around 6 years ago i was sitting in my room late at night doing some sort of remedial task, cant quite remember what, when out of no where i noticed a bright flash occur just outside my window, it was strange in that it seemed like a powerful flash but no noise followed, i just thought it was some sort of flash photo. Several minutes later the same thing happened again, a powerful flash with no following noise or anything, then again and again and again. At this point i looked out of my window to see several balls of light appear out of nowhere with flashes, like miniature explosions that happened very quickly but then just vanish. I really had no idea at all as to what to make of this. Maybe 3 or 4 days after this i started to notice some very concerning changes in my life. 1. my bones/joints/muscles felt very sore and ached 2. i noticed that my hair was starting to fall out in big clumps 3. i developed a tinnitus like ringing in my ears. 4 i felt inexplicably strange and scarred 5. all things seemed to not go my way like my luck had just bombed 6. i started to mumble to myself, in a way that i can control but seems acceptable with regards to the emotional state i was feeling.
In the times that have passed life hasn't really seemed to have progressed, i don't think i have healed, im not sure what happened then and am not sure what to do now, but i do know i what to sort myself out. Any information that anyone could provide in regards to what happened/ how to resolve myself would be greatly appreciated, thank you.
was this during the beginning of winter, or the middle of summer?
Depending on where you are, I'm sorry to say this, but you might have been hit with a stray or improperly focused black magickal attack. It might even be one of my own! About six years ago, in my highly disturbed state, I went through a period where I was attacking what was attacking me. Very strong emotion and focus of visualization. I'm sorry. But it would be a good idea to check and see if you have cancer. My enemies, for what they did to me, were the focus/target of a very heavy black attack.
It's not that I often cast against anyone, but I was confused, hurt, and being destroyed. It could be unrelated to my casting, from the sounds of it, but there's really no way to defend against such immense force.
On the flipside of it, you could have been caught in some sort of magnetic vortex that mimicked a solar flare. The fact that it happened outside suggests to me that, if it wasn't a stray black magick attack, then it was environment related and involves a great deal of radiation. Obviously, it was bright flashes of light, so there was some sort of radiation there. And if your hair was falling out, then it could be a form of trapped radiation that was released at that time.
Not much more I can say.