I am going to try to explain this but I'm not sure how. I'm quite confused and in shock and what happened isn't really anything I can truly put into words. Sorry if this post is blotchy and confusing to follow!!
Okay, so a few months ago I started getting a lot more in touch with my spirituality. Very in touch. I also stumbled upon astral travel and started to research a lot and occasionally practiced. I wasn't getting too many results (I got some, though), although I fully believed in it and knew I would someday be able to advance enough in my practice to achieve it. About two weeks ago I had a lucid dream unexpectedly, perhaps even my first lucid dream. It was very strange... I wasn't sure why it happened, but I think being completely open to these things existing and being real maybe gave me that final push? Within the past couple of weeks I've woken up every day feeling kind of raw and sensitive... that flu-like feeling where your skin is sensitive to the touch, etc. Also I had just felt kind of raw for a couple hours after waking up, even my vision seemed kind of raw. I just assumed I was sick and/or coming down with something.
What happened earlier today blew my mind, though.
This morning at around 10:30am I was feeling very tired. I got into bed and eventually drifted into sleep. I don't really remember much initially... I was just sleeping, I guess. It's a blank spot.
At one point, I feel this really intense feeling. I feel like I am imploding/exploding/choking/orgasming/vibrating, all at once. I opened my eyes while I was lying in bed- I looked up above me, and my room seemed to be filled with sunlight, and my usually white walls were a warm pink color. "Lines" that separated objects and whatnot were less solid, they were almost fluid. I blinked, and above me for a split second I saw a face, almost like Mona Lisa's? I was very confused and mystified and had no idea what was going on. I then tried to get a closer, more detailed look at the face and I was "sucked" from my bedroom somehow (keep in mind, this is my first experience successfully astral projecting... isn't it almost impossible to leave your room/home the first time?). Well, I had absolutely no control. Cannot explain the feeling though, really. The imploding/exploding/mash of feelings was still coming on strong, and although I felt like I was choking, I also somehow knew I wasn't going to die.
Okay so yes I was then in another room, in another house (and at this point I couldn't remember the being sucked feeling, it was just like... I was there. that's it. not OMG I WAS JUST TELEPORTED HERE or anything). There was a woman there, she was beautiful, she was wearing a green velvet dress. We were talking. She was rather mean and bitter, elegant, beautiful, wealthy. The house was beautiful and elegant as well. The room we were in had large windows... the room was bathed in orange sunlight, so probably around sunset-hour. The room had large windows and the view outside of the house was gorgeous. I somehow knew we were in Ireland (I just knew, didn't even think about it). I felt younger than I am now (I am 19 but I somehow "sensed" I was maybe 12 years old or so, perhaps even younger). The woman was a teacher figure (again, I don't know how I even know this, I just had a feeling. Like... I just knew, if that makes sense), my teacher... an "arts" or music teacher of some sort, but I can't remember now. She had a very rude vibe to her, and I felt pretty unimportant in comparison. She felt superior to me, and I was just a stupid kid who wasn't nearly as elegant as her, and she talked down to me, but not in an overly rude way? Like, tone of voice? I felt comfortable with her though in the sense that I was "used to" what was going on, although I'm not quite sure now what was going on.
So then it got really weird... we were talking, and then I realized, we were seriously talking. The speaking sensations were not how they are physically although they felt just as real, just different (and it was not like talking in a dream). And I had an accent, some sort of Irish accent. I was very surprised by this and I couldn't change it, I couldn't talk in my usual accent. I asked her about my voice and she said it's the same as usual, but said it in a snotty way that implied I always sound like... I can't explain it, you know when people of status rag on people of low-status? Like that, only in a "cultured" adult ragging on a younger person in a way that they're kind of disgusted but not actually mad? Kind of like "what are you talking about? yes. that is your voice. you always sound like an idiot, though."
After "noticing" my voice, I became more aware that something strange was going on. My vision started to distort way more than I thought possible (and I have experience with hallucinogens in the past, and the intense visuals with those were similar but a lot less "crazy" than these visual distortions). Everything in the room started changing sizes and whatnot. I somehow became aware of my physical body again, I think, because I started to "choke" again and the whirlpool of intense feelings began again. At this point, I was standing next to some large windows, the woman was on the other side of the room looking through cabinets for something related to our "lesson" or something... she was standing next to a black piano. I guess the "sucking"/raw/intense feelings were back full force. I remember the room in the house as I got "sucked" out of it... my exit from the room was like shrinking and flying, I was not in control at all, I was basically like a little tornado/funnel of "me" whirling through the room. I was sucked across the room, underneath the piano, and I even remember seeing the detail of the floor before being sucked right through it?!?!
I then was in my bed again. I was panicked and could not move my body, but I was still aware of my physical and astral (?) body at once. The intense feelings persisted. I felt like I was floating/sinking downwards through the mattress, freaked out, fought that feeling, floated upwards, back into my physical body. I was flailing my arms and I could see my arms limp on the bed, but ANOTHER PAIR thrashing in the air coming out of my stomach-area. And then I eventually snapped out of it. When I woke up I felt that really raw, sensitive skin flu-like feeling I mentioned earlier, "raw vision," etc... weird, right?? I woke up an hour and a half or so after going to sleep, by the way.
