The Verdant Dream Journal

[Verdant]

 I've decided to keep a dream journal, in order to help my projection attempts as well as lucid dreaming, which seem to be my most frequent tool for projection attempts.

I will use this space for any updates, links and such.

[Verdant]

6/25 - mouthwashing out the poison

notes: this dream appears in a museum I've worked in for years.

details of the initial dream sequence elude me, except that it involved several figures of major differences in height- especially that they were fantasy-looking, and we were in the theater room.

I woke up, and fell asleep to view the titular sequence.

for some reason I didn't seem to know it before the sequence but I was putting in my mouth a cherry-red substance (which a label read "fenamem" if I recall), and this stuff apparently could turn me into a zombie. at this realization I spat out the substance, but it felt like a red droplet had leaked down into my throat.

the "fenamem" itself tasted slightly chemically but was otherwise mute liquid, anyways I had to counteract that with an antidote- which I had nearby. I never recalled the name of the substance itself, but it was pellets that uncannily resembled butterscotch baking chips (which I liked to eat straight from the bag as a kid). It was oddly enough filled with plastic yellow golf tees on top of the chips. I took out the tees, poured the chips into a nearby tub and started mixing the contents. The chips dissolved rather quickly into a a white chalky mixture that looks a lot like an alka-seltzer mix or squirt (the soda).

I swished the mixture in my mouth, it tasted minty, and seemed to be kinda chalky but mouthwashy. I also let a drop of it leak down my throat to take care of the "fenamem" that had leaked down my throat shortly before.

shortly after that I woke up and found out the significance of my dream later- today I felt like rearranging my room so that my bed is parallel to the window instead of being pointed towards the door.

I had been sleeping with my bed pointed towards the door for a few weeks as a change of pace, but it turned out that changing the setup had made my room more cramped, my new large office chair taking up more space than my old tiny one. I could barely move the chair around when my bed was the way it was, and I was constantly moving my trash bin when I needed to use it.

[Verdant]

6/26 - triple play

Part 1 - a bad time for a retarded revolver

for some reason I was in a strange building looking for something, the building had lots of tall frameless windows that go from floor to celing or whatever barrier blocks it. The walls were made in some kind of fake brown wood color and texture.

things were moving pretty fast so I exited the room, and came outside, I'm not sure exactly what the reasoning or why was, but I had managed to wrest a rather odd looking revolver out of someone's hand, I was not the only armed one, I didn't exactly see or remember my associate, but they were there. anyways, the revolver looked like it was missing several pieces that looked like was keeping it in place, The chambers took up about 60% of the gun's actual size, and the barrel didn't look like a revolver barrel, more like an ad-hoc piece of piping that was hastily welded onto it. Accentuating the oddness of the sitation, was that the chambers seemed to change how many bullets were in it at a time, first check there were 3, the other chambers were filled in, which was weird as hell.

this wasn't the end of the anomalies, another thing, I tried to fire the gun at my aggressors, but the gun was ended up to be the bigger enemy than the aggressors were, it seemed as if the gun had moved its barrel position from the topmost chamber like a gun properly is, to bizarrly enough, the bottom chamber, and it was partially falling off even. I tried to hold up the barrel to the chambers, but then a rememberance about one CSI episode had reminded me to NOT put your hands on the chamber of a revolver when you fire it- you can get burned.

after that I fiddled with the revolver again and checked my chambers, they were full, with six bullets, not three, at that point, I was just giving up on doing whatever, and everything just fell into fade.

Part 2 - The red alley game, product placement power, and a rescue.

