Trip to Innerspace

[Rakkso]

December 07, 2015

One of the most notable experiences I've noticed when we project is our cappacity to generate seemingly random ideas that spring from a seed previously introduced as a pattern in our minds without our awareness or realizing of this during our everyday life. Most of this occurs with all of us never aware of what's going on and it is mostly at night where great realizations are made as you go to your usual pillow.

I myself have always wondered of the experiences of others and since the beginning took to the very core the very important decision to have my own experiences in hope that I could relate to those of projectors such as Bob Monroe, Tom Campbell, and mostly one my spiritual guides who had a very distinguish way to share his experiences almost in a poeticall form that kept always enticing you and drawing you deeper, like one of those good book you feel sadened when they are about to end. Many as good as him have wrote such experiences here on the pulse too. I'd like to take a saying from the Bhagavad-Gita and twist it a bit to fit my case, since I've always liked to write, and so my dreams as much... Of a thousand who dream of writing a book, only one sits to write, and of a thousand that sit to write a book, only one who persisted to the very end of his story can have its own masterpiece.

It was the weekend, saturday comming on sunday, had spent the whole day with family and so was very tired, as the night approached everyone in the house left, I had not tryed to make a conscious projections on a long time so I decided I would give it a shot, shutted windows down, turned off all lights, and since mind was not tired I decided to write a bit on the desk so I would get comfy and sleepy to project. The lines on the page started with "that skyfall, Saien and Diena joined together for the coming of Wroths", but surprisingly fast I got stuck repeating this line in my head again and again, not getting anything better than that, I decided to place my head over the desk and think of something to come, this was something I'll definitely try again in the future as I inmediatly fell asleep without notice...

I woke up to what felt like 5 minutes later, thinking I was an idiot for spilling saliva all over my arm, went down to the kitchen to have some water and I started noticing that something was not right, things where as I left them but lights were on, I was pretty sure I had them off.. My inquisitive mind took a look here and there, looking for a possible trespasser since looking through the staircase window no cars where located outside so family could have not possibly arrived. I went back, grabed a bat, and proceeded downstairs to beat the living crap out of any one who had dared enter the house.. (Never thought about someone being armed, lol)

As I reached the kitchen and no one seemed to be no where, I dropped the bat and as it fell it made a hole sound on the floor, 'That can't be, its pure ceramic and concrete' -I thought- I stumped heavily on the floor, even jumped on it and realized it made the same hole sound. 'wtf'. I hurriedly took the carpet off and saw the ceramic beneath was broken to pieces on a corner. 'Jolsticks! Mom's gonna kill me'. But the same hole sound came from beneath that single ceramic tile, it was a good 3by3foot so I thought 'maybe is a filtration from the sink but it still shouldn't sound like this', so I got close to take a look and felt a heavy wind going through the tiny hole almost singing but still sucked flecks of hair, it was rather warm. An even greater 'WTF' was loudly heard. So I did something I knew I would regret but had to do still, went for a maze and hammered that shi.. *cough**cough* that thing down in a blow, the second it shattered, things around me in the kitchen started trembling and then I felt it, just like opening a door into space, 'SWOOOSH'. I, together with the Maze in hand were sucked down as if gravity had augmented 1000 times. Falling down that thing to what seemed like a cave, I thought 'this is it' so I looked up and saw the fridge moving above and closing the gap.

I was semi-lucid until this point, 'this is not possible' -I thought- 'well it is if you are dreaming' and with fear dispatched, I inmediatly turned down and saw a shining lake approaching to my grinning smile... that smile faded as I remembered what it felt to hit the water at high speeds.. it was a loud 'ohhg' 'ouchh' and dry sound rather than a splash, it really, really hurt.. but I was safe, and I was nowhere, I got happy to know I was dreaming, the lake had a glowing redish orangly color comming from its deepest bottom, 'damn this is a thermal lake and that's gotta be highly tempered melted rock, hot magma and im barely alive' but still something was not right, the water was rather cold instead of warm, the air was the moisted warming thing I had felt before, 'nevermind I must get out of here FAST' so I braced and kicked unrithmically from my hurting body to nowhere at all, just seeking to find something to step up on that cave, as I dived to see underwater I lost a huge breath when I saw that thing scalating towards me 'holy crap' -it was this time, as certainly you can fell anything as real as it gets, I didn't wanted to fill my body being burned and my skin melted from my bones- I swammed aggresivelly towards nowhere as any Olympic dude would have had instead of just giving up, but I hadn't got close to somewhere and the glow was about to engulf me in reckless swirling fire, as I did my last strokes a flame of fire came in front of me, out of the water, it blinded me so that I just stopped there motionless waiting to wake up at any time... But then nothing happened, the flames where now swirling around me and everything else was glowing, my eyes adjusted and I saw the scene for what it was, a multitude of Koi Fish, so ancient perhaps that they somehow evolved their glowing scales to thrive underwater in that icy mesh of a cave. -I must admit I was terrified to the bone, think about it, you, floating in the dark, in a huge stadium size cave, with apparent magma below it... if it wasnt the magma definitely some huge prehistoric fish hidden there would have gotten a bite at me. lol- and it wasn't everywhere below me glowing so there must have been other fish there too. I started feeling them swimming parallel to my body and suddenly I noticed they had created a current and were draggin me somewhere, it was quite the most beautiful calmness and serenity I have felt in a long time, just to contemplate it...

