This weekend I had some rather odd dreams that have me trying to look at them a bit closer. I'm hoping you can help me pick them apart.
The first dream was lucid. I'm in my bedroom at home, realize I'm dreaming, then crawl out the window onto the roof. I climb through the window rather than simply going through a wall becuase I always tend to get stuck. The window, I notice, is very small. I also take note that this is the first remembered dream where my subconscience has remembered I'm in a new bedroom (moved across the hall a few weeks ago). As I crawl through window, get stuck, and realize I'm in my new room, I hear a voice asking me how I have been. Unusual yes, but not the most interesting part. This unseen voice addresses me as Manix...using the CORRECT pronunciation (X pronouced like a K). The dream ends. I have not heard this voice since that very lonely summer when I first heard the name ManiX and took it as my own. I won't go into detail about that summer, I'll just say many strange things happened.
The second dream has me taking a closer look at it, as well as the previous. In this dream I become lucid and start flying over the hills thinking about my situation. I'm aware, but not entirely in control of my own thoughts. What I'm thinking about or asking myself aloud as I fly concerns who I am and where I am going. Every matter that I bring up for myself to review concerns opposing subjects or personality traits. I remember wondering why I feel torn between the seemingly good things in life and the bad. The dream gave me several impressions. It left me troubled about my current standing. I felt almost as if I stood at an invisable crossroad. Wanting to go both ways, but pinned to one spot for too long becuase only one path can be chosen but instead of a crossroad, a dead end feels more appropriate. I truly felt as if I were two different people, neither of which were going anywhere. I felt restless but at a loss as to where to go or what to do about it. I felt as if I was arguing with myself and neither side could come to a salution!
The dream in which I was addressed as Manix seems to echo the feelings of this most recent dream. Two personalities, two dreams, one person, same situation. This has been confusing to say the least.
What do you think? What could this dream be pointing too? I do not think an identity problem is it, that's simply the most obvious issue. There's something more but I can't grasp it.