vw00t! first ap for me ^_^

[Nick]

Hi kakkarot,

Congratulations on your AP experience! [] Thanks also for taking the time to write down what you could for the rest of us. It appears that you had a very notable session!


All the best,

[Jeff_Mash]

Yes, I agree with Nick.  As I tell everyone on this forum, "Nothing beats the first time!  You'll always remember it!"

I like how you LEARN as you go.  For example, you remembered in the moment that you needed to spin your "spirit feet" around the other way in order to separate.  

It's little things like this which we learn with every experience, and we build on them to become better at this skill.

The same thing will happen with your fear.  The next time you get OBE and you start to feel that "dweller on the threshold" feeling, you'll remember at that moment, "Hey, this is what happened before, and nothing bad resulted from it....so I'm going to continue to ignore this feeling."  

Before you know it, there will be no fear, and only joy & excitement!  Good job.

[kakkarot]

thanks for the replies, guys ^_^ . i hope i do another one tonight.

also, i've added the pic in my previous post, it's not the greatest, but meh ^_^

~kakkarot

[Blackstream]

That site doesn't allow remote linking, you are going to have to open it up with a right click->properties and paste the link into your browser window to look at it.  Otherwise it'll just be a pretty red x.

At any rate, that's awesome.  I'm hoping to get mine going soon too:)

[Fat_Turkey]

Congratulations! As for me, I still haven't even come close []


Sounds nothing like what I would expect an astral projection to be like but, meh, everyones different.

Later
~FT

[FistOfFury]

congrats kakkorot, I had too had a similiar experience. I was stuck at the head and tried to rotate around!

[kakkarot]

i just had my first consciously cause astral projection experience this morning at around 7-ish am. i'm gonna write it in point format rather than paragraph format cause that's much easier for me to do:

-started off in a dream, dreaming that i was in my bed at the house i grew up in, but at one point i was dreaming that my spirit was partly out of my body but still being anchored there somewhere around my head

0-----=
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where the ] is my spirit (or astral/energy body or whatever you want to call it), the 0 is where my physical head is, the - is my physical body, and the = is my physical feet. i'll use a lowercase o to rep my spirit head in the next illustration

-i've been in that kind of situation before and each time i just tried parting my spirit head from my body head. it never worked, so this time i spun my spirit self so my feet were going away from my body and at the point where my spirit head hit my stomach i finally fell out of it.

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to

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-i'll try to make an animated gif and upload it later, but for now that's the best i can do ^_^;

-so anyway, i fell through my body, going down and i felt the change from dream to ap. it was kinda neat, it felt partly like i was passing through a veil of sorts, and partly like i was casting off something that once either was cloaked upon me or was kind of inside of me.

-got the dweller on the threshold kind of fear but calmed myself and decided that no matter what happened i'd keep going till i had some proof (for myself, not others) that i really was ap'ing
-also, as i was still falling, i heard my alarm clock go off and immediatly thought 2 things: 1) did i set my alarm clock? i don't remember doing so. 2) meh, it's only an alarm clock, it's not important, i'd rather be ap'ing anyway. so i ignored it and kept falling. (for later reference, my alarm clock did not go off, i was just hearing things that weren't there)

-i fell a short distance "between planes" (dreamscape and ap, if you will) i guess before ending up in a place that was large and empty. it felt like a vast plane and it felt like it was probably the astral, so that was proof enough for me that i was ap'ing, at least for this first go, so i snapped myself back to my body (the feeling of the dweller on the threshold fear was still with my but was very little, but i still didn't want to deal with anything like that just yet. i just wanted to check out the plane for the first time)
-i was only there for a brief time but it seems like the control of the astral body in the astral realm seems very intuitive

-snapped back to body, three things to note: 1) got some weird sort of half sight while my astral was trying to realign with my physical, and i saw some greyness areas about the room and upon myself, they didn't seem like they were beings, just energy/astralmatter or something like that
2) my body was starting to go into sleep paralysis mode so i broke that by forcing first my arm to move, then by sitting up
3) while the weird sight was going on it seemed like my astral body was still trying to integrate itself in my physical body, very cool feeling []

-as i wrote this down on paper just after i got up, i realized i was till feeing in my heart the exact fear that i was feeling regarding the dweller on the threshold (not the exact kind of fear, but the exact fear). this seems to indicate, that for me at least, the dweller on the threshold is indeed my own fears which means i'll (hopefully, if i don't spend all day on irc [:I]) be spending some time later today meditating on those fears and seeing if i can ease them here.

so, that was what i'd written (only slightly editted) when i first woke up after the ap. it was neat

thanks for listening to my ramblings ^_^

~kakkarot

edit: http://www.freewebs.com/b0bkakkarot/index.htm. nerts, well the pic was working at one point, but now i guess i have to link to a page instead :/ .

(the green is my spirit, the black is my body, the darker green flack near the end is that stuff i was talking about which i "shed off" or whatever.) thanks for pointing that out, blackstream.