Powerful Dream

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Here is a dream I had last night. A little background: My grandfather died this past year. I keep having dreams involving him and the issue of death. I don't think he knows he is dead yet. My grandmother (Mimi) is still alive and living in an old age home, although she has pretty much completely lost her grounding in physical reality. I'm trying to figure out what this dream means. At the end I'll provide some of my own analysis, but I am open to any suggestions.

Here is a thread where I talked about my most recent dream with my grandpa. http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/welcome_to_out_of_body_experiences/dead_relativespeople-t33317.0.html
In short, he seemed like he was trying to get waking peoples attention, hanging around the dream locals.

March 4, 2011

"The Failed Psychopomp"

First I am at the new frat house, but it is different. While I am upstairs, I grab a few empty beer cans to help clean up. Then I navigate to the basement where two people have their rooms. I notice the basement is fairly clean other than the beer soaked everywhere. I think how it must suck to have one of the rooms down here, so close to the partys. I walk to the open room and find Mark alone in his room. We talk a little about something. The other room is connected to this room and I peak in to find Vinny sleeping in an awkward position, almost sitting up against the wall. He wakes up and we begin to talk. This is Dan's room – there are New York sport's team posters, pictures and memorabilia all over the walls, all red, white and blue. I comment on how I don't like it all – except for the Ranger's stuff. I also notice that there are two old looking air conditioners in two different windows in this room. The person living in the room next door says he asked for one, but did not get it. I think about how it would make a lot more sense to have one AC for each room.

As the three of us walk out of the rooms we pass another room connected to the basement. This is Mimi's room. I can hear someone with a cane moving about. [I still get chills thinking about it.] We all didn't want her to see us for some reason. I felt the people in the frat didn't want to see her because of her craziness; she was probably a hassle to live with at this point. We all frantically ran out of the house.

After we were outside I thought I needed to talk to Mimi, and Grandpa John. I remembered I had to tell him he was dead – to help him understand his afterlife conditions. I had Kyle with me to help. We were now at a stairs in the basement and I perceived what I thought was Mimi about to come down.

[There may have been more at this point and the following paragraph may have been a different dream]

I am in my room with some people, notably Keith and Pete. There is this large, poisonous beetle that keeps crawling up my covers onto my bed. I have to use something to hit it off my bed. I think how I will not be able to sleep with this creature in my room. It is about eight inches long and red in color. It had a stinger on it's back. I remember Keith saying that you don't want to get stung, and that it is "cold" when you do. I went into my drawer to get my hunting knife, and then after a missed try I successfully decapitated the creature. Pete Baker picked up the head, and I made it clear I didn't want anything to do with it anymore. I was a little nervous he would throw it at me or something.

I'm in my room still. I feel like I have accessed some energy I cannot control. Upon telling Grandpa John he is dead I began to get sort of attacked. The energy kind of manifested itself in my pillow which began to cling to me. I struggled to keep the pillow off of me.

I went in Chris' room to show him the problem. I was scared. He saw that the pillow had taken a life of its own. It didn't seem malicious – almost like it was not conscious of its actions. It tried to cling to Chris as I put it near him. We were talking too loud and this caused Mom to wake up.

Mom and I were now downstairs talking at the kitchen table. I told her what had happened with Grandpa John and she was concerned. She thought we may need an exorcist, but I told her that was adding unnecessary fear to the equation. She was concerned that their old house may now be haunted, and this reminded me of a dream where this was the case.  While we were talking my voice recorder (which I use to record dreams) turned on by itself and played a recording of me. It was only a few words and said something about "Andrew insecure" and something else. I took the message to have negative meaning, but Mom seemed to brush it off like I had gone on a trial run and it was a watershed moment - I felt like it all had to do with talking to dead people. The voice recorder then began to start tuning a bunch of different FM radio stations by itself – it stopped at some pop song I cannot recall. I remember seeing the music video, cover art, or something relating to the pop song.

Next, I had looked at my reflection in the glass window. It seemed like my reflection was one step ahead of me – I vocally blurted out something about the dream being "all about me". It was as if I was not in control of my voice or my reflection. Next, I looked outside the front door and saw the little boy next door, Nick, sitting shirtless on our front lawn. Each time I turned around and glanced his position had moved somewhat closer to the glass door, with his brother joining him in the latter glances. I thought this was weird. It almost had a eiri feel to it.

Mom pointed out the fireplace, with a fire going, in the other room. She told me to look at it – something else paranormal was happening, although I couldn't point it out. I remember thinking that fire was a good channel for these types of things - like connecting with nonphysical sources. I woke up with a minor scared feeling, but still get chills when I stink about Mimi and Grandpa John in relation to this dream.

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A common theme I notice in the first half of the dream is the ACs and the beetle with the "cold" sting. Cold is supposed to symbolize negative emotion? I had watched a Ranger's game last night where they lost, and I was definitely a little ticked during the game. The part where I felt possessed and blurted out that the dream was "all about me" interests me as well. I don't know what to think about this dream overall. It had a very powerful feeling to it, like I had a very direct connection to some sort of teaching program. What do you think?

Lastly, some strange synchronicity this morning. I've been unemployed the past few months and my Mom has been on my case about getting a job. She brought up the classified ads and placed them on my desk. She pointed out one of the ads was the work as a greeter at a funeral home, and as she walked out she jokingly said "How are you with dead people?"