Did I see a conscious form of energy?

[SephirothX]

My view on reality has been "revealing" itself to me more and more lately, I have become very spiritual, searching for the origins of humanity, the origins of the division of the mind and our current states of being, and I have been looking into the origins of the monotheistic view of "Jehovah" among many other deities and gods with a wrath and strong sense of "self" rather than an embracing "all" characteristic.

The "god" I view, can be called anything, the infinite source from which all things come, an infinite spiral, whether we have been diverted from this original source or not, I do not know.

I know little to nothing about Astral Projection, yet. I have recently been researching to see if this life is really an illusion, as I believe everything is infinite and comes from the same original source or creation. In the past couple of months I've been slowly reading more and more books. I've read the Tao Te Ching, Hua Hu Ching, Baghavad-Gita, Mahabharata, etc. I've been looking into eastern philosophies. I haven't really started meditating much, nor have I learned yogic ways, but I have the very basics of meditation down; I've been looking into the chakra/kundalini system among many other spiritual "devices" mentioned throughout several religions; everything from chakras/kundalini to metatrons cube and sacred geometry. I am dedicating my entire life to this research and eventually I will go on a journey in search for a guru, though I believe I have already found my first guru, as I believe anything can be a guru.

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To my statements and questions:

Last night I was at a friend's house, a nearby light was shining through a flower/vine and projecting an image onto the wall. It was the very basics of sacred geometry. I was astonished to see it so coincidentally through the opening in the stems/vines of a flower within the same week I discovered sacred geometry. A point separated into point a and point b; forming two circles of equal diameter (though it was mostly only the vesica piscis which was visible).

My friend told us not to touch it as she didn't know what it was yet, so what did I do being my curious self? I touched it, put one of my hands over it and closed my eyes trying to concentrate and focus, a friend of mine did the same on the other side with his opposite hand. Everything he saw, I had been seeing the exact polar opposite in every way over a 3 dimensional plane. The very first thing we saw was little... "energy" or light particles(?) kind of floating around forming three dimensional spheres that started moving around, they then formed or changed into triangles or pyramids and some other stuff happened. The last thing we were able to see before we removed our hands was what looked like a giant butterfly made out of a collective of the energy. We stopped for about five minutes and involved my other friend.

This other friend I was with has always been... "out there", claiming to be a strong wicken from her bloodline, though most just think she's crazy. I can't explain it, it really does all sound crazy, but she told us she was channeling energy from the source we were seeing. I put my hand on her shoulder, as did another friend of ours; We could both, visible as day, see the three of us with our eyes closed. It was all white light or energy covering every inch of our physical form, everything else was black because our eyes were closed, maybe some outlines of stuff around us, but for the most part I could only see us. At first I jumped back, thinking "what the hell was that?" and then I put my hand back and it was still there, I could see all of our movements as well.

She said that we were viewing things through the eyes of our other selves in the world within our own. I have no clue what she was talking about honestly. I believe everything is a conscious form of energy, and so I believe I was just seeing energy emanating from the source into our physical or metaphysical forms, thus being able to see the forms with my eyes closed.

What was this? What did I experience? How could I see without my eyes open?

I then returned alone and meditated near the projection and placed my hand upon it, the only thing I could "see" was a swirling vortex basically pulling in the space around it, the center was visible, yet transparent and I could see the center of the center, if that makes any sense. Visually the "physics" of it were much like this picture:



While the motion of it was much like what is listed below, it wasn't related to top/bottom; the entirety of everything around it was spiraling in towards the center, much like a tornado pulling in space from all directions, rather than air.



What was this? Am I discovering something? I am still completely baffled at it all.
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Note: No I was not on acid or any hallucinogenics, nor have I ever been, nor will be. I have had one OBE about two years ago, though I was stupid and freaked out instead of enjoying it, and I have had many lucid dreams over the years.

