last night's projection

[soarin12]

I woke up around 6 am and really wanted to project but I was so tired.  I was in a huge battle with sleep for 10 min. or so.  I sunk into a deep SP which hasn't happened to me for a long time.  I usually project with no SP or just a tiny touch of it.  I perceived that a person came and sat right next to me on the bed.  I could feel the bed sinking down right up next to my shoulder.  That's happened to me a bunch of times in SP and I hate it.  I asked it to leave twice and it didn't.  I finally said, OK just do what you came here to do.  It immediately flew right into me (or through me)  I could feel the tingle as it did so.  That's happened quite a few times as well. -A hypnogogic entity will enter the room, come toward me and go right into me.  It used to terrify me but I've gotten used to the routine.  I don't know why it always goes into me.  Anyone else experience that? 

Next I tried to exit and my arms and legs floated out but my torso got stuck.  I let myself click out for a few seconds and when I regained consciousness I was out and on my way.  I was in my house where I grew up -a typical starting place for my adventures.  I flew once around the house and no one was around.  I went to the pull up bar I used to play on when I was little.  I hung onto it and started swinging around and around like a gymnast would do.  I did all the cool moves they can do without a day of training. lol  It was really fun.  I experimented with changing my weight.  From about 135 lbs. -les and less to 50 lbs.  It was fun to swing being so light.  Then I noticed that 'someone' put a long 2x4 right where I was swinging in 360 degree circles.  My body went right through it each time I circled.  This didn't bother me until I noticed that the 2x4 was moving higher and higher with each swing, so it would eventually go right through my face where my eyes and nose were.  Not wanting to chicken out, I decided to just slow my momentum a little so I would have more time to concentrate on the beam moving through me.  It worked well, and I didn't get smacked in the head. lol

I left the house, then, and ended up in the void.  It was black with a little bit of grey fog.  I decided to ask to see an 'atom.'  My daughter is studying atoms in school and so it was the first thing that popped into my head to ask.  Immediately a dark bluish cloud of...energy?  materialized and took shape.  It formed into many nebulous circular marble sized blobs-all in motion.  Their motion looked fluidic.  I couldn't make sense of exactly what I was seeing, and I'm certainly no scientist, but I suppose the display could have been atoms, or the parts inside a single atom.  It certainly didn't look like the model I saw in science class, though.  I said "Thank you" for the display and then asked to see some interesting galaxies.  I unfortunately phased back to the physical, though.  Immediately I projected again, wanting to go back there, but I ended up outside of some building looking at a beautiful red sun and a few clouds.  I thought, well I'll just go up into space and try to get back there that way, but I got distracted by a little scene to my right. 

There was a black adult rabbit and a white baby.  They were so cute.  I didn't know if I should allow myself to get distracted by them or not -If I did I might not get back to my galaxy question.  On the other hand, maybe I was put here (and taken out of the void) for a reason.  I picked up the baby rabbit and held it for a minute -which felt good.  Then I noticed a big bowl filled with water and ...rats!  Yuck.  They were a disgusting sight, but all the rats were under water and I was afraid they would drown.  I started to tip the bowl to pour the water out, but I then saw all the rats look up at me and I somehow knew that they were perfectly fine and didn't need to be rescued. 

I left that area and flew toward space in order to continue with my galaxy intent, but a force pulled me down again.  Once on the ground, I turned around and 2 young boys and their father were coming over to me.  I immediately felt a divine connection with them.  We exchanged smiles and love energy.  One of the boys said to me 'You're the boss!'  -  I laughed.  The father said "You're the height of..."  -something... I lost the memory of the last word.  I knew it was complimentary, though.  Then he smiled with love and said 'Now go to sleep!'  He seemed to be insinuating that he knew about my extreme struggle with sleepiness at the beginning of the projection.  I phased back to the physical, not wanting to leave them.  It felt so good to have that loving connection.  They were probably guides.

Sorry that was a little long winded.  Thanks for listening! 

[Szaxx]

A perfect NP mindset in display. The 3x2 would have been a big issue with a physical mindset lol.
You were distracted but kept the goal in mind and didn't lose it.
Pleasure trips are usually fine, your services are required in many cases and the trip ends I find.
I hope your sleep issues have been solved by this encounter. That would be a verification of there's more to the art than imagination alone.

[Bluefirephoenix]

focus is very important for any kind of mediumistic work. ( projection I consider a mediumistic skill and is closely related to scrying or it's modern term remote viewing) it is hard to maintain it under those conditions. practicing trance while going deeper within during your waking hours may help that. The entity and the vision is very well described. The general explanation would be that it is reflecting something in your mind. Improving focus will start to eliminate the distracting thoughtforms and such and allow the experience to become more productive. What your seeing seems like what your mind does when it dreams and learning to act as it does when your awake is another step in development of the skill.

