Interesting experience.

[Naykid]

I had some very interesting experiences this morning and wanted to share.  It's pretty long so I'll try and cut it down because I know some people feel if a post is too long they can't be bothered to read it so....

I became semi lucid while in a dating competition.  I don't know how many of you have seen the show or a commercial for the show about dating a millionaire, but that was what I found myself in.  There were a bunch of women, make-up artist, clothes people and security around.  At this point I was like a sheep and was following what others were doing and telling me to do.  I had to be close to six foot tall. There was a bunch of different things I did but it'll be boring for the guys me thinks.  Mostly it was me searching for the perfect dress to 'meet' the millionaire in or being shown around.  I ended up in a floor length sequins dress. dang, I can't remember the color now.. I've been interrupted like ten times while trying to write this down.  I think it was blue or purple.

Once I had the dress on I was ushered into a line which I was the last person and I was standing next to some stairs to my right.  I noticed a security guard that I had a couple words with earlier and I waved at him and said, hey, can you tell (forgot his name) that I wanted to talk to him privately?  He says, just you?   I smiled, ummm yeah.  Right away I felt several of the girls get pretty ticked off that he agreed and grabbed my hand and led me up the stairs.  We must had been in a basement area because we ended up outside on a really beautiful patio with a pool and cushioned benches.  He was sitting on one of the benches and I joined him.  He seemed pleasant enough but I was lucid enough to know I was married and that this was just a dream. (I didn't say that to him, I stuck to my character)  He politely asked me if he chose me would I need to be with him this much?  I got the idea he was saying I was needy. Haha.  Which is true I guess because when I love, I love hard. thank goodness my hubby is a hard lover type too.  Anyhoo, I laughed and said, I wanted to see you because we were shown horses earlier and they wouldn't let me pet or ride them and I love horses.  He was quite pleased with this for some reason, grabbed my hand and led me back to where the horses were.  But they weren't horses anymore they were enormous pigs. haha!!  I was laughing and saying,  omg, they are gianormas! Of course this was just something else to get my attention and was there to cause me to become even more lucid, but it had the opposite effect, I woke up immediately.

Right away I start thinking about the experience and whoosh, I was right back on the patio, but the scenario was different.  No longer was I in a competition but I was now a model...  I think because of the whole concept of the millionaire story line, I was already tall and dress to the nines so I didn't have to change so much.  This was fun, I have to admit.  I hate, I mean, I hate getting my picture taken but I was loving this and apparently I was good at it.   I was pretty lucid at this point and started to break away from what I felt was some kind of story-line after I had a couple of photo sessions with different photographers. ( I just couldn't resist, it really was fun, I felt like a little girl with the whole model fantasy going on)

Anyhoo, I was in a large hallway and I was suppose to be on my way to another photo shoot, with yet another photographer and I was suppose to go through one of the many doors lining the large hallway, but when I was looking around and just taking in the decor of the place I all of a sudden noticed a four by five foot wavy portal in place of where a door should have been.  I was so thrilled!  I had a huge grin on my face and I walked right into it.  I was expecting it to feel cool in some way, but I didn't feel anything.  bummer. 

I now find myself in another hallway but very tiny, I'd say ten feet in width and about thirty to forty feet in length.  I could see what looked to be like a little sitting area and I walked towards it and when I got into the sitting area and turned and looked to my left...... I popped right back into my physical.  I knew I saw something that scared the shite out of me and I wanted to go back.  Once again, I just start thinking about the experience, running it through my mind and before I knew it I was back in the small hallway.   I walked toward the sitting area and looked left again.  I can't for the life of me remember what the hell it looked like, but it was HUGE.  I was fully lucid at this point and this.....thing was telling me that I had to go into this other portal and kill a giant lion/tiger named...ghost.. lol and I would get something.  I have no idea what that something was but I walked right into another portal that was set into the wall, to the right.

This is the weirdest experience I have ever had to date.  There I was standing in what seemed to be WOW.  No shite.. I was standing in the game World of Warcraft!  I was lucid as right now and I was having a inner dialogue with myself about what I was seeing.  My hair had dropped into my line of vision and I noticed that when I focused on my hair the scene would start to melt, so I brushed my hair away and focused all my attention on the environment I was in.  I looked real, but the environment was just like in the game.  Cartoonish. 

There were other people there running around and I quickly asked someone where this ghost character was and someone pointed over at this dirt road leading up a hill.  I've played WOW, but nothing like my kids.  We did just get them the new game and I've been walking by it for days now but I digress.

