From the ages of 8 to 15, I have felt desperate about feeling love with a significant other... I know! It sounds pathetic to start a story like this, but it gets reallly interesting, so hear it out a little if you have time. But anyways, it was new years when i was 15, which was 2004, and as I watched the ball drop on TV, I couldnt help but just cry my eyes out. I couldnt explain why, but I realized later that I felt like I was missing half of myself, and I had felt that way my whole life.
I tried explaining how I felt to my sister first, who was 12 at the time, but she didnt understand, and for all her life, shes had absolutely NO interest in love. She didnt understand and called it stupid how I would cry over that. Then i talked to my friends about it, and they acted as tho they didnt even hear me! But anyway, about 6 months later, near the end of school, i wished on a star at night, and I said, "I wish I could finally fall in love". That night.. I had a very elaborate and vivid dream that I was going far away, on like a trip, and then I met this whole family who seemed really nice and welcoming to me. And they wanted me to spend time with each of them, and they had this daughter, that when I saw her at first, was stunned. i couldnt look at anything else but her. But when we locked eyes, she shyed away from me.
Next night, I dreamed of the same thing, but I woke up where I left off, and I was standing upright inside of the house of the family I met. The weird thing is, is that I continued on talking and doing what I was doing as if i never woke up or went back to sleep. This time, I went to go find that girl who caught my eye before. She was sitting outside on a wall, and she didnt look at me at first. I talked to her very openly, which is weird, because back then, i was a very shy person!! i didnt even know how to be outgoing, or possibly even know what the word meant! yet i was with this girl! It was like I was me, but I was out of my shell. So anyway, i was talking to this girl, trying to get her to talk back, but she didnt respond, and she always looked away. Then i finallly asked, "Uh, why are you always looking away?" and a few seconds later, she lifted her head up and looked right at me with wide, deep purple eyes. I had never seen an eye color like it before, so I was amazed at the sight. I remember I just stared at her for a long time, and she did too. Then we just looked away again, mutually, and then went different ways.
Sooo I'm starting to notice that every next night I have a dream, I wake up in the same spot, kind of like resuming a video game, except more immediate. then I become more interested in falling asleep every night. I start talking to this girl more, and she doesnt say much at first, but when she first smiled, it was a big deal to me. And the more we got used to being around each other, the more we started to like each other. It wasnt even the slightest bit awkward! We just went on and got closer by the night... and eventually, we got more and more romantic, yet more and more naive at the same time it seemed. The last time I remember spending alone with her was by a bright sunset right outside of a nearby forest. We held each other, and this is when I first felt...love... in a dream. and the dreams ended when her father had kicked me out of their house, when he found out how close I had gotten to his daughter. I"ll never forget how when I walked out of the house, I continued to look back at her, and she looked back at me, and then the door closes, but my eyes didnt move.
yeah I KNOW it sounds really weird, but i cant help it >.< i also find it weird that i never started to really like girls, or feel love for them, until after i stopped having those dreams. The day after I had my last dream, I felt so sad, I was physically ill when i woke up. I had to stay home, and I ended up playing video games to try to get my mind off of it. Strangely, my sister came home from school that day with 2 friends. One I had met before, but the other one, who i hadnt met yet, had striking resemblances to the girl in my dreams, that I was extremely shocked. She had the same shape of the eyes and face, and I couldnt help but feel attracted to her.
Ever since then, everyone i have ever been attracted to or have gone out with has a lot of similarities to the girl in my dreams. But whatever relationship im in.... doesnt feel right.
Could it be because this "girl of my dreams" is my soulmate? how did i end up finding her? and how could i find her again? im so confused, i just want to know the answers about how i could find her! ... i dont know much about this kinda stuff really, but please send some replies if you know what this could have been. thank you so much.
I had a crush on a church girl once and used to fantasize that she was my girlfriend and then dream about her. I was really only in love with a fantasized idea of her being some angel goody-two-shoes, but then I learned she was just as human an mischievous as I was. When I realized that, those fantasized "Romeo & Juliet" kind of dreams ceased to occur.
I believe love starts by being good friends.
Ah, yeah, I know what that's like, that's happened to me too, but this girl I saw was someone I'd never seen before in my life or even remotely looked like anyone I knew or had seen, so I definitely don't think it's that. I just wanna know what it all was
Quote from: SearchingStill on August 27, 2008, 23:22:44
Ah, yeah, I know what that's like, that's happened to me too, but this girl I saw was someone I'd never seen before in my life or even remotely looked like anyone I knew or had seen, so I definitely don't think it's that. I just wanna know what it all was
I wish I could help, but my best advice would be to pray, yet be realistic. The doors of opportunity in life may open or close, but its not reason to get fed up about it. The most important thing is perhaps to at least be best friends with the girl and wish her happiness (with you or without). Happiness is a choice and true love will respect that.
let me start by saying that everything is possible.
it is possible that the girl in your dreams is someone you made contact with before you came to earth this time and you two have a contract that you should me or something of that sort, in that case, you will meet her and maybe fall in love.
it is also possible that the girl in your dreams is simply a figment of your imagination, your subconscious (and therefore yours) perfect girl, and having seeing that girl, you don't feel satisfied with anything less than her.
It is also possible she is someone you knew when you were young and you can't figure it out now.
it is also possible that your subconscious is trying to tell you something much more important about you that I could never know about, it could relate to anything.. from you being gay to any subtext about your previous relationships, future relationships, maybe have something to do with sex. In fact, everything is possible
look deep inside you for your answer because its somewhere there.
Also,
if you see that girl again in your dream, try asking her who she is, without putting any emotional fuel to her, do not expect her to say anything, try and remain as passive as possible with your mind as you confront her
hope this have been helpful
Ariel
I know this may sound crazy but my mother took me outside after we got home from my dads (my mom worked from 8:15 am to 3:00 am) and she told me to stay outside for as long as i need to and look up at the stars for three nights counting every star in the sky and to ask a question, after three nights i asked my question (who is my soul mate) and surprisingly I literally saw an image of her in the stars. so if you do this and you see her in the stars then it's meant to be. I'm not sure if you can do this as many times as you want but i think you should give it a try you have nothing to lose.
Note: if you live in a city or metropolis you won't be able to do it, too much lighting in the city and such. good luck and have faith friend. :-)