unbelievable?

[Vvid1012]

Hey, I was playing around with the 3d-darkness concept today when I had an incredible breakthrough!  While my getting into the pattern state
I just acted as if the million dots were actually supposed to form into an object,  and whatever I saw I would just go with it.  

I came across this circular stained glass window which I normally come across which is really hard to see. So i'm thinking, ok i'll check this out.  Suddenly out and in the middle there is this area that seems to glow.  While fixating on this, I see an exetremely detailed face form of my grandmother that has passed, but in a sort of sepia tone.  This freaks me out so I take a breather and try again. Now, this time I see this box and it starts spinning.  While delving into this scene I think, what if this is her way of communicating to me and if I really believe I can see her I will.  So I totally let go of any belief holding me back(believing she's not really dead and I can still commune with her and say, 'ok lemme see ya.'  Soon after I get image after image of headshots but they were not all of her though. Soo, maybe other people? Soon, I see a huge crowd of people all around me and they are all welcoming me as I am thinking, Holy crap!  So after regrouping I try again, and I start seeing this extremely detailed 'video' of all these people just standing out on these  docks talking and having a good time. It was unreal!  The more I focused on the scene the more color I saw.  

The thing about this was that I wasn't in any sort of trance/dream-like state of mind, was perfectly awake.  So I'v been doing this all day with such ease once I got past that belief barrier which I think is a main reason people have trouble with this.  People don't believe they will see anything until they are around sleep mode so they don't.  It really is unlike anything I've experienced.

So now I have a question for people experienced at this regarding phasing as to which direction to take next. Is this even the 3d blackness stage, or am I just crazy.  I would say try 'stepping in' the scenes. I tried looking up some past threads on the subject... if there are any please lemme know! thanks

[Vvid1012]

I guess no one knows what I'm talking about.

But anyways, yeah I think I broke something lookse because I had a whole crap-load of projections this morning!!  Good deal.

[coolcol1]

I think the more you look within yourself the easier it becomes to have experiences, like you say you think you have broke something.  You are becoming more accepting of the different focus levels. I would suggest reading all of franks posts on phasing.  I find them very helpful and you will know were you are and what to do.

[Vvid1012]

I am not sure.  I am always "looking within" as it is a very vague expression.  I have always been open to the possibility of the phasing models as I am always open to different ideas.  I absorb, contemplate, and reinforce my belief system.  

I actually have been reading a lot of his posts on this subject as it is very interesting to hear a strictly scientific approach to all of this from someone so confident in his beliefs.  

I guess I was just looking for some sort of validation.  What I experienced hasnt really been mentioned/described in this sort of way.  I do, however, have images and dream segments all the time just after closing my eyes for a few moments.  totally different experience.  What I experienced was like looking at a black and white photo except in a sepia tone---then it would animate.

Maybe I did miss something on previous posts.  I do recall there being a sort of kaleidoscope effect which I remember being talked about.