I was in a area that looked similar to Stranglethorn.  I just couldn't believe how everything looked cartoonish.  I felt like I had shrunk and was put into the game.  It was crazy weird.  I walked up the hill but for some reason I started feeling a sense of urgency.  Out of no where this giant cartoon lion jumped out of the bushes.  I literally grabbed him and started yelling at this guy who was standing off to the side watching this play out, to shoot him for me while I held him.  The guy froze, with weapon in hand.  I yelled several times for him to hurry, kill it!  This guy was just frozen, staring at me dumbfounded.  LOL  I let the lion go and grabbed the weapon, (it was a very large sword..lol)  and slayed the lion, but I had to cut his heart out.  I know, ewwww.. but I did it without a second thought, and it was weird cutting into a cartoon lion.. he made some kind of noise and I popped right back into my body.

I tried to go back but failed. 

It was AWESOME!    And I did cut it down.. I didn't tell you about the conversation I had with one of the women photographer or several other things.   Sorry about the length.   

[Kanvus]

thats funny. your dream had 3 animals, portals, swords, and a cartoon lion that has guts. can't get more random than that.

[Naykid]

   It didn't feel random, it flowed for me, but I can see how it could seem that way.

Btw, is that you Eyyoshi? 

[Xanth]

I agree, very random indeed.

And no, it's not Eyyoshi.

[CFTraveler]

I have an idea on the symbology of the experience, not sure if you want to hear it.
(or read it).

[Naykid]

I still don't see how it could be random when there were multiple animals and multiple portals and I mentioned that I figured the scenario shifted to model because the first part I was already dressed like a model and real tall. 

I have an idea on the symbology of the experience, not sure if you want to hear it.
(or read it).

I'll be more than happy to hear it.  I gather the way you are asking me, that you assume it's going to be hurtful, but believe me I pretty much see several of the in-your-face symbologies, the loudest one being me being needy when it comes to love.  And then there's the whole physical beauty..etc.   

OK. I'm a bit scared..lol but have at CF. 

[Monk]

I still don't see how it could be random when there were multiple animals and multiple portals and I mentioned that I figured the scenario shifted to model because the first part I was already dressed like a model and real tall.

It may be random to everyone else since they werent in the dream. Transferring subjective experiences into objective words is indeed quite difficult. Keep that in mind Nay. Just a thought 

[Naykid]

It may be random to everyone else since they werent in the dream. Transferring subjective experiences into objective words is indeed quite difficult. Keep that in mind Nay. Just a thought 

Yeah, I know.    I think the reason I feel that it flowed is because there really wasn't much of a break in between me being physically awake and then going right back into it.  It didn't seem as disjointed as it reads.

[CFTraveler]

I still don't see how it could be random when there were multiple animals and multiple portals and I mentioned that I figured the scenario shifted to model because the first part I was already dressed like a model and real tall. 

I'll be more than happy to hear it.  I gather the way you are asking me, that you assume it's going to be hurtful, but believe me I pretty much see several of the in-your-face symbologies, the loudest one being me being needy when it comes to love.  And then there's the whole physical beauty..etc.   

OK. I'm a bit scared..lol but have at CF. 

No, if it were hurtful I'd pm you.
The first part of your experience reminded me a little of Alice in Wonderland (the latest movie version, with her getting little and all that stuff) and the lion-tiger stuff just made me think that the lion represents christianity- like in all the CS Lewis books Aslan the Lion represents Jesus, or the Christ- and how your having to kill him and take his heart out may have something to do with either how you view religion or if there may be changes in the way you think of Jesus or the idea of the Christ- the connection to the heart may not be there for you, or you don't want it to be there- something to do with conflict and emotions.  Of course, it may have nothing to do with this, and it may be more personal, like someone named Leo, or something to do with jungles.
The reason I hesitated is because religion is so 'touchy' and difficult theme, and people use it to attack others so easily.
And I could be completely wrong.
Anyway, that's what I thought of when I read the account- very interesting, mystical (yes, mystical with all the portals and the taming of power animals).
I have the feeling you passed some kind of test.
Maybe.

[Naykid]

No, if it were hurtful I'd pm you.
The first part of your experience reminded me a little of Alice in Wonderland (the latest movie version, with her getting little and all that stuff) and the lion-tiger stuff just made me think that the lion represents christianity- like in all the CS Lewis books Aslan the Lion represents Jesus, or the Christ- and how your having to kill him and take his heart out may have something to do with either how you view religion or if there may be changes in the way you think of Jesus or the idea of the Christ- the connection to the heart may not be there for you, or you don't want it to be there- something to do with conflict and emotions.  Of course, it may have nothing to do with this, and it may be more personal, like someone named Leo, or something to do with jungles.
The reason I hesitated is because religion is so 'touchy' and difficult theme, and people use it to attack others so easily.
And I could be completely wrong.
Anyway, that's what I thought of when I read the account- very interesting, mystical (yes, mystical with all the portals and the taming of power animals).
I have the feeling you passed some kind of test.
Maybe.

WOAH!! I've got chills.

