The words "Fi Fidera" what it means from my OBE & past life experience

[Gardenia]

Hi Everyone. I'm new here and have been wanting to share my experience since I had this OBE/Lucid dreaming then past life regression experience all in the one morning. I have to say that my goals had always been to do past life regression rather than to astral project. However no matter how many times I tried to relax and attempt regression, I have not been able to until my sister suggested astral projection instead. Much of my OBE experience has been past lucid dreaming e.g. hearing people talking beside my bed and feeling the objects they present to me as if it was real.

But recently, I have had a few random OBE or lucid dreaming or past life regressions, I don't know. Sometimes they happen in the one session and occur randomly; especially during times when I have woken up but wanted to sleep in and not being able to get back to sleep completely, I somehow finding myself in an in-between state where I have control of my thoughts. Where half the time I can decide on a whim what I want to do next. Once, I even felt my cat lying on my stomach all through the OBE/past life regression and when I woke up she was still there

Anyway, back to the topic at hand. This experience started when I woke up and wanted to go back to sleep (usually happens on a weekend ). I couldn't immediately so I practiced relaxation technique starting from the toe. I then felt myself in between, so I tried to do past life regression but I couldn't so I thought to do OBE instead. The next thing I knew the house seemed busy with my cousins visiting (but in reality they weren't). I felt myself floating out of my room and trying to avoid them , I went out the back door. The next thing I did was thinking I wanted to fly but at the same time was scared of doing so but I ended up flying without a problem. I found myself flying towards the tree in the backyard and touching it but at the same I was scared that the branches would scratch me. I then decided I wanted to fly to London (I'm from Australia and have never been, but have always felt a connection to England) and on the quick journey there I realised that there was nothing to fear as I was transparent. I flew to London, saw an old tower and touched its steeple. I felt the steeple so real under the tips of my fingers. Down below I saw some mausoleum like courtyard, over the stone wall of that mausoleum courtyard was another courtyard; the latter housed an old grave yard. In the stoneworks of the building I had visited was carved two symbols, like a coat of arms. It was quite detailed, and I remember thinking that I should try and memorise it so I can draw it when I wake up but then I quickly realised that it was too detailed for me to remember, so I gave up that notion. I also saw on the stonework next to the coat of arms, the carved words "FI FIDERA". I did not know what it meant in the OBE or in real life. I had never come across this word before, but thought in my OBE that it may have been Latin?

After that I left to go to a place, an old ruin, that I had gone to in my first travelling OBE, I wanted to explore it further short of buying a ticket there (Funnily, in real life I found this place on Google after getting indications from that OBE as to its direction from London and name. The place I found on Google was in the same direction of London and only had 1 letter wrong in its spelling but that is a whole other story. On Google I also saw the gates to this place). I landed behind the gates on the green grass. I was going to walk further in but before I did, I remembered the dream that I had in real life just the other day about this place; in that dream there was a girl who hated me with a passion. I remember knowing her name in that dream but immediately forgot it when I woke up (I also forgot what I had done to her or what she did to me though I remembered knowing it clearly in the dream). Fear suddenly gripped me and I was scared that if she was still here and if her spirit met mine, that she would follow me back...so I got out of there quick smart and instantly came home into my body. Funny thing was that wasn't the end of my journey.

The house still had its visitors so I didn't want to wake up. I was still in between, so I decided to try past life regression again. I tried the bridge method but it didn't work. I didn't go anywhere so I decided to use the door method and felt myself walking down the imaginary corridor with doors on both sides. As I passed the door, I had every intention of going further but found door number 15 drew my attention. I opened the door; and saw a large wharf/marina, there were big modern-ish ships. I was confused. I wondered what year it could be as I wanted to go back further. The scene shifted and I saw a young girl sitting on a rickety wooden chair, near a table. I wondered if I could be the child but no, I was looking at the child. I was the mother. I saw myself going down to a stream on the wharf to wash clothes. I am in the mother's mind now. I thought the great depression, America 1939. In the mother's mind, I remember seeing a man's body floating in the water and thinking that it was not uncommon due to the starvation. Next I thought that both I and my child would both die, if I didn't do anything; just like the bodies. I was crying as I gave my child up for adoption to a rich family (in real life, I felt the tears and heard myself sobbing in bed). Next I wanted to know the name of the lady but famous names kept popping up in my head and I knew that I was coming out of it. I decided to leave that life. I then heard a bodiless female voice advise me that before I left, I had to wrap it up. She seemed quite knowledgeable. So I walked backwards, probably to retreat from that life, and then turned around towards the door. I saw a stand with a statue of Jesus and Buddha. I knew that this was part of what she meant. I offered and drank tea to both before going out the door. I locked the door behind me thinking I did not want anything to come through. The End. I then started dreaming about the meaning of "Fi Fidera", with funny suggestions such as shopping popping up and funnily I thought it would be better if I just woke up and google it. So I woke up. I googled it after I recorded the experience in my app.