What to make of this? I'm so confused. I am a little scared, and totally shocked. The experience was more intense than I imagined it could/would be. And another interesting note on my "astral" arms when I saw them flailing around while I was trying to wake up: their outline was like a liquid-y, silver-y, rainbow-y color. there was just an outline visible, it was thin as yarn but very bright and noticeable. it was almost like the mercury in those thermometers... looked to be that consistency and color, only it shimmered rainbow-y specks like reflected light off glass.
And the vibrations/energy feelings were about 100x more intense than I imagined. I did not know it was possible to feel that much.
Any input on what happened? Advice? What do you guys think?? Sorry for the long post!!
Ok, not weird at all, all that stuff believe it or not is pretty normal as far as projections go. Yes, that was a phase. Unmistakably. Congrats.
First, The orgasmic feeling was the ever elusive F18. That one is tough to get to even for experienced people. It's good right :-D, I am personally kinda addicted to that one. I'd be interested if you could elaborate on that one some more. Was there a slight wind? Could you describe the color around you?
Contrary to what a lot of people will say, I don't think the person who seemed to be lecturing you was your guide. It sounds more like you projected into a normal F21 state. But do to your inexperience, (which is a blessing, trust me) and fearlessness you continued into a F23 state. In laymens terms. This is a self created bubble that someone who is passing on creates as they transition into the great oneness. I have been to many of these, the telltale signs are:
- there is only one other person
- the environment looks like it was created by one other person who has been stuck there way way to long.
Ok, quick notes to some big questions:
- yet 'teleportation' is normal on the astral, if you intend it, you just go there.
- you described the communication method supremely. It is not talking, it is just feeling and knowing.
- Yes, the vibrations can get really nuts, almost overwhelming at times. This is pretty normal, although I don't think I'll ever get used to it myself.
If you have any other questions, don't hesitate to ask, if you want more info, just scour this site's stickies. All you need to know is here, this place is a treasure trove of info.
Cheers,
Contenteo
Quote from: Contenteo on July 06, 2012, 15:15:00
Ok, not weird at all, all that stuff believe it or not is pretty normal as far as projections go. Yes, that was a phase. Unmistakably. Congrats.
First, The orgasmic feeling was the ever elusive F18. That one is tough to get to even for experienced people. It's good right :-D, I am personally kinda addicted to that one. I'd be interested if you could elaborate on that one some more. Was there a slight wind? Could you describe the color around you?
Contrary to what a lot of people will say, I don't think the person who seemed to be lecturing you was your guide. It sounds more like you projected into a normal F21 state. But do to your inexperience, (which is a blessing, trust me) and fearlessness you continued into a F23 state. In laymens terms. This is a self created bubble that someone who is passing on creates as they transition into the great oneness. I have been to many of these, the telltale signs are:
- there is only one other person
- the environment looks like it was created by one other person who has been stuck there way way to long.
Ok, quick notes to some big questions:
- yet 'teleportation' is normal on the astral, if you intend it, you just go there.
- you described the communication method supremely. It is not talking, it is just feeling and knowing.
- Yes, the vibrations can get really nuts, almost overwhelming at times. This is pretty normal, although I don't think I'll ever get used to it myself.
If you have any other questions, don't hesitate to ask, if you want more info, just scour this site's stickies. All you need to know is here, this place is a treasure trove of info.
Cheers,
Contenteo
F18?? F21?? F23?? I don't know this terminology, I will look into it after this post.
It was good/amazing but so overwhelming and unexpected that I don't know how I dealt with it, if that makes sense. If that feeling were to overcome me right now, I would be sure I was dying or something. At the time it was so overwhelming that I could barely focus on anything while it was in full whirlwind-mode... I don't recall any wind or sound. The colors were warm, like lights pinks and oranges (when I was in my bed). When it happened again in the room, the colors were the colors of the room morphed together, almost like mashing play-doh colors together (but with more white than any other color, I think that was the white walls of the room though... the other colors I remember distinctly are yellow and green, those were just colors in the room though), although I could still distringuish some things around me in a way, although they were severely distorted too while I was whirling through the air. Like I said, I didn't know it was possible to feel this much at once, and I am a very emotional person who also has vibrational/electric-like "fits" a few times a week that doctors are not sure about but I am assuming they are part of my temporal lobe epilepsy (it's like I will get an intense electric current running through my body. happens a lot. I cannot explain it. I just sit down, ride them out, and hope I don't have a heart attack or something... but these vibrations this morning were so much more intense, which I would not have imagined possible!!).
I do not think she was my spirit guide, but then again, what do I know... from reading experiences about spirit guides though, she didn't really seem to fit the bill. She seemed bitter as I said, like the arrogant/pretentious acquaintance or relative you have who will brag about how cultured they are and the things they have. She thought very highly of herself I could tell, and thought pretty lowly of me, although I felt safe in her presence. I did not once think she was going to harm me or anything. I don't even think she really noticed when I began to whirl out of the room, I think she was still distracted looking for whatever it was that she was looking for.