[soarin12]

Thanks for your comments, guys.

Szaxx, you mention trips where your services are required.  Blue, you mention focus.  In my projections, the two are definitely connected.  When ever I enter a new realm there is a moment where I need to make a decision - do I focus on my own intent (like the atom and galaxy question) or do I just look around for a moment and give myself a chance to get pulled into the flow of 'spiritual helper training' (which often does happen)

I was in one of these decision making moments when I found myself in the new realm with the red sun.  I didn't want to just charge right off back to the void right away (to resume my 'galaxy' intent) if there was going  to be a possible 'spiritual helper' moment for me here. (which is always an intention in my mind  -but I can't force it.  I can only make myself available) So I think it was in that moment of wavering between the 2 intentions that the distraction of the rabbits and rats appeared.  You could say I lost focus there -or at least had a moment of indecisiveness. 

The NPR sure doesn't cut you any slack as far as focus is concerned, that's for sure.            Just some details I deal with and think about.

[EscapeVelocity]

Excellent experience soarin!

The hypno guy sitting on your bed and your allowing him to zip into you -if you recall in Leland's books, he describes "the lightning-rod effect" which allows recently-passed souls to discharge negative or unexpressed emotions through living human channels, freeing them of this negative energy baggage so that they can continue on to their Life Review. This involves their finding a willing channel that is dealing with and discharging their own similar emotions that the passed soul can sort of piggyback. It also requires you to give permission for this to happen, which it seems you did.

Do you think this is a possibility? Was there any emotion attached to the process that you might have noticed?

Having just read some more on the idea in The Unanswered Question, the thought popped right out at me.

[LightBeam]

I could feel the bed sinking down right up next to my shoulder.  That's happened to me a bunch of times in SP and I hate it. 

That happens to me a lot and it freaks me out. The thing is that at the point of the brief SP, I can't see what is it and that causes me to get uneasy. I usually force myself to wake up. Then ride away after that I trigger an SP again hoping that this will not happen. I feel it more like a small entity walking on the bed next to me and I feel that sinking of the bed like the thing is making small steps around my legs, then approaching my head. At that point I don't even want to request vision, because of fear what I may see. It is interesting though that I am not afraid at all of anything while fully projected, just when my focus is in between the physical and the astral. It's weird.

[Szaxx]

The required services are fast paced indeed. Should you fall foul to distraction or fear or self doubt or being too analytic... A fail usually results. In the training experiences you can be asked to do some apparently pointless tasks. Just do as expected, it will speed up the process and save you from reoccurring in the same scene.
The sinky bed was a pet hate when I was experiencing the Badlands. Suffocating in mud is how it felt and usually started the trip that way.
You lose the fear eventually, you only need to know it's harmless, uncomfortable but harmless.

[soarin12]

The required services are fast paced indeed. Should you fall foul to distraction or fear or self doubt or being too analytic... A fail usually results. In the training experiences you can be asked to do some apparently pointless tasks. Just do as expected, it will speed up the process and save you from reoccurring in the same scene.
The sinky bed was a pet hate when I was experiencing the Badlands. Suffocating in mud is how it felt and usually started the trip that way.
You lose the fear eventually, you only need to know it's harmless, uncomfortable but harmless.

Makes sense.  My first thought when I saw the bunnys and rats was that they were a distraction, but I don't really know if they were for sure, so it's probably good that I just did my thing with them and moved on.  At least I didn't end up back in the physical.  That's a good sign that it wasn't a fail.  The overall feeling was definitely pass.

sinky bed - I guess that happens to a lot of people!  I was just thinking today that I must have come along way with this because I invited it to 'do what it came to do.'  That's something I would only do if I believed it were harmless.  In the old days I would have feared I would have been inviting a demon to possess me!

[soarin12]

That happens to me a lot and it freaks me out. The thing is that at the point of the brief SP, I can't see what is it and that causes me to get uneasy. I usually force myself to wake up. Then ride away after that I trigger an SP again hoping that this will not happen. I feel it more like a small entity walking on the bed next to me and I feel that sinking of the bed like the thing is making small steps around my legs, then approaching my head. At that point I don't even want to request vision, because of fear what I may see. It is interesting though that I am not afraid at all of anything while fully projected, just when my focus is in between the physical and the astral. It's weird.

I know what you mean!  As soon as I project, all that weird creepy stuff is gone and I have total confidence.  It's a complete change.  I keep my astral sight turned off too during that stage.  The only time I dared to turn it on was when I was projecting during the day.  The light gave me confidence and again the sinking bed happened.  I turned on my astral sight and saw it was a woman sitting on the bed.  She was slightly see-through.  She looked just slightly unfriendly - a little 'tough' looking.  I didn't feel any fear, though, because of the light.  I pulled out of the trance then so I'll never know if she was going to 'go into me' like the others do.