The closest understanding I could find of "Fi Fidera" using google translate, and piecing words from different languages together is "Faith, We Trust". I had no idea what "Fi Fidera" means. I only learnt italian in my early high school years, dropped that for Japanese mid years and left that for French in the later years of high school. I googled the word and had found it used together in googble books in what appears to be a religious text in what language I do not know.

Does anyone out there know exactly what these words mean and language? I guess the words has been in my thoughts for the last two months since the above experience. I wonder what message the experience is trying to give me? I am technically catholic, but do not practice. I have not been to church in years apart from just visiting old cathedrals and going to weddings. I believe that God is everywhere, especially in the heart and all religion come from good intentions. Hence believing in God does not preclude me from believing in Buddhaism and its practice either.

Thoughts? Comments?

Thank you all for reading my long post  

[Lionheart]

 Hello and Welcome to the Astral Pulse!
Wow, what an extraordinary event and you maintained full memory recall. That's fascinating. It looks like you have a personal quest on your hands. The NPR, which stands for Non Physical Reality has always shown itself to me in the form of puzzles and quests. But your intent was to do Past Life Regressions, so I would say that you were successful.
I have no Idea what the "FI Fidera" stands for, but i can ask when I Phase the next time. I'm sure it's going to be something that has great meaning to you though, that's the reward you get for solving the puzzle or following it to the end.
What I have found on a brief Google search is that the word Fidera comes form the Latin word "Fidelis", which means "Faithful". The only thing I can find for "Fi" is that it is the country code for Finland and that it's the fourth note in the Musical scale. http://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/fi

[Gardenia]

Hi Lionheart. Thank you for that. This is such a great and active site. I'm glad to have come across here and be able to share and discuss my & others experiences. I will need to read up on Non Physical Reality and a great deal more I'm sure since I am just an amateur dabbling in OBE. I wondered whether the voice of the woman was my guide talking to me? I will also have to try and contact my guide next time, I want to meet them and know who they are. I wonder if the words had anything to do with an OBE I had a few months prior where I was supposedly a monk in 17 century Europe.

I will also have to read up on Phase? It seems thoroughly remarkable to be able to ask questions in the astral plane. Thank you in advance for asking the question for me. I think it will be years til I can do that. I think I had an OBE today, it wasn't as strong, as I seemed to be phasing in and out due to my needing to wake up at a certain time and worrying about that in my mind. In that OBE I didn't know where I wanted to go for a while, and now looking at your post 'reward for solving a puzzle and following it to the end' I should have tried to go back there and try to solve the puzzle some more. In my mind I thought I had already been to a specific destination and didn't want to go back 

Also thank you for the research on the words    Putting what you found together on the latin meaning, it could potentially mean "Pah, Faithful!" 

I have found the words used together here:

http://books.google.com.au/books?id=3rgTAAAAQAAJ&pg=PA2&lpg=PA2&dq=%22fi+fidera%22&source=bl&ots=q8oHdZ_BZY&sig=Nr_-sAKPkE3dZ_UZ6u35gN-cG2o&hl=en&sa=X&ei=9pheUJzQJMejmQXarICoCQ&ved=0CEoQ6AEwBQ#v=onepage&q=%22fi%20fidera%22&f=false

And here:

http://books.google.com.au/books?id=aUcDAAAAMAAJ&pg=PA432&lpg=PA432&dq=%22fi+fidera%22&source=bl&ots=HzxbDNjRCg&sig=03mL339WYLUqJ7_luj6HqP64LxI&hl=en&sa=X&ei=25heUMDFCKSeiAfpk4CABQ&ved=0CDEQ6AEwAg#v=onepage&q=%22fi%20fidera%22&f=false

And here:

http://books.google.com.au/books?id=tdM_AAAAcAAJ&pg=PA13&lpg=PA13&dq=%22fi+fidera%22&source=bl&ots=GQ6TPJwmpT&sig=fd-7TSPsE4n-54Fm4d0S6V6flTo&hl=en&sa=X&ei=9pheUJzQJMejmQXarICoCQ&ved=0CE0Q6AEwBg#v=onepage&q=%22fi%20fidera%22&f=false

Funny that I just noticed the years of these books on google search to show around 17 and 18th Century. Still do not know the meaning of the words though.

This search is getting very interesting indeed and I am very excited

[Lionheart]

Funny that I just noticed the years of these books on google search to show around 17 and 18th Century. Still do not know the meaning of the words though.

