Reclaiming a lost aspect of myself

[T-Man]

After a long drought to any Lucid NP experiences (about 7 months) I finally had a great experience last night.  I will just give you the shortened version of it.

I was standing in front of my Salt water aquarium and noticed one of my fish had died.  I removed it with a net and disposed the remains.  I had been questioning whether I was dreaming but was convinced this was too real.  I than went back to the tank and noticed the fish I just removed was back in the tank and alive.  Thinking that I must have now awakened I was sure I just wasted a great opportunity to become lucid. 

Do over: (I was given a second opportunity)

I was back standing in front of my Salt water aquarium and noticed a pair of jeans at the bottom of my tank.  I now realized this was a dream and became Lucid.  I grounded myself and felt things sharpen up.  Since my tank is in the basement I decided I wanted to go thru the ceiling joists to get upstairs.  I've gone thru ceiling/floor joists before and it is a unique experience.  I floated up and ended up in the living room of a previous house I lived in.  I ended up going thru the coffee table and a cactus plant sitting on the table as well.  I definitely felt the prickly texture of the cactus.  I than decided I wanted to go outside and figured going right thru the closed living room window would be the quickest.  I pushed myself thru the glass but had difficulty as the glass felt like I was trying to go thru a rubber membrane.  I pushed harder and made it thru but was not outside.  I was now in a large hallway I didn't recognize.  I noticed a couple of toys on the floor but the large white doors at the end of the hallway was my destination.  I could feel that something greater was waiting for me on the other side.  I went thru the doors and saw a woman sitting in the room cross-legged on the floor.  I went and sat on the floor in front of her.  I asked her name and she said she was Jonette which I could hear and understand but than she started talking to me and I had trouble hearing her.  This was kind of the where things left off for me about 7 months ago where I needed to practice my NVC.  I tried to tune into her and tried to speak to her telepathically but nothing was working.  I noticed that her mouth was moving as she was talking so I was very confused on what to do.  I than sensed a young boy walking up behind me and called me by my first and last name.  I turned around to see myself at the age of 3-4 years old.  I was so excited and gave him a huge hug.  He came and sat on my lap.  We talked to this woman for a few minutes although I still had difficulty with what she was saying.  I just felt so comforted to be holding onto this younger version of myself and I didn't want to let him go.  I think he must have been some lost aspect of myself or my inner child that I made contact with.  I than awoke in the physical but was on an emotional high all day.   

[LightBeam]

Wow, how intriguing! That belongs to the AP section by the way.
All important elements, especially meeting your younger self +the do over. Hopefully what was missed during your childhood, now was presented again to you to be understood. I think the woman was revealing this to you, but even though you could not hear her well, this information has been transferred into you. Many times we don't receive verbal straight answers, but rather through riddles.

[T-Man]

Thanks for your insights LB.  You are right...I probably should have posted this in the AP section above.  I'm just not used to creating threads there as my experiences so far have been limited!

After absorbing this experience for a day I have made some further insights.  There were a few words that I did pick up from our conversation with the woman although I didn't mention them in my original post.  I heard the word water and watering.  I take this as a need to nurture my inner child.  The hallway leading up to the two large white doors I passed thru felt abandoned with a couple of kids toys on the floor.  I feel like this was also a representation of my inner child...Abandoned.  As well, maybe the not being able to hear the woman speak was symbolic of not being heard as a child.  I am just getting feelings and thoughts about this experience but am committed now to paying more attention and nurturing my inner child.   As I am in my 50's now I feel like I have a lot of lost time to make up! 

[Lumaza]

   As I am in my 50's now I feel like I have a lot of lost time to make up! 

It's never to late to find healing and understanding in one's life! 

I agree with your insights into this. It does seem to be some kind of personal lesson coming through here.

[Nameless]

Wow T-Man. I agree, AP for sure. Your interpretations I feel are spot on which shows your growth is no small thing. I've a feeling you'll be learning a lot more as bits and pieces fall into place over the coming days.

Congratulations!

[T-Man]

Thanks Lumaza and Nameless.

All I wanted to add to my interpretation of my experience was that as I moved from one room to the next I was going back in time.  I went from my current house to the living room of a house I lived in 20 years ago.  Than when I tried to go outside I ended up in a large hallway which felt like the hallway of an elementary school.  I was regressing back to my childhood.

LB,
I guess this was a little time travel to the past of my own although I didn't see any of those Dinosaurs that you saw!

Cheers,
T

[LightBeam]

LB,
I guess this was a little time travel to the past of my own although I didn't see any of those Dinosaurs that you saw!

