Energy fluctuations

[Tarconiss]

I have always been able to feel a sense of what i used to consider 'power' through-out my body... a few years back, things got beyond what normal people would be able to handle..... becuase even i couldnt at the time... I had resorted to closeing off parts of me, and suppressing other parts of me, allowing me to let myself escape from it all..... I had noticed that because of me doing that, i would go through series of dramatic ups and downs, in the extremes, and it put a lot of stress onto me, and my body-emotion-energy balence. It does tend to drag out for a couple weeks at a time, but i've noticed that each time i recovered from what i help inside, and from what i've bottled up, i would become that much stronger, in all three of those aspects, because there wasn't anything holding back from replaceing the now empty parts of me, with the things that helped me recover or made me happy. But when there was something holding back, i also learned to be able to let go of it, enough to bypass whatever 'it' was that was holding back, and replace 'it' with good.... i say replace, because its the closest thing that i can consider what that feeling is, to me...

Try not to worry about how long thing's will last for, because it'll just make everything seem longer, than it has to feel like. Aside from anything that could have been learned from what i said above; Try not to worry about things so often, or as much... Learn to be able to let go of pent up emotions/craveings/urges. It'll help with recovering faster. And stick with working on your energy development. That will help all of the aspects in your life, bit by bit.

[sargon]

I've been trying out various forms of energy raising for the last 6 months and I've settled into doing the NEW system along with some standing meditation and tai chi.

It still takes me quite a while to get warmed up with N.E.W, but I'm sticking with it I love the system.

Anyways my question is about my emotional rollercoaster and energy levels... I've been a bit off at times and I was wonderig if this is because of the new things I'm applying to my life. How  ong does this normally last? i've also been doinga  lot of self-healing because of trauma when I was very young, I have surpressed emotions, could this also effect my energy work?

I must say though, I do feel a lot happier 90% of the time and it's a lot easier to express myself, no more supressing emotions. I think that throughout my childhood though I was severly damaging my astral or emotional body because of supression, has anyone else had to overcome this? I would like some tips, if not how long do these effects last in general for all of you?