Really need HELP!

[carrie.carnahan]

 Hi,

The lingo is new to me, but I will do my best.
When I was nine I AP. I only remember it the once. I also started having sleep paralysis at that time.
When I was 24 I AP again. I had went to take a nap and after laying down I found myself standing in my room. I could see myself laying in bed, but i was in the middle of my room. I was slightly creeped out, but it didn't feel to odd to me. I walked over to my window to look out and that's when it got bad. I looked out the window then turned around, something that looked like a man covered in tar grabbed me and started melting into me. I was so freaked out I couldn't even yell. It was like we were two candles melting together. I was able to say, help me and something came in through the window and pulled it off me and back out the window. then I snapped out of it. I shook for 45 min after that.

a year later I again went to nap and found I was standing next to my bed. this time there was a large black hole trying to suck me into it. I made it past the black hole and into my bathroom. it was very frighting. I willed myself, if that's the correct word for it, back to my body. again I shook for 45 min. I shake a lot after I wake up normally, not because I'm cold, I just do. not sure what that is. but never for 45 min. Two of my children do it also.

again the same thing, napping, found myself next to my bed went through the door this time. a child that looked like he was about 10 was standing in my hall. I said hello, he said nothing but looked creeped out so I just kept going. I watched my family and then went back to my body.

You can see why I am creeped out by all this. I feel like at any moment I could AP and it's frightening. To get over it and prove it to myself I sat on my bed and started meditating, when I felt I was detached <----wording? I was like ok all you have to do is stand up. I started to move away from my body and I flipped and went back. My left arm and side of my face felt like it had fallen asleep, but it couldn't have because I was only sitting for about 2 min. I was so excited because I proved to myself that I wasn't crazy. so I did it again and this time I went further away. when I go back to my body, it doesn't feel controlled. It's like a rubber band bouncing back. I immediately got excited and scared and snapped back. So I tried it again and I cant do it at all. I have always felt like two lego pieces that aren't put together very well and could fall apart at any time. I don't feel like that anymore. oh also, the last time I AP when I was in my hall the bench was missing. everything else was the same.

So my questions are,
what was the thing in my room?
what was the black hole?
why cant I do it anymore?
why was the bench missing?
Do I have something to fear?

I also want to make it very clear that I was not dreaming when these things happened to me. any help would be great...
Thanks,
Carrie Carnahan

[Lionheart]

 Hello and Welcome to the Astral Pulse! 

Check out this Sticky here, it should answer most if not all of your questions.

http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/welcome_to_out_of_body_experiences/everything_you_could_ever_want_to_know_about_sleep_paralysis-t38734.0.html

Dreaming is a NPR (non Physical Realm/Reality) adventure as well. So it really doesn't matter how you were experiencing it. Just the fact that you did speaks volumes.

[carrie.carnahan]

Thanks so much! I actually didn't know that

[Lionheart]

 Also the NPR is a place where thought = action. So change your thoughts to a positive encounter and you will have one.

Last year while in our Mall Kiosk I got into a conversation, just kind of small talk with 2 parents. Somehow the talk of Dreams arose and they told me their daughter was being plagued by nightmares. I told them to have her come and see me.

When she did I listened to her story. She was 14 years of age and had some kind of "monsters" chasing her in her Dreams. I told her that she was the intruder in their World/Realm and that she was the one that was scary and that all of the inhabitants of that World/Realm looked like that. I told her to stop running, turn around and offer it a cookie or a flower.

A few days later she came into the Mall, ran up to me , gave me a hug and whispered in my ear that she had made a new "Friend". No more nightmares for her!  

Change your mindset, change your reality!