My favorite lucid dreams so far were:
1.) A strange dream, the electrical grid and all technology had stopped working, I saw my neighbors and my dad as young adults, in their 20s. We somehow fixed a few cars to get them working again. I met up with friends (whom I don't have in real life) and their two little girls; it was their birthday. We were driving on the interstate and there seemed to be pulses in the sky that were destroying clouds, almost like an aerial battle without vehicles, at least none that I could see. The sky then started morphing into what looked like silk kimonos of all different colors, though mostly red. The best way to describe, as they weren't physical, it was the sky or something in the sky morphing around dimensional space. Then we got out of the car and started walking along a path between the interstate side rail and several fields. The first field was of luminous, extra large sakura trees. The next field was actually a stream (river, creek, something) filled with GIANT lotus flowers luminescent/glowing and the entire area was also covered with dark, twisting vines that covered up about 35% of everything that could be seen. The next field was a somewhat tall corn field, nothing more than that, and the corn was also luminous, almost gold. The next field seemed like an adaptation to the corn field, the size of the stalks had been multiplied, there were flowers growing out where kernels had "blossomed" and it was also glowing, even more so than the former two. Finally we came upon a park table/bench and a field of grass (the side paths were over) and we were going to celebrate the girls' birthday. Her mom gave her a little glowing beed, and the girl picked up a small purple flower petal. She dropped them at the same time, and they floated down, almost as if there was a magical force around them, falling at a constant unchanging rate, different than even if a person were on the moon. The beed began to glow brighter until the two fell to the ground. The girl then picked them up, took something to carve into a tree and placed the items in the tree I believe. Darkness soon overtook the park area, and I could hear what sounded like a werewolf howling. We ran away instantly, on the way back, the dad had been taken by whatever was in the woods, and you could hear him screaming as he was ripped apart or eaten. I and one of the women made it back to the car safely, but we had all forgotten about the kids, so I ran as fast as I could to save the girls, which I did. However, when trying to get back to my seat in the car, I noticed a man running faster than any human could possibly imagine, he swept the second woman, who had not yet made it to the car, off of her feet and basically tackled her to the ground. He began biting her neck, and in a creepy voice, not even translyvanian he gave some kind of warning, I cannot remember, to all of humanity. I instantly woke up.

2.) Time had ceased, on the television, there was an eclipse; the moon covering the sun. I could not move much of anything other than my physical self. I was exactly in the same position I had fallen asleep after coming home from school, as well everything was EXACTLY in the same place, including my dog. I could not lift papers, I could not move my book bag or change the TV channel, my dog was not conscious, and I could not move her, everything was physically stuck together, as if they were boulders too heavy to move, or if they had merged into one and could not be moved... I can't explain it. Outside the sky looked much like a nebula, the ground at the end of the street had been chipped away, there was really nothing to do in this dream, so I just meditated after a while. I was in this dream for at LEAST a day, probably longer. When I finally forced myself to wake up, it had only been two minutes in reality.

3.) I knew I was in a dream and asleep instantly and found myself in complete empty space. I then created my own reality from scratch, my own planets, starts, natural laws, my own physics, my own humanoids and animals/plants, everything. I was the creator for a change.

I have had dreams that have later happened in real life many, MANY times through my life, since I was a kid. I've had dreams that never involved me, nor people I knew, I've even had dreams about people dying who were later on the news =/. I predicted my sister's second pregnancy through a dream, and continued to pull an April fools joke that ended up turning bad because she had just found out the night before that she was pregnant D:.

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This is something weird and I believed unrelated, but I honestly have no clue now:

A couple of hours prior to this, I had been hanging out with a friend of a friend, because I'd been recently telling her of my findings as of yet. The two guys believe they were connected to each other by mind or soul, and that they could clearly and completely see a world beyond our own and had been learning immortal techniques. I thought he was crazy, and later I found out he almost died from an accidental acid trip >_>; his friend had multiple sheets in a water bottle and he took a drink a couple years back without knowing.

He kept talking about this "dark beast" which had no name that he believed to have created everything in this universe. His two sons, the serpent and the one and only, which he basically said were like Zeus and Hades, were created and eventually things kept creating until we were created. He said that he's gone to the supposed "heaven" and it's not what people think, it's quite disturbing he said actually, seeing beasts that should not have been and people tied to chains with little orbs floating in front of them, which made them let out blood curdling screams. These two believed they were "chosen" of some sorts.

I didn't really believe anything he was saying, especially after I found out about the drugs, but he messaged me saying he was "attacked by the beast" again right after I returned home from the weird experience two nights ago. It's all kind of odd and I'm confused as to what's going on o.O

If there is such a thing as the dark beast, the demon king, the devil, w/e, I believe that it is either a test or a consciousness that branched off from the original spiral of life to attempt and create its own reality. Since we are all consciousnesses from the infinite spiral of life, (the creation or exhale of breath from the original source, and the inhale or the destruction of all that is, so that the source may gain all of the knowledge and experiences from the creations he/she/it created), we have free will and can quite literally do anything, and I believe we are in a pocket universe. Regardless of whatever reality may truly be, I believe this life and existence are a mere illusion imposed upon us by a force trying to live vicariously through us.


