I have LD'ed and AP'ed with intent for 15 years but not always by myself. I met J who became my boyfriend, but we broke up due to our families and other circumstances. We really cared for each other. When I met him, I was introduced into a group of Dreamers. That was when I was fifteen. We have not seen each other physically in 15 years but we continue to dream with each other. Anyway ... the dream.
Lately, I've been developing my own abilities, becoming lucid while dreaming, etc. In this dream, I was on a ferris wheel. It was going too slow so I sped it up. I was having a ball. (BTW, this is not my first LD. I've had lots). I knew I was being watched but couldn't be sure who it was. I got off the ferris wheel and walked into a building with art, paintings and such. I created a laser gun and started shooting but I did not destroy anything. Then, for some reason the gun turned into a long pen. I was determined to keep shooting so I turned it into a shooting laser pen. (Silly, I know. LOL)
Then, I feel a familiar presence around me. I float with this presence and it guides me to a place away from everything. The person is invisible. I cannot see who it is but I know where their body is because I can sense it. Then, I feel a hand lean me back and hold me upright. I trust this presence, i know this presence. I begin to feel fingers touching me intimately. It is very pleasurable and I don't want it to stop so i go along with it. but then I want to see who it is touching me. I sense I know ( the boy in my past) but I want to see him. So I gaze into where I sense his body and wait a minute. Instead of seeing a normal human body, i see a deep, rich purple light, an essence. I recall saying, "You're purple." He stops touching me. I want it to continue but I am stunned to see a purple essence instead of a human figure because I've never encountered this before. When I wake up, I stay relaxed and calm. I begin to RV and I see a man lying in a bed with a sheet draped across him. The body is very familiar. It looks like J's but I want to see the man's face. I can't. I try to feel his face and I think I see J's face but I don't know if it's just wishful thinking or what.
Can someone share some insight into this? Before this dream occurred, I was dreaming and was asked if I was ready. I said yes. A night or so later. I went through a ceremony where a dark skinned man wearing a necklace of bones took a knife and cut my hand. He said something and then told me I was one of them. I was very happy. Fifteen years ago J told me I would know when I was ready. Has anyone else experienced this? If it was J touching me, can anyone shed any light as to why he would appear as a purple essence rather than appear in human form? I think seeing the man in the bed was J and he was revealing himself. If someone could help me understand this, I'd really appreciate it.
Thanks for taking the time to read this far! :)
~ Juliet
I like your name Juliet, it's pretty. Have you ever watched Ranma 1/2? There's an episode when they put on that play. It's so cute! I think they did it on Pippi Longstocking too, but that sucked. They ruined the damn ending. Damn bleeding heart child-protecting wusses.
I don't mean to be a pest but this is important to me. Maybe no one can offer an explanation. Maybe one of the moderators could read my post and see if anything sparks any ideas. I'd REALLY appreciate it.
Thanks,
Juliet
Thanks for the compliment. I've never heard of Ranma. What's that?
Toodles,
Juliet
First off, sorry that I can't help you with your problem, I've got zero experience in astral projection, but your problem does touch me so I'm going to help bump it to the top and to the attention of other posters with small talk :)
Ranma 1/2 is a humourous anime (Japanese cartoon) starring Ranma, a young male martial artist who will inherit the Anything Goes martial arts style. The problem was that when he was training with his father in china, they both fell into cursed springs (pools of water) which cause whoever falls into them to change into the last thing that drowned in the pool whenever splashed with cold water. They will change back to their original forms when doused with cold water.
Ranma's dad (Genma) fell into the spring of drowned Panda, so he turns into a Panda. The namesake of the show comes from what last drowned in the pool Ranma fell into: a cute young red-headed lass. He changes into a girl whenever he is splashed, which can cause a lot of problems, especially since his father arranged to have him marry his best friend (and co-founder of the Anything Goes school's) daughter. All sorts of hilarious episodes ensue, all in good fun. There's bits of brief nudity, but only involving female breasts, and even then it only shows Ranma's in girl form, which is acceptable as you see that he is still very much a boy, even though he might occasionally use his feminine looks to get free food or make fun of Akane (his fiance, a tomboy).
I highly recommend it. It's available both in manga (comic) form, and anime (cartoon) form. Either is great, and has all sorts of awesome art.
Ranma sounds cool. It is definitely original. I bet it's hilarious when things start happening all at once. :lol: I have not watched much anime, maybe once or twice. I prefer horror movies and films such as Kill Bill. (Uma Thurman is kick-***.) I like anything directed/produced by Quentin Tarentino. I like his style.
Anyway ... I appreciate your help with my problem. I can't talk to my mom or sister about this; they just wouldn't understand as they don't approve of APing or such much. I've had a lot of crazy things happen in my life: some were terrifying, some enjoyable. Everyone has these. I hope someone can help because I have had many questions I can't seem to find myself. (Maybe I'm too close to it.)
