Incubus?

[kelsie900]

Hello. This is kind of embarassing but i'm a bit puzzled. I regularly experience sp now and am quite used to it but i don't often come across other entities. This morning i was rudely awakened by one, a big heavy horny one forcing himself on me! i wasn't afraid but i kept pushing it and telling it to get off me, i could only see parts of it, it was a bit beastly so i kept my eyes shut and tried to wake up. I did wake up but then it kept coming back, and suddenly it wasn't so forceful and horrible, instead it was much gentle and loving and although i couldnt see it when i opened my eyes, i could feel everything,i touched its back, hair, nose, lips and it felt human. :s did it trick me? because to be honest in the end i didn't want it to leave which makes me feel kinda weird . I also asked who he was and it said i don't know him but i knew this hag ? don't ask i have no idea.  I should add that this kinda thing has happened before, very rarely and i sleep with my partner but this has only happened when he has left to go to work in the morning and i have gone back to sleep.
I know what its like to dream up what i want to happen but i've been ill this week and sex is the last thing on my mind so i don't think its just me . Any thoughts plz. I also feel guilty like i've cheated on my bf which is silly right ?

Thanku 4 listening

[Ident]

No, it's not silly. One of my own precepts is that if I feel that I have sinned or transgressed a principle then I have. Before doing something I wonder whether I'll have cause to regret, I ask myself how I feel about it. If it's a negative response then I know I'll feel wrong about it afterwards. If you feel that you cheated then you cheated. Maybe only a shift in perspective is required to fix this and that may be fuel for a focused meditation as you look within. Maybe being faithful to this partner means less to you than you thought it did or maybe the body simply over-rode the mind. Either way, look within and resolve this to your own satisfaction.

As for the rest, whether it was a dream experience or you shared experiences with another entity, I can't comment. I would suggest that you raise protection on a regular basis, though.

[Killa Rican]

The Whole succubus/incubus story started with sleep paralysis. People in medieval times often pointed fingers at them for the whole "Weight on top of me" thing, while something "unseen" is breathing on you and touching you in your naughty places.  Well It's not just Sex parasites.. People saw other stuff like hags, shadows, and other weird creatures too.

If you didn't see anything there, I wouldn't make "assumptions" on what it is, Assumptions are the mother of all F-Ups lol. Even if it was a sex parasite, it doesn't mean you will encounter it again.

Astral sex parasites are very real, it's just a matter of what you choose to label them. Saying "incubus" or "succubus" around here will just come with a million and one of unpleasant impressions that will lead one to believe they are "thought forms". It's not cheating however as long as you dont engage in a relationship with those type of entity's.

What happened to you, just brush it off for now, and you will sleep fine.

[kelsie900]

 Thankyou very much, it is nice to be able to open up here and get sensible answers. I guess i shouldn't make assumptions then on what it was, but when i looked it up the 1st time it happened almost 2 years ago i stumbled on a site that swore it was evil and i was evil too for encouraging whatever it was and i had sinned i did not post a question but this is basically what it was saying so that made me feel quite bad even though the presence i felt wasn't really that scary and it didn't really hurt or threaten me like other things i have come across in this place so i thought, is it really that evil?
So what do you mean by get protection? i haven't got to put any strange object in my room or anything do i? because then my boyfriend will start asking questions 

[Ident]

Protecting yourself can be as simple as asking that higher beings of love and light keep you safe and that they keep away any beings who don't approach you with love. You can even ask that all beings stay away while you sleep. Affirm the thought with your will.

Some suggest visualising an egg or cocoon around yourself before you fall asleep. Surround yourself with golden-white light and form a barrier that you affirm will persist through the night. I used to do this a long while ago and typically found that I slept better on the nights I created the barrier. You can even project it around yourself and your partner and protect both of you together. I've also done this with partners and smiled as they've commented on their improved sleep the following morning.

In essence, protecting yourself comes down to electing and making an effort of will to assert and affirm that you are safe. Calling on trusted beings to enforce your will on your behalf, such as dead parents or grandparents, if you believe in such things, or your God, can help with the affirmation of protection.

You state that this has gone on for a while. If so then, if it is an external entity and the protection methods don't work, then it's possible that such an entity has latched onto you and you might need stronger measures to detach it from yourself. One step at a time, though.

If you want an item to focus on, you could get an amethyst crystal or some amber. They're both good for night-time protection. My preference would be the amethyst. A small crystal would suffice, preferably one with facets, rather than a tumbled stone.

As for sinning, you don't sound like someone who considers herself a sinner in this regard. Trust your inner self and ignore obvious bigots.

[Killa Rican]

Thankyou very much, it is nice to be able to open up here and get sensible answers. I guess i shouldn't make assumptions then on what it was, but when i looked it up the 1st time it happened almost 2 years ago i stumbled on a site that swore it was evil and i was evil too for encouraging whatever it was and i had sinned i did not post a question but this is basically what it was saying so that made me feel quite bad even though the presence i felt wasn't really that scary and it didn't really hurt or threaten me like other things i have come across in this place so i thought, is it really that evil?
So what do you mean by get protection? i haven't got to put any strange object in my room or anything do i? because then my boyfriend will start asking questions  

Lol. There's nothing evil or sinful about it. First of all no one should ever apply human concepts to non-physical NON-HUMAN entitys. It's like calling a Lion evil or a venomous snake evil. The difference is, YES these beings have Intelligence on the level of us, and some Even greater then us, but all beings should be judged by merit alone. Not there instinctive built in-thought patterns...

Succubi can be considered "Vampires" in a sense that they feed off energy, but for them it's sexual energy. They thrive off it, and they love it from humans! Yes some can intrude on a person and even sexually assault them  persistently, However, if approached openly it can certianly be an enjoyable experience, but that itself should be judged on a case-by-case basis.

Ident has already given you some good protection advice, so i wont expand on that for now.

[tweed]

I know what its like to dream up what i want to happen ....

I know your topic is different, but I'd love to hear more about this.

I think you already took a good first step, asking who it was. Maybe you can open your eyes next? Ask what does it want from you? Could be normal that this occurred while you were in bed, before you started your adventures. If fear arises for me, it's usually just in that beginning.

[kelsie900]

Very useful and interesting ! Thankyou both, i will apply them protection methods and i feel less bad about it all now too . So happy i've got somewhere to ask all my questions 

Tweed. He freaked out a little bit when i asked who he was  i liked to ask alot of questions which is probabally how i ended up in this crazy world here . When i said i i know what its like to dream up what i want to happen, i meant when when i become aware that i'm dreaming i can control most things, i can make things appear, dissapear, go to places i want to go just by thinking it. And when i have sp and i see things i don't want too i can make them go away or something, but this thing was different. Or if i think about something before i go to bed and daydream it can happen when i dream. Is that normal?. I think it is :S