I really wonder what your small entity would have looked like?  A gnome?  nature spirit?   

[soarin12]

Excellent experience soarin!

The hypno guy sitting on your bed and your allowing him to zip into you -if you recall in Leland's books, he describes "the lightning-rod effect" which allows recently-passed souls to discharge negative or unexpressed emotions through living human channels, freeing them of this negative energy baggage so that they can continue on to their Life Review. This involves their finding a willing channel that is dealing with and discharging their own similar emotions that the passed soul can sort of piggyback. It also requires you to give permission for this to happen, which it seems you did.

Do you think this is a possibility? Was there any emotion attached to the process that you might have noticed?

Having just read some more on the idea in The Unanswered Question, the thought popped right out at me.

Yes I remember that!  Interesting thought.  Here are the facts so far about the phenomenon.  It's happened about 10 times where they go into me.  I don't feel any emotions when they do.  Just an energy sensation or tingling.  One time I just 'knew' that they were children as they went into me.  One time, as 'it' was coming toward me, I decided to try to keep fear away by pretending it was Jesus.  I said 'Hi Jesus!" lol  As soon as I said that, it stopped coming toward me and it's energy dispersed and disappeared.  Once there was the ghostly see-through woman sitting on my bed next to me. (but we don't know if she was going to go into me or not because I pulled out of the trance before I could find out)  Sometimes when they came towards me and went into me, I was afraid, and sometimes I was just slightly uncomfortable.  Fear or slight discomfort didn't seem to make a difference in how it played out.  However, the comfortable feeling I achieved with the Jesus one made it disperse before it entered me.

Seems like Leland felt some serious negative emotion when it happened to him. (mine was just the basic SP discomfort) So I'm thinking that either mine wasn't the same phenomenon, or it was and I'm not 'sensitive' enough to be able to perceive the emotion that he does. (which we know to be true.  He's way more developed than me)

I haven't read the unanswered question so if he goes into more detail about the phenomenon, I'd love to hear it! 

[soarin12]

In my original post above, I described how I slowed down a little to help myself pass the '2x4 through my face' test.  Well, my guide must have thought that was a cop out because in my next projection, I wasn't even allowed to fly by myself.  My movement was controlled by another force.  I was dragged at top speed toward and through a huge building.  It was so big that it took me about 5 sec. to make it all the way through.  I didn't flinch so I must have passed. lol

[Szaxx]

You passed the final frontier.
Lol
Water was my last 'get away from physical thoughts' test, I'd be deep down somewhere with strange  things swimming about. No problems with them just the air thing. It soon passed with a little grounding.

The fun started after.

[soarin12]

You passed the final frontier.
Lol
Water was my last 'get away from physical thoughts' test, I'd be deep down somewhere with strange  things swimming about. No problems with them just the air thing. It soon passed with a little grounding.

The fun started after.

Ha-Ha!  I had that one too!  I remember I was flying over some tidal waves and suddenly I dove into the water -and that part was not my decision -and was very deep and had to just relax and breathe the water. 

Fun started after ... dare I ask?  lol!

[Szaxx]

After many training experiences the services required were put into operation.
With no fears and a good knowledge of what to expect I was put into many simple experiences where someone had a problem they were feeling trapped in. These were one on one to start with and they grew into very large retrievals over the years.
Once your sufficiently trained, who you are will become the base of many experiences.
These are wonderful.

[LightBeam]

Good job, soarin! I also have had underwater experiences. During the first one I freaked out that I wont be able to breathe, but few seconds later I decided to relax and try. I really did not have a choice LOL. So, I took a breath and I was fine. The environment did not feel wet at all, but it was weird. I felt like I am in some sort of liquid air. Of course all that was psychological, because I really did not need air in order to survive. After that I looked around and I was in the most beautiful underwater garden. There were statues and plants. I thought I was in Atlantis.

[soarin12]

I've had several of these one on one tasks but I really don't know if they are the real deal or more training.  They almost always involve soothing/giving love to someone who is in emotional turmoil.  In a couple of them, the person is really angry at me for no reason.  They act like they know me but I don't know them.  Those ones in particular seem like they must be a training exercise (unless I go around making enemies in the NP without realizing it. lol)  Anyway, I take on the challenge and diffuse the situation and in the end the person is OK again.

The most interesting thing about these is that I'm different in them.  It's the NP personality thing, I guess, or it seems I am more like my higher self.  It seems like it would be next to impossible to fail in these.  It's next to impossible to have a negative emotion.  I'm just a better more loving person who knows exactly what to do.  If I had these same situations in the physical, I would probably fail at least half of them.  I also have a 'beam of love' I can switch on or off at anytime, and aim at anyone I need to.  It's the same love we experience when merging with the Source.  I have to be careful when using it -if I let it get too strong it will fire up my root chakra (oops!) and I'll end up back in the physical.

