Subconscious trying to Lucid Dream?

[The Present Moment]

In my attempts to AP from a LD, I've had two dreams that included some low-level awareness of the dream state without any degree of lucidity:

1) A dream character tells me that my irrational thinking is evidence of dreaming. I agree yet don't become lucid!

2) 'Realizing' that I am dreaming, I walk onto an airport runway in front of an incoming plane. I pass straight through the fuselage when it hits me, and then, remembering that I can fly, turn 180° to rocket away. This was one segment in a dream that was otherwise normal.

What is going on? I can't figure out if this is purely my subconscious acting out my waking thoughts, or what.  

[Telos]

I often have a feeling in dreams that I'm "not all there." This sometimes accompanies feelings of remiss, sluggishness, impaired muscle movement, fear of insanity, and/or self-doubt. Sometimes it can be quite disturbing.

What is going on? I can't figure out if this is purely my subconscious acting out my waking thoughts, or what.

Questions like these are always difficult to answer. Many have different philosophies and theories about what the "subconscious" actually is, what the self is, etc. But I hope I can help you.

My explanation starts with the fact that you were asleep. And because you were asleep you were feeling very fatigued and tired. As you become conscious inside a dream, you may also become conscious of your drowsiness and normally lackadaisical approach to sleep. Your usual inclination is to give into your body's need for rest and become idle again.

This propensitiy to idleness manifests in dreams as a forgetfulness of the fact that you are indeed dreaming. You may agree with dream characters that irrational thinking is strong evidence of dreaming, but you do not accept that you are indeed dreaming. Similarly, you may recognize that the plane in front of you is not a real plane and that you are in no danger, but you do not remember its context of being a dream plane.

In a worst-case-scenario this disposition manifests as a paralyzing emotional conflict with reality, but you're unlikely to have that experience unless you've spoken to a psychologist about lucid dreaming or OBE's. They tend to interpret such studies as potential for psychosis. They are of course fallacious numbskulls.

I hope I was able to clarify some things for you. Best wishes.