the 'choose life' experience

[Gandalf]

Two nights ago, I awoke to a strange sensation, it was not the usual vibes I am used to but a strange feeling of disconnection. At the same time as this was occuring i was getting the very distinct impression that I was being given the choice to either end my current life experience or to continue; the choice was mine, if I chose to leave it I could transition at once, a decision which would be permanent (ie physical death) or I could continue with this life experience. In that moment, that's all my entire life seemed to equate to: a life experience trip.

Almost right away I thought, 'hey! of course I want to carry on with it, it may be crud sometimes but I want to see it through to the end, and also great things happen in it which make it all worthwhile'.

Right away, I got some kind of feedback that this was acceptable but that some 'upgrade' work would have to be undertaken as there were a few 'errors'  or glitches in my 'makeup' that needed to be dealt with.
I was told that this upgrading process might result in a little disorientation.

After a few moments I did feel a bit unsettled and dizzy for a few minutes then I fell asleep.
I woke the next day and didnt notice any particular change in my 'makeup' or any fixed 'glitches', but maybe they are subtle things I know nothing about.

How's that for weird?
Of course maybe its all just a pure fantasy concocted by my mind as a response to some unusual vibes I haven't come across before. After all, it is common for people who experience vibes for the first time to think they are dying. However I am not a vibe first timer so I dont see how that explanation works. But the sensation I woke up with was different, although I cant really explain  it.

Oh well, I'm still here lol!

Doug

[interception]

Interesting experience. I have heard of people being given certain choices while in a OBE/NDE state, but never while being awake.
Were you awake and physically focussed? What was you state during all of this? Trance?

And what do you think your "upgrades" involved?

I find this very interesting.

[Gandalf]

Interception_

I have no idea what the 'upgrades' were.

I had awoken into a vibratonal state, which is probably light to medium trance. It is possible to wake up in such a state naturally, and in which case the vibrations come on very easily. You tend to be very relaxed, still aware of your body but slightly focused away from it. Often you are in such a state when just waking up from a dream.

Doug

[D]

Maybe you were confronted with your own death and that made you uncomfortable at first (i.e. the feeling of being disoriented) and then you were able to look reality in the eyes and find your inspiriation for life, your will to live, your spark within (hence, possibly, the positive change in your feelings).

[artdragondream]

I know someone who has had a similar experience. She is a Spiritual advisor and medium to name a few of her many talents and she wrote a book. In it one of the things she describes is an event where she had a night of very unusual sensations. She later contacted her grandfather who passed away many years ago and he told her she went through what he called energy body work where they needed to heal her and change her energy in order for her to spiritually progress.

It seems that we all have protectors and guides with us throughout our lives. Friendly spirits that can affect us in profound ways.

And also have you ever asked yourself "this person just asked me if I want to die or not. Why didn't't I freak out?"  there are some that believe that our spirit has a great amount more knowledge and memory than we can imagine. Past lives and experiences in the astral realm. When they asked you that, I think you replied that way because you understood that most spiritual beings view death only as a way to go back to the "Real world" and evaluate there life and how they have progressed. Also weather they need to be reborn again in another life.

Understand that death is nothing at all other than releasing yourself from the illusion.

[Jo'ogn]

Last summer I woke up one morning and I felt sth similar as Gandalf: "Disengaging (dying) now wold be a possible choice (of mine)" Quite obviously I did not - but I had a very weird sensation resting upon me for the next three days.

[E3mpirical1]

Two nights ago, I awoke to a strange sensation, it was not the usual vibes I am used to but a strange feeling of disconnection. At the same time as this was occuring i was getting the very distinct impression that I was being given the choice to either end my current life experience or to continue; the choice was mine, if I chose to leave it I could transition at once, a decision which would be permanent (ie physical death) or I could continue with this life experience. In that moment, that's all my entire life seemed to equate to: a life experience trip.

Almost right away I thought, 'hey! of course I want to carry on with it, it may be crud sometimes but I want to see it through to the end, and also great things happen in it which make it all worthwhile'.

Right away, I got some kind of feedback that this was acceptable but that some 'upgrade' work would have to be undertaken as there were a few 'errors'  or glitches in my 'makeup' that needed to be dealt with.
I was told that this upgrading process might result in a little disorientation.

After a few moments I did feel a bit unsettled and dizzy for a few minutes then I fell asleep.
I woke the next day and didnt notice any particular change in my 'makeup' or any fixed 'glitches', but maybe they are subtle things I know nothing about.

