Subconsciously afraid of Projecting?

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I'm not sure if this was an OBE or Dream, but last night I had this experience, its still fuzzy in my mind.
I am not sure if this has been happening for a while, or it all happened last night, but I will explain best I can.

I am not sure if it was an OBE or Dream, it seemed like it may have been an OBE happening that transitioned into a Dream

I'll just call it a dream, so this makes as much sense as possible.


Last night I had this dream where I was about to astral project/OBE. In this dream I was separating from my body, and I guess I was in sleep paralysis, it sure felt like it. I began hearing the noises, voices, and seeing things even though I am sure my eyes were closed. Now note, this is nothing new, I've experienced these things loads of times in the past. The only thing is, I started to become scared and panicking. So I woke up.

I think that part was a dream, because I was sleeping on a different part of the bed, where I wasn't originally at.
Now I think this is where the OBE began, I started having sleep paralysis and started getting all the effects. Seeing through eyelids, noises, voices, images. This time I was in the correct spot in my bed. I started to panic again, and I began screaming, but since its sleep paralysis I couldn't move my mouth, so I was...screaming sort of, with my mouth closed.

I eventually wake up (In the dream), then start to look around and go back to sleep, after that I remember nothing.


This has always been an issue for me, and I think this is why I haven't been able to project for 6+ years.

The best way I can explain it is:

When I'm fully awake, I am brave and not afraid, when I am conscious enough I won't be scared
But when I  am sleeping, my subconscious seems to take over and it seems I am subconsciously very afraid.


I don't know really, but it seems like this dream was trying to tell me and show me why I wasn't able to project for so long. It makes sense. I've experienced sleep paralysis and gotten so close to astral projecting MANY MANY MANY times, but each time I would get too excited or too afraid.
I know right now, as I type this, I am not afraid at all of even the thought of projecting, but when it happens... you know...

Please, tell me how I can fix this problem? How can I control my emotions when I am barley even conscious... or not conscious at all....

[Bluefirephoenix]

First you seem to understand that your not in danger and your fear seems irrational. You have not had any bad experiences that your aware of to account for the fearful feelings. 
     The source of the subconscious fears can be gotten to by focusing inward. Instead of looking for projecting out into a room try the trance and going deeper within you. During this trance you have to start to release and let go of those fears.  Going to the Source praying for help can also go a long way toward helping. Believing there is something bigger than anything out there that is on your side and cares about you will make a very different world seem a bit more friendly as your starting to step into it. If you have trouble with that belief then ask for a helpful guide to assist. Help is always out there. I had a hard time overcoming these fears too and sometimes I still struggle with them Surrending them to a higher being and allowing myself to be guided through a strange place I find to be the best way to handle that obstacle. You may not be able to see the guides angels or God at first but trust that they're there and just tell them whats going on and what you need to do.

[Ecila]

The above post has fantastic suggestions. I think perception has a lot to do with it as well. But I also wanted to suggest that maybe, when you start to become afraid, try just going to your "happy place" or a calm outside area where you feel safe. Don't think of it as projecting, just as a way to calm yourself. Just think about being in a beautiful and calming place, take a few deep breaths and try to relax. That's what I do when I get uncomfortable during my travels. I hope you have better luck!