That is crazy, because I've been having some God/Jesus issues for a few years now, but more recently it's has weighed heavy on my heart because I feel like I'm ummmm... almost betraying "God".   It was becoming more of a rock and a hard place for me than I expected.   I mean, I was never really overly religious or anything but I did pray to someone or something and I used to say stuff before meditating, like surround me in God's light, keep my family safe...etc. Now I just say divine. But with Christmas and all the songs, I felt like I couldn't like the songs or Christmas stuff, because I don't believe in the common God concept anymore.  I really felt bad the first Christmas song I heard this year.  lol  I love Christmas songs and all things Christmas.  My hubby assured me that I could still love Christmas. 

I've been meditating on it for several months now, asking for an answer, and it looks like I just got it.   Thank you so very much CF, I don't feel guilty anymore. 

[Stookie]

That is crazy, because I've been having some God/Jesus issues for a few years now, but more recently it's has weighed heavy on my heart because I feel like I'm ummmm... almost betraying "God".   It was becoming more of a rock and a hard place for me than I expected.   I mean, I was never really overly religious or anything but I did pray to someone or something and I used to say stuff before meditating, like surround me in God's light, keep my family safe...etc. Now I just say divine. But with Christmas and all the songs, I felt like I couldn't like the songs or Christmas stuff, because I don't believe in the common God concept anymore.  I really felt bad the first Christmas song I heard this year.  lol  I love Christmas songs and all things Christmas.  My hubby assured me that I could still love Christmas.

I've been meditating on it for several months now, asking for an answer, and it looks like I just got it.   Thank you so very much CF, I don't feel guilty anymore.  smiley

That is an interesting interpretation and makes a lot of sense. I've had that same issue, growing up a christian and finding new experiences, and then a bit of guilt or questioning whether you're abandoning christ. I think it's a test you have to go through when embarking a path like this, from a place like that. However, I've since come to a new realization of what "Christ" is and the reality of it, something that can be experienced, not just have faith in. Not the long-haired hippy with sandals in the pictures, but a true passionate driving force in the soul of humanity. It's beyond religion and christianity. It's also very easy to miss when your self-centered, selfish, egotistical, materialistic, or full of desire. Christmas is an easy time to experience it for yourself, as there are so many opportunities to give and help and have the experience of Christ in your heart.

I know this sounds religious, but I'm talking about a true, verifiable experience, not belief or faith. You don't even have to call it "Christ", but if christians are looking for the true Christ, that's where they will find it.

[Naykid]

That is an interesting interpretation and makes a lot of sense. I've had that same issue, growing up a christian and finding new experiences, and then a bit of guilt or questioning whether you're abandoning christ. I think it's a test you have to go through when embarking a path like this, from a place like that. However, I've since come to a new realization of what "Christ" is and the reality of it, something that can be experienced, not just have faith in. Not the long-haired hippy with sandals in the pictures, but a true passionate driving force in the soul of humanity. It's beyond religion and christianity. It's also very easy to miss when your self-centered, selfish, egotistical, materialistic, or full of desire. Christmas is an easy time to experience it for yourself, as there are so many opportunities to give and help and have the experience of Christ in your heart.

I know this sounds religious, but I'm talking about a true, verifiable experience, not belief or faith. You don't even have to call it "Christ", but if christians are looking for the true Christ, that's where they will find it.

No, I understand what you are saying, I think. lol Christ is more of a feeling than a being... right?  Have you ever read a book called The Messenger?  I've mentioned it a couple time over the years.  It's about this man who gets regressed and he finds out or believes, that he is Saul, (Paul the apostles) Really interesting read.  You should check it out. http://www.amazon.com/Messengers-Angelic-Presence-Return-Miracles/dp/0671016873  I think organized religions have just totally ruined it for everyone. 

I'm about as far as you can get from materialistic behaviour, especially for a woman.  I don't get my hair, or nails done and I hate shopping, I can't remember the last time I bought something that I didn't need.   I did not receive one gift under the tree, because I don't need that anymore, but I do enjoy watching everyone else having a smile on their face.  I don't know about the rest, if I'm self centered, I won't be able to tell anyways, because the narcissism will get in the way. 

[Stookie]

Christ is more of a feeling than a being... right?

Yeah, or even a deep-down driving force. It's about putting yourself aside for the greater of everyone/everything, and experiencing the true nature of things behind all the egos and materialism. This is what Jesus taught (not saying he was real, but the teachings themselves), but it all got screwed up in the translation or something.

[Naykid]

I think that is why I don't like thinking of the concept of God as some human being.  I've felt that we, as a whole make up this essence, if you will.   I don't know.. lol   It sounds good, but I don't think I totally understand or get it yet.  One day I will. 

I was looking at MDM's website and find his way of explaining some concepts very interesting.  The whole connection between us all...etc.