How's that for weird?
Of course maybe its all just a pure fantasy concocted by my mind as a response to some unusual vibes I haven't come across before. After all, it is common for people who experience vibes for the first time to think they are dying. However I am not a vibe first timer so I dont see how that explanation works. But the sensation I woke up with was different, although I cant really explain  it.

Oh well, I'm still here lol!

Doug

I have experienced this situation of choice myself. I chose to breathe/live. It was my first OBE and it was like I was being kicked back down to my body lol like someone was telling me to get back down there lol but yeah. The wierd part is that I had felt like I had lived this experience before. I started to gain a memory afterwards of me preparing for that moment in some other dimension or world before I was born here. About 15 minutes before this had happend everything was very surreal. Reality didn't seem real I didn't know if what I was seeing was real I began to question literally through an understanding if this was real. That was when I started to realize I could be about to die. My will did not allow me to die though. I did not want to die.

[Selski]

Hi Doug and all

I had the same thing happen to me last night.  

I found myself in some kind of war zone.  I was dreaming, but was out of body in the dream (you know those confusing experiences).  I was also semi-lucid, but not fully.  

I "saved" the hero from getting killed.  Then one of the good guys asked me if I'd like to join them properly and fight the cause with them.  I had no idea what the cause was (this didn't seem to be the reason for the question).  I said, "you mean I can choose right now not to wake up and stay here always?"

"Yes," he said.

I thought about it for a few seconds, and was very conscious that I might wake up before I made my decision, so quickly I said, "OK, I want to stay here with you."  I thought it'd be far more interesting to see what would happen next, as opposed to choosing life and waking up.

He said, "you do realise we'll have to do something about your physical body".

"Oh yes, it needs to die, doesn't it?" I responded.  The most fascinating thing about my response was that I didn't give a monkeys about my physical body - it was of no interest to me whatsoever.  

Then, as is usual with these types of experiences, it went all odd and pear-shaped, however there was another small conversation later on which was interesting.  I'd gone off to do something in preparation for staying with the dream characters.  There were two females talking and one said, "most of them haven't a clue; they have no idea what dreams really are.  They think they're just dreaming!!"

And a bit later I woke up.  And I am still here.  I went to work today and my boss acknowledged me, so I'm not a ghost haunting my own place.  

I thought I was in Focus 3, but it seems I was languishing in Focus 2 yet again...  :grrr:

Hi ho.

Sarah

[mactombs]

Wow, Sarah, I would be so disappointed! That's cool, though, otherwise we wouldn't be able to read about it.

"most of them haven't a clue; they have no idea what dreams really are. They think they're just dreaming!!"

I suspect this is true - I just wish instead of saying things like this, they'd expound on things and give us a clue!

[Selski]

Wow, Sarah, I would be so disappointed!

I was gutted, mactombs.  I really thought I'd not come back.  

It wasn't so much that I hated this life - it was more that I'd been able to make that choice, consciously and with utter conviction.  I was ready to do it, I was totally serious about my decision.

And if it happens again, I will most likely go the same route - just for the sheer hell of it - you know?  Well, I think you, of all members, do know what I'm talking about.

Sarah

[taoita]

Goodness, your dreams are quite frightening when you think about them.  I mean, are they in some way reflecting your responses to terror in society when people are choosing death as justification?

[MisterJingo]

I have been given such a decision in a dream in which I died multiple times. I was in a war zone, and each time I died I was given the option of returning to life or staying dead. At first I kept choosing life, and I would return to the same war situation, but as a different person in the war. Finally I chose death, and my body left me. I was presented with a scene of a disant snow capped mountain, in a pine wilderness and a crystal clear mountain lake reflecting everything. There was a blue diffuse light permeating everything (similar to very early dawn light). This scene remained with me for the rest of the night, until I awoke.

Out of curiosity, has anyone else had a blue tint to their vision whilst OBE? A lot of my OBEs seem to have the most magnificent blue light spread over the environment I am in.

[Selski]

I was in a war zone

Interesting.

Sarah

[Steve 2B]

Hi Doug, everyone

Years ago, when I was still a teenager, had a similar episode in a dream, which I was walking along a riverbank with some friends, noticed this old ww2 bomber perched on a concrete pillar, on the opposite bank. We were trying to figure out how to get over to other side, could get a better look at the plane, I was leaning on this old wrought iron fence, which ran alongside the river. The fence couldn't have been secured too well as it tipped forward and I fell into the river, my feet got stuck in the mud and was pulled down under the water. After some thrashing about I drowned, everything went black, suddenly there's this commanding voice in my head, a bit like the 'voice of the mysterons' that says,"IT'S TIME TO LEAVE THE PLANET!" At which point I freaked and woke up. Still remember that one vividly, even to this day  



Steve