Evolving dream sequence.

[holy reality]

Ok.. the deja vu... the more you have deja vu, the more you look for it.

I went 2 weeks where I'd always see the clock right at 9:11 with no memory of having looked at the clock at 9:10 or 9:00 so as to maybe subconsciously will myself to see it at 9:11.

However why would I have a memory about isignificant times? I look at the clock a lot.

I would see 11:11 all the time (still do once and a while)

I was talking to someone about 11 and about deja vu, went to m-w.com to look the meaning of the word up, and was greeted with a nice bold ELEVEN! : It's our 11th edition, something something...

Then I asked her if she would be weirded out if she looked on aim and saw that someone had been on for 11 days, 11 minutes, and 11 seconds.. and she said no.

The next day I log onto aim, mouse over a friend, he had been on for 1 day, 11 hours and 11 minutes....

Coincidences? I have no clue. But I know that after a while I stopped expecting to see 11 all the time and stopped thinking about it, and I stopped seeing it.

As far as your dreams go I assume you firmly believe they cycle repetetively throughout your life, so this is going to greatly increase the chance that they keep doing so.

if you go to bed expecting to dream something, you more than likely will do so.

This is what makes nightmare spells so hard to break, once you've had nightmares for more than 3 days in a row you start obsessing about them and your sleep gets screwed up and then they just keep happening more and more and more... and you come to expect them to happen every night.

What I'm getting at is that the dreams may not mean a whole lot and  you've just made them an everday part of your life, thereby making them repeat frequently... and that if you work on them a bit and try to figure them out and then set up affirmations to stop having them, they may go away.

As for living the same life over and over.... if so there is something you need to learn or do that you haven't done yet that is keeping you from moving on, and the dreams may play a role in that, but... well th at's up to you to decide.

personally I think you're just weirded out and need some peaceful sleep for a while... I've gone through a lot of episodes of intense deja vu and repeating dreams where I start coming to all sorts of weird conclusions...

There is no right or wrong conclusion mind you, but...  I think you should try to break free from the deja vu and dream patterns and occupy your mind with something else for a while... give yourself a different perspective.

[Skronk]

What you are describing is synchronicity, not deja-vu.

And when I said 8 months of deja-vu, I didn't mean a few times a day or something.  I mean all the time.  Constantly.  Every second of every day.  It was freaking unreal, let me tell you.

I guess I should also mention that I like my life this way.  So no need to help me break out of it.  

[Skronk]

I mentioned that I have full control in these 'dreams', maybe that qualifies as AP?  If so, could a mod move this the the AP forum?

I'm kinda unhappy about the lack of replies...  is this just too bizarre for people to get a hold of?  

[Skronk]

Ok some background.  I am of a very firm belief that I live my life, this same life, over and over endlessly.  I won't go into the gory details, but suffice to say that after a period of constant deja-vu (I mean 24/7) for 8 months, this was the only explanation that remained.  (You really look at deja-vu a different way when it won't go away.  I was able to really dig deep into what composes it... after a point it was no longer deja-vu, and it never really went away, I just accepted it.)  But that's not the point (or maybe that is the whole point...)  So here I go.


For about 6 years now I have been having a recurring, episodic, epic dream.  I'll explain.  It has anywhere from 10-30 segments dreamt over a period of about a year.  These segments are sequential, and cycle, so that at some point (always difficult to say which one) I realize I have started over again.  In the first few years, I wasn't really aware of this.  But after several cycles, it has become clear that this is the dream's structure.  I even have deja-vu within these dreams.

The dreams are almost always lucid, but the thing is, I can't change the overall world they take place in, just what I do, and usually, since I am quite obstinate, I end up doing mostly the same things (hey, it's fun!).  I have also discovered that certain events happen no matter what I do, especially when I die in the dream.

That is a very common theme in this dream.  I die in almost every episode.  But (and this is a big but) I can resurrect myself in the same continuous segment.  In one that I kinda like, I am at a large party with a gang.  I get in an argument with them and I end up getting shot with an uzi.  I die, and they bury me under the floorboards in one of the rooms.  But I am still conscious and slowly heal myself and become aware that I can phase out of my burial spot.  So I do just that.  I usually end up near a bridge somewhere in a city, and often die again, with similar results.  I usually end the dream segment at the party again, with everyone there astounded at what I have done.

Another segment is really hard for me to remember, but I will try.  I am in my childhood, with the people I grew up with, and they have decided I am evil and must be 'dissolved'.  They use 'mind powers' to convince me I am not real and in a way to abolish me.  But when this happens (again a death) I sink into the earth and become part of the energies of the landscape.  Somehow (this is always fuzzy to me after I wake up) I warp these energies to return to physical reality... (I can never recall what happens after that.)

A common theme in all the segments is me being able to go beyond death and live again.  I die so many ways in these dreams, I pilot impossible ships, and I can alter the dream reality in ways that allow me to remain immortal, but never actually alter the base world behind the dream.

Anyways, this is getting long.  There is something that has been happening the last few months that I am wondering about.  Almost all my dreams now are in this epic dream, it used to be just sporadic, every few weeks, but more and more my dreams have been taking place in this epic dream world.  And almost all of them are lucid.  And the really disturbing part is that my mood awake has become dependent on the dreams I had the night before.  I wake up sometimes to a horrible day, not because of what happens during my waking day, but because of these dreams.  It seems like my dream world is coalescing and nearing my waking world.

I have questions about this, but I'll be damned if they don't rush though my mind the first few seconds after I awake and then disappear.  So, I am looking for insights into this, maybe some probing questions to get my mind in gear.