Thank you so much, by the way!!
Hi,
It does sound like a mostly uncontrolled projection. The teleportation thing is a natural way to get to where you thought of. Thoughts are acted upon and anything in your mind can manifest. Fear being the first (and worst) usually. You've sampled this one and the experience can run out of control easily. Stay calm and unreactive then you'll master more control of the situation. Eventually youll be able to control almost everything and then the fun starts.
Language is no problem as reading others thoughts is normal. These come clearer eventually as you can read any aspect from one entity to a city of them. The knowing feeling is typical and this can permeate into the waking physical too.
You've experienced lots of things and the enhanced reality of it. It gets more intense too, lots more. This takes time as you've had a quick run and now its time to learn to walk.
Great times to come.
Congrats.
Quote from: Szaxx on July 06, 2012, 16:27:43
Hi,
It does sound like a mostly uncontrolled projection. The teleportation thing is a natural way to get to where you thought of. Thoughts are acted upon and anything in your mind can manifest. Fear being the first (and worst) usually. You've sampled this one and the experience can run out of control easily. Stay calm and unreactive then you'll master more control of the situation. Eventually youll be able to control almost everything and then the fun starts.
Language is no problem as reading others thoughts is normal. These come clearer eventually as you can read any aspect from one entity to a city of them. The knowing feeling is typical and this can permeate into the waking physical too.
You've experienced lots of things and the enhanced reality of it. It gets more intense too, lots more. This takes time as you've had a quick run and now its time to learn to walk.
Great times to come.
Congrats.
Is it likely to happen again without me even trying?? If so, how likely? And how can I prevent it? I am actually quite tired right now, I have been for a few hours, but I am uneasy about falling asleep because I feel like I experienced enough for the day and just want to get some solid rest.
Also, is the uneasy feeling, even while awake, normal?? Like, do a lot of people feel scared or nervous when they start out and get results? I feel overjoyed and so many good feelings that this happened, but I am also quite freaked out. I have never been a skeptic, always a believer in magical/mystical/paranormal/otherworldly/etc things, since I was a child, but lately I have been investing more into the beliefs and then this happened and now my mind is blown.
And you mentioning the thought/feeling things permeating into the physical, too. My boyfriend and I have similar beliefs and he has been practicing/researching AP as well. The past couple weeks, he and I and even friends have noticed I will answer him without him even speaking. I of course think he spoke, but he'll say "how did you know I was about to say that?" and I'll say "you did say it" and a friend will say "no, he didn't speak" or I will hand him something and he'll say "how did you know I was going to ask for water?" and I will think he asked aloud and someone will point out: no, I turned and handed it to him without any words being spoken. Weird right? I have very deep, intense love for my boyfriend, and he for me, so it could be that, too.
Is the aching/raw/sensitive feeling after AP normal at all?
Likely to happen again?
Perhaps. But its tough to say. I would say slightly more. Understanding AP is pretty much a path of exploring the most intense boundary experience you pretty much can without dying. Being in touch with the knowledge that it is there is enough to trigger future events. But that's just speculation. When I discovered AP it was like an avalanche for me. I am sure people come into it different way.
Tired/Aching?
Yes, normal. I felt like crap for quite some time after each one of my 'sessions' when I started. In addition, I was constantly burdened by all sorts of surreal feelings. For instance, looking down at my physical body and knowing I can exist for long periods without it. Definitely weird and gives you that clear cut mind/body/spirit delineation. It is not easy norming to the fact that you had a multi-day experience. If could subjectively time it. I would say I spend more time over 'there' then I do here. That is measuring in hours. So yea. Tiredness is normal, but goes away once you start getting experienced. You kinda learn the Do's and Don't through trial and error.
Cheers,
Contenteo
Hi,
Its likely you'll get more but generally only a few each year. Echoing contenteo, its hard to say.
Being close to someone and knowing something before being asked is quite normal. Knowing they are in danger too. Im very familiar with this one many times.
I'd suggest you read all you can on the subject to get familiar with your experiences. Being scared of the unknown is normal and knowledge will remove this fear to a large degree. Keep an open mind, believing in wild magic is one thing, putting relative experiences into a category through knowledge is by far a better action to take. Something is out there not known to physics yet and that kind of mindset prevents the crazy chasers from ridiculing you.
You can feel tired too, you can get really tired. Its energy of some form thats being used. I've noticed on some occasions you awake in the physical totally refreshed and other times its like you've had no sleep at all, the latter being rare.
As far as the bleedthrough into the physical of your extra sensory perception, after all thats what it is, fear nothing, its a development of your psyche showing youre more spiritually advanced than some, terminology accepted. When you know of impending danger even life threatening (rare) you can act and save a life or two. That feeling is great once finalised.
Read up on clairvoyance it may give some pointers. If so then welcome to the knowing...
Youll understand eventually.
Welcome to the world of Non Physical Experiences! You'll no doubt create more questions than what you will actually answer!!