This was case of deja-vu, I felt like I had done this before, anyways, I was running through an industrial-like complex that would be home in a splinter-cell game, it was very linear; almost like levels in crash bandicoot but much longer, and when I mean running we were hauling some serious butt here. However it seemed as if it was also a giant train- as the background seemed to move too, which was interesting. notice I said "we"?  I was not alone, if I recall, I was with a black-dressed woman with red hair, looked kinda anime-like but could pass off as a comic character too.

we had found a case of diet mountain dew, which upon drinking it, I somehow gained a rather nice-looking suit... strange, but whatever I'll go with it, the enviroment & dream are video-gamey enough as is. anyways, we reach a dark metal structural-like point upon a concrete catwalk, below that catwalk was a few other similar catwalks, and at the bottom was more concrete- as the atmosphere is very video-game like, it was very uniform.

we get assaulted by a dude who highly resembles ragna the bloodedge from blazblue, at the very least he had a vivid red duster, with a white stripe along the bottom of it, his hair was white, and looked unmistakebly anime-like. the difference was his hair almost more resembled naruto's than ragna's, that's why it didn't seem like ragna.

he tried to get in a few quick hits, but missed, he leaped back past the structure, then shiz gets odd. a brown haired girl, almost naked bound in chains (tastefully covered up by said chains), rather normal-looking lady was lowered down in front of us, she needed help. a hud appeared at the corners of my eyes, as a bunch of gold missle-like objects came down to rather slowly assault me, at which point I used the recently appeared targeting cursor to wiimote style lock onto the missiles, and blast them away with energy.

I had blasted away about twenty missle-like objects, when I lost focus and woke up around 7-ish.

Part 3 - a brief meeting with ed, edd and eddy.

I had managed to fall back asleep around 8 or so.

a very self explanatory title, for some reason I was meeting with ed, edd, and eddy, from the cartoon network show. only here they looked real- disturbingly real, in their cartoon shapes but with real skin and hair. I wasn't so much freaked out as I was weirded out, we didn't speak anything, I just started at the three momentarily before looking at a nearby TV and then waking up.

[Verdant]

6/27 - grandma's multidimensional house.

(My dreams are highly imaginative and bizarre, weird occurances are the norm for about... 80% of my dreams.)

for some reason I was trying to make my way through various "dimensions" of my grandparents' house, every time I reached a certain room, Everything would black out for a second, I would be in a different room with a different companion, as well as other strangely dressed people who were there. on my second jump, which occured in the garage, and ended in the garage with a husky black man- highly resembled one of my more memorable sociology classmates (the reason thereforth being his physical description, but otherwise he seemed to be a nice guy)

most of the people that had been inhabiting my grandparents home for some reason, were dressed in white church-like outfits- my grandparents are regular churchgoers and thankfully sane about their beliefs.

I exited the garage walked upstairs, and looked at the table, it was filled with all sorts of... kitchen equipment? straight out of the place I work at. I turned around and met my boss, who's also a husky man (but not black), he said something to me which I cannot remember, and then tried to mess with the equipement on the table so that it when he slams his fist on the nearby cookie sheet, something will fly into my nearby aunt. My boss is a cool dude, and likes to tease a lot, so something like this would be kinda in character if it wasn't so excessive and painful. my aunt, I love her dearly, but I feel that she has a flaw that causes her to be very annoying at times, I cannot exactly pinpoint if it's being full of herself or being in denial of things.

she seemed fairly oblivious of the shenanigans going on, even as my boss tried again, she didn't really move, and I never got to my next "dimension" objective- my grandparents bedroom.

after that I woke up.

[Verdant]

6/28 - reminiscence  1

forgot my dream for this night, it was rather short anyway, so here's an older one I remember.

- dorm room in an airport? -

for some reason I had been visiting my brother in college, but this college looked a LOT more like an airport than a college. for a matter of description, I caught a glance of the hallway that led to his dormroom. the hallway has huge, could easily hold a couple thousand people-  and even had conveyor belts to move people fast. that's why I suspect it seemed to be an airport. My bro seemed to be just moving into his dormroom, it was about the size of a hotel room.  the archecture was clean and concrete-like, almost plasticy even, similar to the rest of the "college".

this contrasts to where he actually lived at college- which was bluntly put, a craphole.

[Verdant]

6/29 - high flying in a strange plane

this dream was interesting, for some reason, I was flying in a bizarre airplane to get out of vietnam, the plane itself had four passenger seats, two in the center for a pilot and co-pilot, and two in front of each of the wings, what was strange is that the ones of the wings, the passengers needed to stand for some reason.

