My obe journal

[nsb]

Hello,

I've been reading the forums a bit after I went into this obe stuff and finally thought to register and share my experiences. All my life I've been a disbeliever of anything supernatural. Science has been my only religion and that's what I'm studying now, physics. So it's not that easy to make me believe in anything like this, but now having experienced it myself has really given something to think about.

I read about the subject on the internet and started practicing going into trance and learning about my body. I did have some experience on trance before, I have found it a great way to just relax. On the first times I managed to get the vibrations a few times. There was always a blue light associated with them, when I found the light and concentrated on it I got them. On the second weekend when practicing I got tired and tried to sleep. At some point I fell asleep in which I remember only the end that freaked me out so bad that I knew I just had to wake up, and that's where I got my first obe.

It has been been a month now since the first one, and I've gotten out 8 times now. I do consider myself very lucky reading that some spend years and don't get even one. I've been keeping a journal about these and I want to share it.

Well, here goes:

24.3.2007

~18.00 Woke myself up from a dream by placing my dream-self in my physical body. Awaken paralyzed and floating, both legs forced to rise upwards. Decided to leave. The next moment I was standing in the middle of my room. Vision flickering at a frequency of about 4-10 Hz, no sounds. Tried jumping a few times. Gravity felt a lot lower than in the physical world but was still very existent. I felt like I was could see out of the window when I wasn't looking, but when I tried to look out saw nothing but a kind of noise pattern made out of different shapes. In the real world there were curtains covering the window, maybe that's what I saw but didn't realize.

The flickering of vision might have stopped at some point but I'm not sure. I decided to go outside. Some inaccuracies appeared when I left my room, like the door opening to wrong direction, in the kitchen I saw my bed for some time. The bed disappeared and I left outside. While getting further from my room, the contrast and brightness of my vision was raising. When I got far enough from the house I stopped recognizing the outside areas until I decided to visit my parents' home. When I stopped and concentrated I noticed I was on a nearby street and everything started going black. I was back in my body. The whole experience felt 100% real, definitely not a dream.

1.4.2007

~17.30 Again began as a dream, some net-café thing. The dream stopped and I was floating a bit. Strong vibrations and loud ringing in ears. Lifted up a bit and started to spin around the up-down axis. Landed slowly on the carpet, which I could smell and feel very clearly. Stood up and felt the normal gravity this time. Almost lost my vision but managed to get it back by concentrating on it. Everything went on more like a dream this time, my thoughts were not clear and objects were wrong.

I saw about a 2 year old girl running outside my room but ignored her. In the kitchen there was a man about my age. I touched his shoulder and asked who he was and what is he doing here, but he ignored me totally. He was acting like a zombie, walked in my room where I threw him out. I had to physically open my door to throw him out. I went to my computer to write something down about this just to test if it is there when I wake up. The computer was in a place that it shouldn't have been anymore. There was a text-editor open with some text in it from my net-café dream. I deleted the text and typed something. When I was trying to type :w to save the file I ended up moving myself in the real world and woke up.

Really disappointed about the experience, too dream like. All furniture wrong and felt heavy physical constraints. The zombie ruined pretty much the rest.

3.4.2007

~12.00 I had awaken from a night sleep about an hour ago, lying on my bed imagining things. I felt like I could go but didn't want to, so every time I got deep, I moved myself. Some unconscious part of me seemed to have a strong need to leave so I just gave up and went with it. The vibrations came in the moment I gave up. They were, I think, very intense but I couldn't really feel or see them, just somehow sensed them inside me. It was really easy to lift both of my legs up. Floated up and out. I couldn't see but just a few flashes. I'm not sure I remember the sequence of the next events correctly. I was flying uncontrollably in my room. Concentrated too much and got back where my body was, immediately rolled off my bed.

Now this is really freaking me out right now, it wasn't my conscious self who rolled. It just happened. Maybe it was the same part that wanted to get out in the first place. Sort of landed on the floor, not really a landing. I kept falling down at the same time I was on the floor. Got into 3d blackness falling down. Felt some negative energy in my stomach, not much though. Trying to move up thinking positive feelings. Saw a flash of some area that I at that moment thought was my room.

Back into blackness, saw some kind of set of hallways without walls or ceilings below me. There was someone walking there in one of the hallways. Woke up. Very real feelings, non dreamlike. Couldn't control where I was going. Lasted maybe a minute or so. Very positive experience.

