore, only dark negative energy.  I don't see how anyone who is of Love could want someone to exist in a destructing state.  It doesn't make any sense to me.  After this experience, and waking up remembering it all, and thinking it was Frank, I immediately came and posted.  I had a fresh energy, and felt ultra light myself.  Time was, however, moving too quickly.  Two hours went by and I went back to sleep.  Started having more dreams but lost connection.

[Xanth]

I got my injection today, so I will be in a period of dreamless, or fragmented dreaming for another week or so.  This drug prevents spiritual awareness, by disconnecting, blocking, and damaging the entire soul.  There is no medicinal benefit to this drug they force me to take.  I'd rather be dead than take this drug, so I smoke and use drugs because at least they help keep me on a course where I can type and be somewhat useful.

I'm curious as to how you come to such a destructive conclusion... what exactly do you basis this from?

I don't have emotional energy anymore, only dark negative energy.

Again, how exactly do you come to this conclusion?

[i smoke and drink coffee]

it's not a conclusion of anything, not while it's still happening
it's based in basic awareness, and life experience
are you one of these people who likes this system and lies about people behind their backs and makes excuses for justifying your spiritual greed?
i gotta tell ya folks, i'm getting less alive, but they'll never get rid of me
Thanks to Jesus Christ, and the simple basis of his miraculous healing power, we don't have to worry
i've already seen into my future, i know what happens, but i don't access it due to the mind control and psionics that are involved in my day to day extinguishing
some people ask stupid questions
how do you feel?
how do you feel after orgasm?
how do you feel when you see a pretty boy?
how do you think anything exists at all?
it's all crazy bs, i'm in no mood for soul hacking

[AJDIN]

Jesus smoke your one messed up and INTERESTING dude

[Xanth]

it's not a conclusion of anything, not while it's still happening
it's based in basic awareness, and life experience
are you one of these people who likes this system and lies about people behind their backs and makes excuses for justifying your spiritual greed?
i gotta tell ya folks, i'm getting less alive, but they'll never get rid of me
Thanks to Jesus Christ, and the simple basis of his miraculous healing power, we don't have to worry
i've already seen into my future, i know what happens, but i don't access it due to the mind control and psionics that are involved in my day to day extinguishing
some people ask stupid questions
how do you feel?
how do you feel after orgasm?
how do you feel when you see a pretty boy?
how do you think anything exists at all?
it's all crazy bs, i'm in no mood for soul hacking

ummm what?  O_o

[AstralBeginnings]

Jesus smoke your one messed up and INTERESTING dude

I dont necessarily think messed up is the right term, i think he just brain dumps his entire feelings and thoughts, which are unfiltered, making it very hard for us to get what he means  

Regardless, I love reading his posts

[i smoke and drink coffee]

I'm not necessarily mad or upset at anyone on Astral Pulse. 
I don't know you people, that in itself can cause problems.

In my time using these machines, I've dumped as you say, more than a fair share.  I've got info tucked in someone, I don't know who.  I've gone on about complex formulae for astral projection, especially into cyber space, or, fictional astral environments.  I've gone on about mode breaker psychology and the use of psychology as a weapon.  Psychological warfare, to be exact.  All the time, I get negativity from people, some of you here are not entirely negative or have never been negative to me.  Others, seem to have what in my doped out daze call an 'agenda'.

Last night my experience was powered by imagination, the alternate reality experienced as the breaking of a seal on something called The Shattered Shadow.  As I was heading into sleep, there was an experience, but it wasn't fully integrated.  Basically, I seen a glimpse of a future self, and he said that he was coming back to get me.

No new experiences other than that.  i'm sorry.  I just have a hard time taking criticism when it's my sanity and state of mind that people continually attack.  Nothing that lives is crazy, consider, do animals experience mental illness?  No, obviously not.

[AJDIN]

Smoke,

I didn't mean "messed up" in an negative way at all, as i said your a very interesting individual

[v3nge]

I'm not necessarily mad or upset at anyone on Astral Pulse.
I don't know you people, that in itself can cause problems.

In my time using these machines, I've dumped as you say, more than a fair share.  I've got info tucked in someone, I don't know who.  I've gone on about complex formulae for astral projection, especially into cyber space, or, fictional astral environments.  I've gone on about mode breaker psychology and the use of psychology as a weapon.  Psychological warfare, to be exact.  All the time, I get negativity from people, some of you here are not entirely negative or have never been negative to me.  Others, seem to have what in my doped out daze call an 'agenda'.

Last night my experience was powered by imagination, the alternate reality experienced as the breaking of a seal on something called The Shattered Shadow.  As I was heading into sleep, there was an experience, but it wasn't fully integrated.  Basically, I seen a glimpse of a future self, and he said that he was coming back to get me.

No new experiences other than that.  i'm sorry.  I just have a hard time taking criticism when it's my sanity and state of mind that people continually attack.  Nothing that lives is crazy, consider, do animals experience mental illness?  No, obviously not.

Though I'm new here, I just would like to say that yes, animals do experience mental illness. And maybe there is a reason that people continually attack your sanity? Just a thought. I do understand what your getting at because there is a limited set of views that the general masses hold that are not as open as they should be. Out side of those views there are healthy views, and unhealthy views. Just somthing you might want to consider.

Edit: this medicine they give you that "destroys your soul", are they anti-psychotics by any chance? I'm trying to ask this in the nicest way possible, I think it way clear some stuff up here