I was in one of the left seats, there was another passenger in the right seat, but I hadn't really noticed. as we flew over a hilly and somewhat war torn area, I assumed we were over vietnam, and we were escaping this turmoil. I talked a bit with the pilot, he was obviously asian, although I couldn't tell exactly where he was from- not that it mattered that much.

anyways, although we seemed to be flying over vietnam, we ended up landing on a road next to a field area I usually pass when I drive somewhere, the difference being there was a lake in most of where the field was. I had noticed the other passenger on the wing when the pilot said something alluding to saboteurs. just after he said that, the man in the other seat got all fidgety, as if he was found out.

I kicked him out of the seat, and he was run over by the plane, once the plane was landed, we figured we should dispose of it, so we pushed it into the lake, although for some bizarre reason the pilot and some others I had not noticed went into the water itself, and I was like "seriously?..."

[Verdant]

6/30 - A series of possibly fortunate events

I had been having trouble getting sleep last night- for about a few months, I had been taking non-habit-forming sleep pills to help me sleep after a really bad string of night-related panic attacks over winter.

tonight was a night I decided to go off those sleeping pills, and didn't actually get to sleep until around 5.

inadveterently, I somehow managed to get myself into the 3d blackness zone, cause the first thing I felt, I was in some kind of closet-like mix between a locker room and a bathroom, the area was completely black, but I could sort of feel my way around.
during that sequence, I felt drowsy as hell, just drifting in an out of sleep- and this isn't the first time I've experienced such a phenomena.

anyways, I drifted back into sleep and had a false awakening, my bed covers had somehow gotten off my bed, so I yanked it up, and got out to get it straightened out. the room was a hotel room, and the enviroment was strangely enough, the same enivroment as my reminiscence entry. but I didn't realize that I was having a false awakening (come to think of it, I've had I think five false awakenings in my life including this one) so I went back to sleep..

after that I started to dream about some kind of harbor, but what was most vivid, was the enviroment, damn was it sunny- straight up tropical 12:00 noon awesomeness. anyways, for some reason I was being menaced by some feminine entity in a catsuit, she was being all semi-passive, mostly agressive, as if she was trying to blackmail me or something.

somehow after that sequence I became semi-concious and lucid, as I felt I was almost awake, and jumped back into another bizarre scenario.

I had changed into my old city of heroes villain character, (well his alignment was technically rogue- more of an in-between of villain and hero) and he- well, I, was not having ANY of this feminine blackmailer's BS. the enviroment had shifted to this cave, I was on a platform, with some strange, brain/egg like objects. the platform was connected to a wooden bridge that was connected to a cliff & tunnel entrance, she was standing past the entrance to the tunnel.

as my char, I was my normal size, but his axe- my axe, was massive, two-hander, head the size of someone's torso, and the egg/brain things were about three feet around in the center.

I was returning the threat, she was noticeably distraught like "oh crap", as I had threatened these important things upon her.

the sequence ended, things got hazy, then the next thing I know I'm sitting in front of a laptop. For some reason I had been morphed into a japanese student and was placed at the begginning of what seemed to be a sequence for the next shin megami tensei game, what really weirded me out about this sequence was how absolutely nowhere it went, and how specific the thoughts were.

then before I woke up, I was treated to a sequence of meeting midna from legend of zelda: twillight princess. She was speaking a derpy combination of japanese and her meaningless gibberish she spoke in the game itself. I could make out some things that were distinctly japanese words, but lost exactly what they meant because it was like godawful writing, even without the gibberish.

and I woke up... at 6:12... this is the first time I think I've ever had a long dream sequence that lasted for around/less than an hour.

I tried to project after that, but ended up falling back asleep, and I forgot the dream after.