That's an interesting trend that several of us are experiencing. I think it's important to evaluate and revisit the past in order to effectively move forward.

[Lumaza]

That's an interesting trend that several of us are experiencing. I think it's important to evaluate and revisit the past in order to effectively move forward.

We have a new understanding of experiences than we had in the past, today. We can look back and see why things "played out" the way they did. That's growth in nutshell there!  You get to see where all the puzzle pieces fit together and where they may have went a bit astray. Its like reading a book with all the series of "acts" in them, but in this case this book is the story of "your" life. A autobiography of sorts! 

[omcasey]

T-man, good show!!!

I wonder if we could do a poll right here, it may be a topic discussed elsewhere ( I am sure it is ) but as it is an element of T-man's experience, I am wondering if it is still pretty much the same for the majority of us, regardless of depth and breadth of experience - does it remain to a great extent elusive? bringing back dialogue, conversations.. I can bring back bits, and every now and again a bit more but for the most part, it is but a drop in the bucket relative to the full content of discourse through events. What must be done to bring back more of the discussions from our experiences??

[T-Man]

For someone such as myself who has been so ingrained in 3D physical reality my natural tendency is to want to have conversations in the NP when I have those experiences.  It's a hard thing to let go but I do understand that there is much more to experience while in the NP.  Thru observing, thought and feeling, symbolism and imagery you can certainly get more out of the experience than mere words.  Maybe that is part of my lesson as well...learning not to jump straight into a conversation.

I am interested to know if others here have conversations on a regular basis in their experiences or if they just happen once in awhile?

T

[Lumaza]

For someone such as myself who has been so ingrained in 3D physical reality my natural tendency is to want to have conversations in the NP when I have those experiences.  It's a hard thing to let go but I do understand that there is much more to experience while in the NP.  Thru observing, thought and feeling, symbolism and imagery you can certainly get more out of the experience than mere words.  Maybe that is part of my lesson as well...learning not to jump straight into a conversation.

I am interested to know if others here have conversations on a regular basis in their experiences or if they just happen once in awhile?

T

I have found that using the rule of "observing" first, gives me a chance to not only get my bearings, but also to set a "anchor" that will allow me to continue to maintain my awareness in whatever NP scenario I may be experiencing. Like you said though, feeling, imagery, symbolism, there is alot to take in there. Not every adventure has to do with some kind of "physical" form. Many of the experiences are devoid of that.

My LDs are taking place many time in some kind of physical, almost "parallel" universe. They are just as real as this one here is. So, there is plenty of conversation going on there. My Phase soaks seem to focus more on some kind of mental projection where I am learning and problem solving. Once in awhile I feel I am joined by Others. Yet, those conversations take place at more of a "telepathic" level.

[omcasey]

I am interested to know if others here have conversations on a regular basis in their experiences or if they just happen once in awhile?

I find the underlying element of ALL experience to be a dialogue, an interchange, communication.. Beneath every scene itself I find myself there interacting with someone. I am speaking with them, and they with me. I am generally learning something on my end. This level of the experiencing is not something I have found many others aware of, - to just put this to the page, I rarely experience a single field alone but rather am in many fields all at once. It is rather a trademark of the way I experience, notably when 'out'. This said, I am not at ALL times aware of this all at once. For instance in the night as I am dreaming, it may take the passes into-through-and out of the beta waves for me to fully cognize the various fields, who I am with, what is happening and the contents of all interchanges. At other times through other events it is all already there. Another example is one likely a good deal common, when in physical space, for instance, being aware of communication taking place from (what we often call) non-physical space. Channels are particularly prone to this.

Now this said - with the regularity or irregularity of conversations put aside,

To what degree are you able to bring back conversations??

It is my greatest challenge.

[EscapeVelocity]

Wow, what a great question you have presented us with! T-Man pointed at it, Lumaza outlined it and Omcasey defined it...

I agree that all of our experience is a dialogue, a communication, an interchange of conscious energy...

Casey pointed out the quality that we should catch onto...how do we bring back more of the experience, the conversations, the messages? Why are these kept from us, like fleeting, lost words on the dark winds...?

With Focus, with Intent...we can make improvement; but it it seems always still incomplete. Is this the everlasting riddle and frustrating joke of being Human?

I did the Starlines 1 course at Monroe back in March...they closed the place down for Covid the day we left. We toured the galaxy and then other star systems; great time but I am still searching for answers, lol. I can certify that this is all real...at least for me, you have to figure it out for yourself.