Now it felt like a whole bunch of time had passed, I cant rememeber if I lost awareness or lucidity as I was there, meaning I was counsciouslly enjoying it, I was enjoying it, just floating chest up, arms spread, feeling the ligh around and looking into the nothingness above, but all I remember is feeling them for hours and a sense of safeness that I had never felt before, 6 or 7 seven hours had passed maybe a bit more. And then it hit me -literally- I had arrived at some stone short and apparently I was floating at a highspeed because that rock jolted me so suddenly I almost drowned.. It was all good, there, I steped up the rocks and some faint light came from a grudge in the darkness before my eyes, I looked back and the Koi were now dancing apparently until they finally returned to the depths, they were specially beautiful but I was still there alone in the darkness with nothing but the feint flow of them leaving and the faint light in front of me, so I crawled getting good grips on the rocks and the feint light started shinning slowly a bit more, I realized I was going upwards to perhaps another cave -Ridiculous to think this complex of caves lies under the village- as I steped even more, getting a cut or two in hands and knees, a surface was now entering my view, I hiked out and my brain hurt from the light there, there was a HUGE, and when I say HUGE, I mean Island size HUGE! my eyes could not believe what I was seeing, A building size crystal stucked at 12o'clock shinned forth down that whole cave, the view was cone shaped structures smoldering glass shinned forth with everything else, I was high enough to witness its magesty, lucky me, I had come out at a point in the cave with walls full with moistness making my feet slippery, and I was still pretty high above ground. 'How am I gonna get down here?' -I thought 'This is ridiculous, even for a dream!, really!' so with my eyes adjusting, rocks rolling below my feet and surfaces slippery and clothes all moisted, it would have been better to simply throw myself there and wake, but maybe I could not return to his place if I give up, 'easy is not cheesy' so I hiked my way down this suicidal path of a clift hoping not to loose grip and fall 600 meters or something like that. To my surprise things were not as harsh as I had imagined, got myelf more cuts but as I reached ground and lifted my breath to take air, it was worth it.

Since I was steping down going sidewise and not looking back, the view I got as I finally went down was that of the most magnificent of races, Beings thrice as tall as Shaquille O'Neal were there smiling at me, in front of them, most close to me was this beautiful magestic Lady clothed all in linen robes and white garments, cheeks as pink as a Cherry Blossom, she was most beautiful, Silver hair, and a natural red smile conjoined perfectly with her bluish penetrating eyes -I was in love- her bare feet approached towards me and I felt myself in front of a Goddess, so I reverenced her as most courteously as I had ever been taught, to her grace, she was pleaced it seemed but just left a soft and smoothing laugh that caresses my memory still now... I could only wish to be hers at that point, I do not doubt that my face was that of an idiot lost madly in love to her beautiful smile... behind her, her apparrent maiden servants where all gigling and were almost as beautiful as the Goddess, I decided I wanted to stay there and leave everything behind, at their service if such a childish wish was possible. The Maidens pulled her cloths to call for her attention, and as the Goddess turned she pointed me towards a hill, I looked but couldn't see clearly that far, as I joined her almost hurried to keep with her pace, the walk was joined by a warm mist surrounding my feet, the whole ground trembled so I couldn't walk, less run normaly, and so she gave me some sort of antigravity board, -I felt as tiny as Yoda just by being besides her. lol- so that when we reached the Plateau, there was only the Goddess, me, and seven of her Maidens gracefully clothed in robes and small clothes delightfull to the eye at this point I felt I had not been there by mere chance, so I asked in my best english if there was something I coould do for her, she smiled as if waiting for me to speak it, and pulled from under her robes a gem, then one of her Maidens said I wouldn't need it were I'm going, this left me puzzled as to 'going where?'.

I was surprised to see how small the gem was for them and compared to me it was like any regular tennis ball, and as I placed both hands on it, it shinned forth sending a blast of light before my eyes, everything was now being engulfed in luminous strong light and as I saw up to her to bid farewell, her delicate face and sweet smile where the last things to dissapear, sending me a kiss...

I woke up in my desk, puzzled as to her beauty, I had left the sink in the bath open and so water upflowed and reached my feet and it was a mess... Figured out I would add some of this to the story I was writing, wanted to see what you ladies and gentlemen think. Hope you enjoy it.
-.Thank you All.-

[Szaxx]

Nice experience Rakkso,
Have you seen any messages in it?
These will help you to progress.

[Rakkso]

Well I gave it some thought overnight, and it seems I got the wrong approach to the experience, I realized that when I fell to the cavern at first I got my trigger on fear and so decided to go inmediatly somewhere that I uncounsciously thought "safer" not realizing that I was already safe and landed there for some reason. I'm swaping techniques everynow and then so I'll try to relax with 8sets maybe 10breaths and If I don't end up half asleep of that dive into the unknown more properly next time. It was just today I got a voice telling me not to fear but its incredible how deaf I seem to be sometimes lol. Thank you

[Szaxx]

Think about the gem.