Another newbie who don't know how close she was to projecting, so please tell me

[Danevang]

Hey there! Since I'm new here I might also just do a super quick introduction.

Name: Mia.
Age: 22.
Nationality: Danish.
Experience with OBEs and APs: Close to none.

-Now on to the fun part!

About a month ago or so, I read a random article on wikipedia. It was part of a forum game. It so happened to be on sleep paralysis-and I was stunned for a second while reading it. So that was it! What I'd experienced once as a teenager, and a lot more now as an adult (I'm a horrible sleeper, I can stay awake for days, and then collapse and sleep for days too). I googled it, and when I read about astral projecting I was even more shocked. What an amazing thing!

And then it struck me. I could meet him again. The guy I fell in love with, who commited suicide May this year. I'm still not over the grief, and this is the one, big reason why I so desperately wanted to learn this. I relaxed myself. I would have to go into sleep paralysis again first, and that doesn't happen to me all that often -maybe once or twice a month, at best.

The most amazing thing happened that same night. I went into sleep paralysis. I was about to fall asleep, but then I remembered what I'd read about online. All of the different methods, how to stay calm and not get excited; to go with the flow. And I did. I tried to get out of my body by simply standing up, and here's what happened:

A sound roared in my ears, and the best way to describe it, was that it was similar to when experienced a slight pain in my ears from even the slightest noises, when I accidentically overdosed slightly on morphine once. Like, when a baby screams really loud, and your ears reacts by going *crack*. It was very dark, and my entire body felt peculiar. Tingly and almost ticklish. I also heard very highpitched noises. I suddenly saw what I was SURE was someone's face with my eyes closed, and it was in bright yellow/green, like neon. I don't know who it was, it was blurry but clear at the same time. It was at that point that I just stopped what I was doing, because it was all very new to me, and honestly I was freaked out. Right before I saw the face, my heart was going crazy in my chest, and I'm not sure that it was just from being terrified. I was as calm as I could be.

So, was I any close? Or miles away from projecting? Please tell me!

[NoY]

Sounds to me you are doing well you just need a little more experience so you know what to expect, Keep at it

:NoY:

[personalreality]

i checked out of this post after you italicized him.  seemed too cheesy.

do what NoY says.

[Pauli2]

I'm just guessing as I'm poor at this OBE stuff. I think you were at least halfway to OBE. The "rapid heart beat" is considered by many to be non-physical body action; just to be your chakras pumping around a lot of prana in your nadis (goggle it up).

The noise and sound is considered by some people, as just some astral garbage, and the sound must be ignored as parts of it is your subconscious in a mix with other peoples thoughts in a massive disorder, which only will disturb your OBE attempt if you start paying attention to the noise, voices, bangs, etc. So, ignore the sound, it will go away when you OBE.

The face you saw was most likely your subconscious creating it.

[CFTraveler]

You were indeed very close- the whoosh noise is what happens when you're in transition and still receiving input from your body.
As to your deceased friend, I suggest you hold off on trying to contact him until you feel you have processed and vented/discharged a lot of your grief, because it does block you.
Other than that, you did very well.

[Danevang]

Thanks to all of you

I'm sorry if it sounded cheesy, but that's the reality of it; I was madly in love with a guy who's no longer here, and that's the only reason why I do this and fight so hard to see him again. I don't feel like lying, even if it's the internet. I'm talking to a psychiatrist at the moment and trying my best to handle my anxiety and grief; I understand that these feelings of regret and self-blame only stand in my way to achieving anything.

I'm very thankful that I got so far, because I understand that many people struggle to get as far as I did for years to get where I was. I'll keep practicing meditating, because I seem to be unable to clear my mind for more than 5 seconds at a time :/

[personalreality]

no no, don't fret.  you do what you feel you need to do, cheesy or not.