I was browsing through the posts in other indexes on the Astral Pulse and I found a post I'd written in February of 2002. I had forgotten I'd been signed as a member. LOL In case anyone wants anymore history about my problem or examples, look in the Psychic Self-Defense section. My entry is the very LAST entry, I believe, under the name LadyLea. It goes into a lot more detail about J's tie to me.
Sorry, Tyciol, for the long post. Maybe you could read my old post and tell me your ideas, or anyone else that comes across this.
Take care!
Juliet
Just in case anybody is interested or think they can help, here is the information to locate my other posts under the other name.
http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/posting.php?mode=reply&t=15626
Just in case the above link doesn't take (I'm awful with computers), here's how to navigate to get there.
1. Go to Psychic Self-Defense Index.
2. Click the page number 88, that is to the side above the message display.
3. My post is titled "AN ATTACK OR A MESSAGE?" by LadyLea on February 17, 2002 at 1:57 a.m.
Thanks!
Toodles,
Juliet
Kill Bill was totally AWESOME. I especially liked Lucy Liu's character in it, except for the head thing. That's probably because I have an intense crush on her though.
Just to let you know, when they showed her character as a child, that was anime. Most anime is a lot more lighthearted and meant for kids. There is, however, a brand of more adult violent gory anime that you could view if you wanted similar things.
Vampire Hunter D
Vampire Princess Miyu
Blood: The Last Vampire
Now thinking about it, they're pretty much all vampire anime... heh.
Others I'd recommend that have a good mix of lighthearted and adult themes are...
FLCL (Furikuri)
Rurouni Kenshin (Samurai X)
Samurai Deeper Kyo
Hmm perhaps this has strayed from Dreams into personal chat... but it is a good way to keep a thread going until someone who'd like to give their advice will post on it.
I will check out the other post, and bump it if I reply to it.
Hello Juliet...
the purple figure was an NGR body, like u have, the colour is the essence of that one. has ur dreaming changed alot after this dream?
Quote from: Vector 9Hello Juliet...
the purple figure was an NGR body, like u have, the colour is the essence of that one. has ur dreaming changed alot after this dream?
Yes, it has as well as other things about myself. I know the changing will continue and never stop, which is life for everyone--change. Life is change. I am speaking of change in that context which occurs naturally in daily life and in other kinds of change too.
What's an NGR body?
~ Juliet
Juliet --
I have had similar dreams -- one in particular that comes very close to this. It involved my long dead grandmother, a message of a relative's name, and a "letting go" feeling. I was in a graveyard, I felt her presence but could not see her, and then I saw "her" in the form of a golden/white light. Not a ghost, or her soul, or even her -- I don't think. But she passed to me, "You'll know soon." and I remember saying "I hate not knowing." The next day I called my mother because it was such an odd dream. It turns out that the day I was dreaming was my grandmother's birthday. I had actually never known it; it was normally just a normal summer day to me.
The very next night I had another dream with her -- the same setting, graveyard, and the light. She took something from me that she had apparently given me before. Perhaps, in the dream -- perhaps in life, perhaps never -- but it was not mine to keep. She "looked" at me questioningly, yet knowingly. I say "looked" because she was light, but I could feel her expressions -- literally; I could feel it, no need for sight. She placed her "hand" on my shoulder and I said "I know." She nodded, and as if just to be sure, said my uncle's name, "Chester." Right before I awoke, I heard a faint voice, like from the distance, shouting a number as if it were a date. Honestly, I can't remember it, or find where I wrote it down, but I used numerology (a good system) to figure out what it added up to, and it was the same as the date ... it two days. I had no idea what this meant.
I waited to call my mom until two days later and before I could recall to tell her my dream she informed me that my uncle Chester was dead. He had a heart attack. I think that thing my grandmother took from me was his essence, or self, like saying he was OK. So, the dream for me was a warning and a soothing reassurance. I never had told my aunt, for fear she might just not believe me. So, perhaps you should try and contact your friend? Or perhaps this dream was a way of telling you it's okay now. That it's finally over, and any regrets or burdens left on you from your relationship with him are gone. But if you don't feel that way, perhaps it's time for you to seek things out?
Also, there are many definitions of what "purple" means in a dream. Look them up! Or ask around. The meaning of purple, as a colour, can me anything from royalty -- to high spiritual development -- to generousity. I think, for you, it was a gateway to the beginning of a big spiritual journey for you. Perhaps he's a guide? Or perhaps he was trying to show you a guide? Since you felt an invisible presence around you, maybe that was a symbolic way of telling you to SENSE things and not try and SEE them?
Iunno, I'm new to speaking about this. Though I'm not completely clueless, I guess.
Hi, Bex! :D
It's still a mystery to me as to what it was I saw in the dream. However, I have let go of the person I thought it was. I have a future that does not have him in it, and that does not bother me. I like having it that way. I realize I am beginning a new chapter in my life but what it will lead to remains a mystery to me. Not knowing is frustrating but all will unfold in good time. That's my new philosophy! LOL
I appreciate the sharing of your rather personal experience.
Take care!
~ Juliet