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Yep here is some advice buddy. Dont take drugs to try and get there.
Besides by-passing the normal barriers that are there to protect you from insanity or worse, the drugs may even influence what it is that you see and that my friend decreases the value of what you can bring back.
Yes it is possible to control the whole thing but it is a gradual process. There is no hurry, you have the rest of your life to master it if that is your destiny.
You have seen something and experienced the vibrations. Know at least that there is something going on and now try to achieve it without drugs.
Look through more postings within this site. There are lots of practical tips.