annoyingly helpless lucidity

[sashamasha]

I know this happens cyclically for me, but it's still annoying.  I'll go through a period of very weird vivid dreams for a month or 2, then gradually they become more and more lucid over several weeks, then the sky's the limit.  However the annoying stage is where I am now; totally lucid and totally unable to change my dream environment, other than my place within it.  I can fly in this stage.  This stage blends people I know who may or may not interact with me, and total strangers interacting with me.  This morning I dreamt  I was watching my mother and her lawyer talk, when another "lawyer" came in and excitedly, well, played lawyer, talking about secret entrances and chambers in the house I grew up in that my dad (who recently passed) left.  I mentioned 2 hidden workshop areas that would no longer be there.  It was all really stupid and I was annoyed, and kept trying to change the house, change my location, move the walls, anything to get some peace and quiet.  My aunt (by marriage) was there, who none of us are very close to, also listening.  Dad was also there, eating cereal, watching me and sort of shrugging apologetically.  Haa.  

Eventually I managed to fly away but it was like I kept gettting sucked back to this dream.

[wisp]

sashamasha,

Maybe because you have gone as far as you can in this realm of progress? I have reached such a place in the physical. It seems to be about ground work.

Sorry I couldn't get the book excerpt to you in the communication thread.

[sashamasha]

wisp, no worries.  I will check it out when I am back in the US in a few weeks.  thanks though!

As to the other... this is really a cyclical progression.  I have been here many, many times before.  Before this always comes no lucidity, and after this always comes greater lucidity, etc.  It's a cycle, but an annoying one.  There are always commonalities and always slight changes, and the cycle gets longer and more intense, so that I recall more dreams at each stage.