9.4.2007 (This one happened while at my parents' home)

~8.20 Not gonna write much, this morning got another separation after a good night sleep at my parents'. Light sleep, suddenly noticed I could see the dream images. Uncontrollably movement, heavy flashing. Flying in my room and just outside. Saw a piece of furniture that has been moved to another room year ago in it's old place. Couldn't move, wished for help, saw something not so clear, tried to concentrate on it and woke up. There was a second of really clear vision, otherwise too heavy flashing to see enough.

11.4.2007

~12.00 Floated up and away just meditating, no dreams or images of any sort. Had to put a great effort to keep vision up. Once got back to my physical body but managed to float out immediately. Walked outside for a long time, saw someone alone in the stairs, some group moving in outside. Heavily modded Volkswagen at the parking lot across the road with maybe 3 people outside and 2 inside. Other of the two inside had a small baby with her.

Walked around, couldn't go far or I would start to black out. There was some traffic on the streets. Most of the buildings seemed wrong. I saw someone running past me and asked her to stop. She was a young woman around my age. Blond yellow medium length hair, normal weight. Asked her name and she said "Anni" (A common Finnish name). There was sort of an understanding between us. Suddenly she was lying on the ground on her stomach; Just like happens to me sometimes when I'm sleeping. When she got up, I hold her hand and we agreed to go somewhere, no idea where. She was leading. Moving further made me start losing it so I asked if we could stop and told her I'm losing it. We stopped and I think she was gone. Got lost and woke up. The whole thing took over 10 minutes.

15.4.2007

~12.00 Just a fast one. Eventually woke up because of a loud cracking sound from my desk. Tried to find this journal to see if I could read some future writings but couldn't find it. All the stuff in my room was something else than mine, a lot of that there was too. I was able o see through the window this time and looked out for a short while.

18.4.2007

Somewhere in the afternoon, developed from a dream taking place in my room. No vibrations but a weird electric sine wave sound ~1Hz. No extra furniture or items, everything just perfect. Lost vision when I went outside after about 10 seconds. I have a feeling it happened twice but can't remember the first one.

22.4.2007 (This one is probably more like a dream about astral projection but not sure. I chose to write it down here since I did it all consciously and there was a clear line between the dream and this)

In a dream I got into a position where I would need loads of guns. Sort of escaped from the dream to project into an empty white space where I could summon shelfs full of weaponry (The Matrix movie style). Took a few seconds but got there. Summoned some closets but they were all empty. In one of them there was some farming tools. A bit disappointed I noticed a woman coming in from a door. I offered her a nice dress from one of the closets and told her this one looks better on you. Her dress changed to that one and she took my hand and lead me to a door that said "armory" on it. Got exited but when the door opened it wasn't an armory but a shooting range. Woke up.

23.4.2007

~8.00 Quite a long one, around 18 minutes or more. The best vision ever, everything felt really solid. Wanted to meet my guide. Just looking around in the outside to see where he/she would appear. A tall woman came running towards me but looked like she would have ran just past me if I didn't greet her. I asked her if she was my guide and she turned into a man around his 50's. A sandstorm began and we went inside.

There was a cat there and the man started to tell me about cats and dogs. I just can't remember the exact words but they went along something like "you should not give a cat too much, only when it's a storm outside." The cat seemed to be interested in me. It felt like a nice cat. I noticed there was an empty food bowl on the floor. A dog appeared and I asked "what did you say about dogs?". "Dogs are loyal but", then some word I don't remember and don't think I even understood it. I touched the dog and it bid my head, like half of my head was inside it's mouth, as it to show me that while they can be loyal, they can still bite your head off. Then everything turned into a slide show of political news and I thought screw this and woke myself up.



That's the end of it for now.

One thing that has happened to me when these started is that I get really scared at nights. I can feel something don't know what and I just can't sleep without a light on anymore. Sometimes I have to put an effort to not notice the border between sleep and awake, at nights when I try to sleep, that is really freaking me out. I feel like I could obe almost every time I try to go to sleep at nights but am just too scared then.

Also my dream recall has gone a hundred times better. I'm even starting to remember years old dreams that I've never thought about before.

[Selski]

Very interesting nsb.

Keep up the journal - it's a vital part, in my opinion.

Any questions, feel free to ask.

Sarah

PS  Welcome to the forums!