help, i'm confused and not sure what's hapening to me

[waking_up]

for begginning this is my first post, i suppose i put it in the right topic but i apologize if i missed, and i also apologize for my english

since i was a kid(6 yrs) i've been dreaming this really vivid dreams, at first i was fuc*ing scared, like teryfied because my first (let's call it that way) dream was i when i woke up in a burning hall and some horny creature charged into me and then i was awake paralised and my my back was bent and i was fighting with some force that was pulling me down, it took real effort to fight it and when i woke up i was exhausted...haven't sleep that night nor the few next nghts
then i wasn't aware of literrally anything like astral projection, energy, chakras, etc.
basically i tought i was possesed, and for a 6 yrs old boy that isn't a verry good state of mind
it continued to happen over the years(i'm 18 now) and some dreams were more some were less scarry, but i learned to control it and tried to observe everything i see...when i wake up, i remember every little bit like it was in real life, and time goes by in my dreams at same pace as in reallity
few months ago i started to practice qigong and got intersted in energy and everything and
i was immedietlly able to feel energy in my body, but at that time i wwas preocupied with school and some other stuff to continue...
during the summer i got hooked to cocaine and when i was quitting i remembered how practising qigong made me feel relaxed and peacfull so i started doing it again now without any feel of energy
kinda dissapointed i started to research about energy and stumbled upon some astral theory, psyhcic abilities, etc
maybe two weeks ago some man at the bus station in the city that i never saw before came up and started to talk...he looked homeless but from my expiriences homeless people are ussally intelligent and interesting...anyway he was talking about some random stuff that happen in my country and then said he senses i'm verry negative(i was that day) and that the key to peacefullnes is meditation and then just said goodbye and waked away
i felt very good after that talk, and shocked because i live in a christian society, and medtation isn't such a common subject
when  came home i listened to his advice and tried to meditate and really felt this river of energy flowing trough me(not a river, but it was stronger than anything i felt before associated with energy)
that night i've had some really intense form of my usually unusual dreams and after that i felt insane tingling all over my body and i was felling hot, what is really weird because my room temperature was about 0°C(i like to sleep in a cold room)
bassicaly in my dream  was in my room and excrement just started floating around and the room was full of weird animal-but-not-quite-so-animal dolls, i was able to move but got fatigued really quickly and then i woke up and everything seemed to be back in normal bu then my laptop got dragged of my desk by a shadow stripe(literally) and the shadow started to aproach me, i tought of my little sister and she came out of nowhere walking weird,climbed on to my bed and hugged me and then i was again awake, shocked, and again with that tingling over whole my body

now my question is what is actually happening to me, i wanna now just to be able to research it more because i think of that as some sort of a gift(usual human ego to think that they are gifted XD)

thank you really in advance for your help...every comment is welcome

[Phalanx]

I quote from a previous post of mine... about your nightmare/s
"Do know though that you cannot be harmed by these entities or people, but it still can be a frightening experience if your new to it.
They cant possess you harm you or anything, The only power they get over you is if you willingly give it to them and if you don't then they cant do a single thing, if they are a "bad" entity and you refuse them they just then try to scare you but that's all they can do."

Everyone is gifted if you want to term it like that just most people are unaware/ asleep.

I come from a highly-ish christian family, fathers side lots preachers of pentecostal, mothers side avid church goers of I think baptist... I am the black sheep, so I know where you come from to a degree. You would be surprised to know that some forms of praying fall along the lines of being meditation, usually because you sit down and close your eyes you begin to become relaxed from just doing that and then you pray which if there are a lot of people and your doing a prayer out of a book it can be quite melodic choir-ish which is relaxing, and if you know anything about mantra's then you can understand how it has similar effects, om mani padme hum, Our lord in heaven... can both be said in a similar rhythmic fashion and get similar results. Qigong in itself is a form of meditation, people also don't realize that... so is yoga, tai chi and the like, personally I get similar and better effects of meditation practicing wing chun but everyone is different so different things work for each person.

You can call your latest experience an astral projection. The first part is quite obvious, then you had a false awakening but you were still in the dream/projection.

[waking_up]

oh i get that christian or muslim or basically any other religion can be used in same effect...my opinion is that religions are just human way to descrbe something above them that they can't concieve, and that jahve,allah,krishna, zeus, etc are all actually the same thing with different names

but if my parents found out about this they would get me an egzorcist or something like that


i knew that nightmares can't really hurt me, but it's not like the 'normal' nightmares so i wasn't sure about that and was afraid to risk

oh also before i 'fall asleep' i also feel something like a pulse going trough my head

and i hope you realize how much i appreciate this because it's actually first time i'm talking to someone about it

[Phalanx]

Simply enough you had projections.

Not all religions teach the same thing and scientists now are starting to believe the older ones that talk about universal consciousness and the such.

I enjoy having long winded conversations about this stuff, even though I have friends in real life who are into these things they tend to be slightly asleep about most of it so I have to resort to lurking about the internet for information and people to talk to.