Could someone enlighten me a little?

[Lionheart]

Could someone enlighten me a little?

You sound like you are doing pretty good there on your own. Welcome to the "Wider Reality". This video by Thomas Campbell may be able to help you understand a bit more. He comes at it from a Scientific Physics approach. This link is the entire playlist of that seminar. If you wish to just go to Astral Travel, try the Sunday 1/3. The entire presentation is completed over 3 days and gets pretty deep into the workings of the Conscious Mind and the Wider Reality. If you have the time , it is well worth watching the entire thing.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T1vYHOPFgcg&list=PLEB923BB17E5849A3&index=1&feature=plpp_video
Good Luck and Safe Travels! 

[zareste]

There certainly are bloodlines of people who can do this stuff really well. It relates to the way your body courses elementary waves and interacts with the aether - some people naturally do well at this and it makes them better psychics.

The witch burnings were an attempt at genocide against these people, who could potentially restore humanity to its former glory when everyone had these abilities. Same story with the massacres of native Americans. Anyway I digress.

It seems like you were seeing a model of a vortex, which are sometimes used in the astral to traverse time and space. More physics involved. I've got some skills with telepathy and it's amazing how easy it is to find information about physics out there.

I'm betting some entity had entered the room and started doing all this stuff. Their way of saying "Hey look at this"

[SephirothX]

There certainly are bloodlines of people who can do this stuff really well. It relates to the way your body courses elementary waves and interacts with the aether - some people naturally do well at this and it makes them better psychics.

The witch burnings were an attempt at genocide against these people, who could potentially restore humanity to its former glory when everyone had these abilities. Same story with the massacres of native Americans. Anyway I digress.

It seems like you were seeing a model of a vortex, which are sometimes used in the astral to traverse time and space. More physics involved. I've got some skills with telepathy and it's amazing how easy it is to find information about physics out there.

I'm betting some entity had entered the room and started doing all this stuff. Their way of saying "Hey look at this"

Ever since that night, I cannot stop thinking. My mind is kind of pulsating with so many different aspects of understanding. I feel like I have begun or come to understand the basic mechanics of existence and consciousness in the past two days, including on the level of the collective. These were things that I hardly knew existed just a week or two ago. I do not yet understand how to apply the things I am seeing, but ever since this happened, especially through mathematics and sacred geometry, I have been discovering more and more without even trying; mathematics of all different sorts are showing themselves to be not slightly related, but important to one another in every possible way. My understanding of math now is MUCH easier to grasp than ever before; it is the language of the universe and all that there is in this existential reality. I have come to an understanding that we are all different frequencies of the same conscious energy put into our own illusion of duality.

Our existence is a paradox of itself, an illusion and/or hologram, and I believe that this existential life is nothing more than an experience or a test of the collective conscious upon itself. If one wishes to escape the frequencies of consciousness that elude the collective or infinite in this third dimension (the frequencies on the physical perception of consciousness; matter.), then they must learn to "ascend" to an understanding of the fourth dimension or perception of reality through consciousness on a higher frequency (which is possible learning externally and internally through mathematics and various methods). However, this is creation in general, you would just experience never ending progression and alteration of perception, or a fault in consciousness causing another schism and descent of the conscious (each creation begets the next creation in a never ending cycle of creationist and individualistic frequencies of reality, one macro to the former and micro to the next on planes of reason). To those on the frequencies of the first and second dimensional planes, we are but gods and titans are we not? So to escape this never ending fractal cycle, I, we, everything, must learn to understand the collective that is all consciousness and realize once again that we are and always have been this collective; escaping the karmic bonds of duality, the illusion of polarity.

Consider that we are beings of both light and dark (because they are one and the same, dark being without light, light being without dark in the perception of the dark). This creates an illusion of duality and paradox of the mind, or consciousness. I will speak of matter, since it is what we understand in the third dimension. Opposition, or polarity, is the parasitic illusion to true reality; they are the dark matter to our matter, they consume us in our perception the same as something consumes them in their perception. These are natural changes occurring throughout different ages and cycles of existence.