[Verdant]

7/1 - double feature

part 1 - false alarm

for some reason I was in my parents' bathroom, me, my mom & a friend were looking outside at the winter overcast. (winter, during summer... yeah.) snow was on the ground, the trees were covered in about three inches, and we see a cyclone out in the distance, which is odd since we live on a hill.

mom was like "it's alright we never get tornadoes around here" then the cyclone seemed to start getting closer to us. I was like "maybe we should get downstairs" when the cyclone started getting dangerously close at a speed I did not expect. Instincts kicked in and I stepped quick towards the shower, but the cyclone ended up being harmlessly small.

it flew into my house and more or less disappeared, I was like "oh... ok"

part 2 - DDR freak

after I had woken up thanks to a random phone call by my grandpa at 8:20, I went back to sleep, and found myself in an arcade watching some asian dude play Dance Dance Revolution.

he was playing maxx unlimited on heavy... and doing phenomenally well despite the arrows seemingly distorting and not being of the correct BPM (techincally half BPM, which is a huge pet peeve of mine with stepmania chart makers.)

quite an astounding sight.

then I woke up around noon-ish

[Verdant]

7/2 - family matters

note: for tonight, I had taken my sleeping pill per the course (it's a generic equivalent of unisom maximum strength), and was getting too tired when being woken up in the morning for projection attempts so I set my smart alarm to 9:30 instead of 7:30.

part 1 - I question someone's logic to sealing stuff...

this was pre-wake-up. for some reason my mom and I were preparing something in the kitchen... of my cousin's first room she stayed at during college. well absurdity aside, I was looking over for some bacon, when I notice some... which was vaccum sealed in with some of my dad's oatmeal cookies and some beans I think.

I was setting the bacon aside on a plate for whatever reason we needed to cook those up. when I was woken up by my alarm clock.

part 2 - Almost Projection!

I think this dream was almost a WILD, cause I went in fairly lucid but hazy as hell. The dream started up immediately with my intent to project, that was the goal, as my vision cleared up I was in a maze of a grass field and colored energy walls. The walls had holes in them, so I started flying through each hole, trying to get to the other side, as I flew.

now that I look back, I was passing through colors that resembled the rainbow/chakras, Not sure what to make out of that.

then things got really meta in the dream, it was like I was being pulled back to my body, i had my hands slightly held out for some reason, but I paid no attention to it as I could see the maze landscape through my fingers- as if my hands had held open a portal to that area.

as I went through each respective hole in the wall, I felt like there was a barrier I needed to just SMASH through to absolutely make it, then it hit me! That wooden wall I met in my most vivid experience, THAT is what I needed to smash through!

so I tried to hunt it down, going through an assortment of other barriers, hearing that fabled wooshing noise, but I just couldn't quite find it, I smashed through something, but I didn't really feel a shattering sound... and didn't feel that I made it.

so I woke up- straight into a false awakening, and I didn't even know it.

I looked outside, and saw my mom and brother in red shirts, the were staring at me with a grin that they had seen something funny... I was like "oh excrement," I felt exposed and infuriated.

then I woke up, in my default sleeping position, not with my hands out and confused as all just what the HELL was that last part?

part 3 - kill my nostalgia, will you?

it was 10ish after my attempted projection so I was like, eh, get a few extra hours.

In the dream, I was looking over some kind of white box of... stuff on the living room table, only the table was the old one we used to have. I was flipping through the stuff when I noticed a CD that said something like "TMNT 2003", which is odd, since I never saw TMNT 2003, but I DID see the fox kids movie- where there was a fifth turtle named venus, shredder gets killed and dragons get introduced as the new enemies.

I looked in the box and saw a card with a picture of some lizdard-like character who had a head resemblance to gex (of generation 3 consoles).

I was like "oh sweet!"

mom said "no [verdant] you don't need it."

I replied "aw come on mom, gimme a chance to be a kid again!"

then I was woken up by a phone call from my dad.