This search is getting very interesting indeed and I am very excited

It looks like you are honing in quite well on your answers here. The fact that you are finding the words linking to the 17th and 18th century should confirm to you that what you were being shown was indeed a Past Life. I personally have never asked about mine, for some reason it doesn't seem important to me.
Keep us informed with the results of your finding and further experiences. I would love to hear that you have verified this for real this for real. I just recently watched a great video by Michael Newton. The entire video is based on Past Life Regression. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0QDT58Q6Zxo
His first sign that something was weird was when he was doing Hypnosis on a gentleman that had a pain in his side that Doctors couldn't find a purpose for. He put this guy under and the man started to talk about being in a war and getting injured. The entire time Michael was more interested in verifying this as real then he was helping this poor man, due to the fact that Michael was totally astounded.
   

[Liminalitus]

I know if you put an emphasis on the ending "a" in fidera, and you pronounce the whole word like "Fid-eh-rAH", in arabic that's في فدارة, meaning "In the circuit"

Probably of no help. ;P

[Gardenia]

  Thanks for that Liminalitus. I've learnt an arabic word that I won't forget and quite profound too, as ain't we all in the circuit . I actually saw the words Fi Fidera carved out visually in the OBE and that was how it was spelt exactly , hence my search for the exact meaning If I was more artistically oriented, that would have certainly helped me to remember the coat of arms next to the words for more clues.

Lionheart: Thank you for the youtube link. It was actually funny seeing a sceptic turn into a believer. I have always been interested in past lives. I just wanted to know what I got up to previously Anything interesting at least. I also think that if there is a past life, surely you must bring some of it to the current life and wonder what aspect of my past personality is still affecting me now. We're here to learn afterall. However since being on this site, I've had two NPR   and found myself wondering around aimlessly in them due to the opportunities of achieving something more...esp coming across the retrieval posts. Anyway, I tried to tell myself to take it slow. Just learn to walk before you run

P.s. is there a post in the forum on the safety of astral projection, I've tried searching, people are warning me of malevolent spirits etc and I have found that this fear has been holding me back?

[Lionheart]

 Hello, just know you are say and you shall be!   If you wish though for your own piece of mind you can create your orb of white light around yourself when you project. I myself create a Tetrahedral Shield around myself everyday.

[NoY]

the problem with Shields is this

the universe decides to give you your fair share of dark and light, when you shield yourself its like spraying negativity on all those around you, your asking everyone else to carry your cross

its just not moral

:NoY:

[Lionheart]

 
Noy, I agree with almost everything you say here. But this one I have to question. I make this with the intention of allowing like minded , good natured people and entities in and keeping the others that aren't out. I can't see how this would hurt other people.
It is solely to protect my own "space". 

[Szaxx]

When wrapped in barbed wire for protection, anything you bump into will say ouch...

[Gardenia]

Just wondering why a shield is considered a barb wire? Doesn't it just stop harm from touching you? Otherwise it would have no effect as Lionheart says (bad out, good in)? What if it is a smooth shield? Or is it the idea that the bad you sent out will have to go somewhere? Last time I OBE and I asked for protection somehow I saw a mary pendant glowing on our dressing table, which when I picked up filled me with a sense of peace. Is that 'barb wire'? Most other times, I don't bother with protection, trusting in the good, but then I would wonder if it is safe...Genuinly curious as to the concept of shields = barb wire....

[Szaxx]

Hi,
Ok I see you are confused. Putting up a shield. Lets look at the world we know. In most of the developed world we have a nuclear deterrent, a shield.
Then places who have totally disconnected themselves from free access use the fear of the masters. That being do as your told or be severely dealt with, almost a death culture. No one will enter this.country through fear, a shield. The un developed countries have little to offer if serious help is required, its not a shield as such but the problems can be exacerbated if any should develop.
They all have a sting in their tail.
If an outsider thought about visiting us or an attempt to communicate came from a totally peaceful society, they may have second thoughts. Too many rules to follow and having to tread on eggshells in every action taken wouldn't be pleasurable experience.
Putting up a shield is a defensive action in itself. The young of today do this when they wear their hoodie.
This action will work against them.
Have a strategic action by all means when astral but a shield?
Fear nothing, theres always a way out, youll feel their intentions if you meet any entities. Instinct kicks in and you'll take control. The nasties see this a mile away and stay clear. Show fear and you'll undo yourself for not being ready. Its your call, you'll only scare yourself.
Be strong and confident. Nothing but good will approach you.

[Lionheart]

Just wondering why a shield is considered a barb wire?

A shield is not considered "barbed wire". This is just Szaxx's own comparison.

[Szaxx]

Hi,
Its a similee.
I actually missed the sentence explaining this.
1-0 to Lionheart.

I see it as dressed for war expect trouble.
I've had nothing bad that can't be controlled in a very long time. (decades)...