I have just one -sort of -validation so far.  I posted a while back about the depressed Indian boy I gave PUL (the love beam) to.  I found out from my mom that these two Indian children that she knows were in a car accident (car caught fire!) and the girl died and the boy survived but was in bad emotional shape.  I spent time with both an Indian girl and boy (their ages were correct) in my projections, before I learned this from my mom. The girl who had died was doing very well actually ( I saw her as very happy and she wanted to play with me) but the boy (who is apparently still alive) was the one I experienced as depressed.  So if this is a real validation, I actually helped someone who is still alive -kind of like how prayer works to help people but in this case I had an experience which told me exactly what was wrong and what to do, even though I had no idea at the time this person needed help.  I read in Kurt Leland's books how he helped people (through a projection) who were still alive on earth in a similar manner.  I was pretty impressed with the validation and synchronicity of my mom telling me right after I experienced it -even though it's not a for sure validation -I didn't get names or anything.

Anyway, I'm looking forward to seeing where this is all headed!  

[soarin12]

Good job, soarin! I also have had underwater experiences. During the first one I freaked out that I wont be able to breathe, but few seconds later I decided to relax and try. I really did not have a choice LOL. So, I took a breath and I was fine. The environment did not feel wet at all, but it was weird. I felt like I am in some sort of liquid air. Of course all that was psychological, because I really did not need air in order to survive. After that I looked around and I was in the most beautiful underwater garden. There were statues and plants. I thought I was in Atlantis.

Wow!  I want to go to an underwater garden!   Seem's like lately I'm just in buildings all the time.  Bummer!

[Szaxx]

It sounds like the real deal. I've posted one where a young girl was in need of help and a few weeks later saw her near the local school. I knew her name for a while, typical dream recall takes over and it'll take time to recall it again. Lol
She is alive and doing fine, there was some problem with her beforehand as I asked a friend if he knew her when I saw her whilst driving. I was informed of a similarity that verified the experience.
These are not that rare too, you'll occasionally realise this when you see a familiar face and the trigger opens the memory of the experience.
The NP personality is far stronger than the physical you possess.
You already have found this out quite naturally in your experiences.

[Raymond]

Wow!  I want to go to an underwater garden!   Seem's like lately I'm just in buildings all the time.  Bummer!

I can sure sympathize with that one!

[soarin12]

It sounds like the real deal. I've posted one where a young girl was in need of help and a few weeks later saw her near the local school. I knew her name for a while, typical dream recall takes over and it'll take time to recall it again. Lol
She is alive and doing fine, there was some problem with her beforehand as I asked a friend if he knew her when I saw her whilst driving. I was informed of a similarity that verified the experience.
These are not that rare too, you'll occasionally realise this when you see a familiar face and the trigger opens the memory of the experience.
The NP personality is far stronger than the physical you possess.
You already have found this out quite naturally in your experiences.

Thanks for sharing that.  It really opens my mind to all the different ways projecting can be used.  We can help the living as well as the dead.  And why not?  Makes perfect sense.  In fact all the spiritual gifts - AP, mediumistic gifts, clairvoyance, healing, even the sudden urge to pray for someone - are so much more intimately connected than sometimes I think of in my mind.  I have a tendency to put them in their separate boxes but they all flow together so nicely -all coming from the same Source.

[soarin12]

I can sure sympathize with that one!

Ha-ha!  It seems we're in beautiful places for a while and then suddenly we get a series of ones with really boring scenery.  Gotta make the rounds, I guess!  Also, I want to be a spiritual helper so it's not like I can expect the people who need help to be hanging out in the 'heavenlies' lol! 

[LightBeam]

Also, I want to be a spiritual helper so it's not like I can expect the people who need help to be hanging out in the 'heavenlies' lol! 

Very true, one time I was pulled into a battlefield type of place. It was foggy, misty and somehow heavy. I saw a bunch of people gathered in a  group, poorly clothed, dusty, standing there looking at each other. I realized they were lost. I got close to them and without speaking, just with thoughts showed them my state of mind, light, path and I mentally told them to use their thoughts to get out of there and go wherever they want without fear. After that one by one they disappeared. I hope they had found their way out of that place.

[soarin12]

Very true, one time I was pulled into a battlefield type of place. It was foggy, misty and somehow heavy. I saw a bunch of people gathered in a  group, poorly clothed, dusty, standing there looking at each other. I realized they were lost. I got close to them and without speaking, just with thoughts showed them my state of mind, light, path and I mentally told them to use their thoughts to get out of there and go wherever they want without fear. After that one by one they disappeared. I hope they had found their way out of that place.

Excellent example, Lightbeam!