[Verdant]

7/3 - video games, lucidity & hospital visits?


part 1 - mom and my uncle aren't gamers

this was the second part of my dream in the night, the first part I don't remember. I was on the couch, watching my mom and uncle play some kind of run n gun game.

they were fighting a boss, it was... snorlax, yes, the snorlax from pokemon. they were doing decently, then snorlax hits half health and starts to jump around and bodyslam the arena.

me I was like "amateurs", just watching them playing the way they are.

part 2 - car crash lucidity

this part was kinda strange, I was riding a main road in the car with my brother, when for some reason he lost control and crashed into the nearby cornfield. I woke up, went back to sleep, and we were on the same road, same car, when my brother spun out of control.

we went off the main road, went onto one of the roads leading to my house when thing started to get trippy. we reached a top of the hill when suddenly I was outside of the car, spinning around on the font of the hood. I slipped off the hood and fell very slowly to the pavement, it was then I started up into the red hood I was wearing and realized I was dream. No signs, just bam, lucidity.

As I was lucid, my dad came up to me, said we're heading home, and went off in the direction towards my house, which is where my dream was taking me.

at this point, I conciously decided the opposite, head back the way I came, I did, and then suddenly transitioned to the next scene.

part 3 - hospital. I'm fine.

for some reason I was in what seemed to be a hospital, but the areas were more shaped after an old day-care room I used to go to (and go to when I picked up my little cousins for whatever). one of my friends was there, he was sick, having a really bad coughing fit, which scared me quite significantly. so while I still had my lucidity, I tried to send energy to him to heal him, I didn't see any energy or anything, but he seemed to have stoppped after he walked off from me.

at that point I lost my lucidity and decided to head to my brother to see how he was doing. he looked like he was undergoing some treatment for something, he was in the hospital bed, wearing a hospital gown, but otherwise seemed to be fine, our parents were with him.

and then I woke up.

[Verdant]

7/4 - Daily dose of absurdity

part 1 - an odd deathmatch

for some reason I was playing a game that looked like it was something out of... 1998, slightly more advanced than quake. I was fighting in an FPS deathmatch style game in a four-way hallway against a few other opponents. One of them was a large mechanical hemlet-like thing that shot lasers from a pair of protrudences from its base. The other was humanoid, but I couldn't make out exactly what.

part 2 - Sexual shenanigans

despite the title, there is literally nothing actually sexual about this segment. The title is a reference to the "sexual tf2" series of memes that involves a plastering the of faces of the characters of team fortress 2 on a black background. the memes are entirely audio-based, and originally was a sequence of the character's voices spliced to sound like nonsense or funny stuff, it has since expanded to multiple character having conversations about absurd things, or acting out whatever absurd sexual desires they have at the moment.

and keeping this in mind, I didn't remember too much of it, just some usual absurdities and an earrape sequence of Merasmus letting loose an epic fart into the faces of the soldier and demoman.

example video of "the average sexual tf2 vid" for reference.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iyfmQC5IjMw

[Verdant]

7/5 - I have no title to describe this entry

my sleep session this night had been erratic, and for some reason I woke up earlier than my usual time I found to induce lucidity.
but I had a slightly interesting experience before I really got into my dreams.

part 1 - a brief sequence of lucidity.

this was odd, I was in the black space, and I felt like my hands were hanging down... through my bed, I noticed this and became briefly lucid, but I didn't really feel like going anywhere else with this.

a few minutes after, I felt like my dad was there, giving me a hug, it was a nice experience.

part 2 - broken toilet.

and this one was just... kinda painful. I was a kid again, and for some reason the floor was wet, mom was there and seemed irritated at me for something, and I had not much of an idea what was going on, but it felt like this water on the floor was my fault.

I then noticed the water was unusually deep, like it was flowing from somewhere. I turn around, and the toilet is just shattered, the bowl overturned, and the tank in several pieces. water is flowing out of it like a fountain, and I was in a slight panic state.

part 3 - cozy space.

this was a strange sequence, I don't really remember much after or before this part.

For some reason I had gotten myself into a gas-station in town that was converted into some kind of... kids media room. it had a small TV with a dvd player, a bookshelf and some various dvds to watch.

but was what so "cozy" about it, was that it was TINY, and cramped in there. I could stand up at full height, but my head barely hits the celing, also, there is like a few inches of clearance between my face and the shelves full of... stuff.