"Angels" are messengers, scribes of the infinite; they exist as the original meaning of life or existence. They are beings of light who understand and follow the natural ways of the universe. What are beings of light? They are pure conscious energy in the form of light frequencies; stars, galaxies, nebulas, etc. of infinite and ongoing proportions for ever and ever. A fallen angel is when a conscious being of light, a star, completes its cycle of one side of the same karmic card. It turns from the creator, ending the creation of life it once gave, into a black hole ; a fallen angel, deconstructing, absorbing, and consuming all of its creations and life, or otherwise completely fading out of existence. The inside of a black hole takes mass, physical consciousness on the frequency of the third dimension, and consumes it; on the inside, the mass is deconstructed completely, and on the surface of the black hole, the information from its consciousness is represented as data. Good and bad, light and dark, creators and destroyers, they are all of our kin, we are alike in every way that we are one another.

The black holes themselves are creations, but also simply projections of the collective conscious. This means that the opposites to our existence are only illusions. They are the luminous ones, the ones of darkness, the ones without their own light (think of the moon, borrowing its brightened existence from the sun as a luminous object). From this we get mythical stories of those such as vampires, those who must maintain a false state of "life" vicariously through living or conscious beings. If they are without light, assuming they are also without any other forms of energy, they have no consciousness (the moon is proven to be hollow on a random note, since I'm speaking metaphorically about luminous objects). To have no consciousness means to have no true existence; to be simply imaginative or an illusion. This means we are imposing an illusion of duality on ourselves by accepting that we are individual creations of the projection and not the source of the projection itself being cast out into infinite and ever-changing experiences.

The problem of duality came from the external, and was yet created internally. This is where religion steps in. The wrathful "gods", the self-centered, polytheistic pagan deities, and monotheistic Judeo-Christian god, Jehova, whom did not have their own souls, their own light sources, their own free will, they had to force feed their will through consciousness to maintain their illusion of existence and power; to make us forget that we are all the same, and to cloud our minds and delude our understanding of the existence we all share. They are a virus; a parasite. Call them whatever you want based on your perception of the universe, the dark beast, the fallen, evil, vampires, the ones who gave birth to the Illuminati on Earth(the luminous ones; the ones without light who appear to be illuminated). The illuminati control and enforce their will through illusions of such things as fear and power so that they can continue existence, it is their truth of the universe. They need not to be fought against on this physical plane, but understood and accepted in the aetherial realm. These illusions would be on a level in par with consciousness, rather than a physical form. We must embrace both the light and the dark; realize that we are both internal and external.

So, with this understanding, I must learn the yogic ways, how to raise my kundalini, and learn how to enter the aetherial realm willingly. I would love to see my past or future lives, or if there is truly something in existence such as the Akashic records, I would love to view it. Eventually, I will lose my egotistic sense of self and return to collective conscious. I don't know everything, these are just theories or beliefs based off of what I have gathered and experienced recently.

[Lionheart]

So, with this understanding, I must learn the yogic ways, how to raise my kundalini, and learn how to enter the aetherial realm willingly. I would love to see my past or future lives, or if there is truly something in existence such as the Akashic records, I would love to view it. Eventually, I will lose my egotistic sense of self and return to collective conscious. I don't know everything, these are just theories or beliefs based off of what I have gathered and experienced recently.

My friend, these are just TOOLS. You have the ability already. You just need to realize that. Gurus for years have been telling people they need to get to this level or that level, they say you need to build this energy, sit this way. Magick has rituals saying you need to do this or that. It's all there to help you attain your focus, your will, your intent. When I first started this last year consciously aware, I studied every book, every technique I could get my hands on. I had been having spontaneous events all my life, but ignored them because life always got in the way. I still experiment with TOOLS myself today. I use my Laxman Light/Machine because I enjoy the deep trance it gives me and I wish to find something that will definitely aide others to experience the wider reality by just putting on the goggles, laying back and relaxing. Just to give them a taste of what it is really like. I use my binaural beat MP3's because I like the background music, but I can just sit back without all the bells and whistles and phase whenever I like to. Because I KNOW I can. You will see a shift in your mindset when you start looking at your body as a vessel, something you can leave at will. The key to all of this is practice, practice while sitting, walking, laying down. watching tv, etc. Close your eyes for a couple of seconds and look at the scene in front of you. I used to just lie back close my eyes for a second while here on the computer and try to visualize a beautiful setting. I did the same in the shower and still do, close my eyes and see a waterfall scene as I hear the real water splashing down around me. But then all of sudden, I would close my eyes expecting to see my waterfall scene and to my amazement there was a totally different setting, not of my own design. I get that constantly now, this is what leads me to the wider reality. It really is that easy, it's just our minds are not programmed that way right now. We live in a fast based, high energy, high stress level of existence. To succeed in phasing you have to give yourself the time to just let it all go and expand your consciousness.