ok i know this is wierd and i really don't wanna post the reasons...but if u guys can take a look at this lil' one and tell me what u feel/see
http://profiles.yahoo.com/bastard_deamon
i uploaded the pic into my yahoo profile...
pls help me.
Not sure what you're looking for but, what I get from this girl picture is a mix of feelings... It feels like as if she is smiling/sad/naughty/scared all at the same time...
Quote from: darkheavenok i know this is wierd and i really don't wanna post the reasons...but if u guys can take a look at this lil' one and tell me what u feel/see
I uploaded the pic into my yahoo profile...
pls help me.
OMG, she looks like a wicked nymph! :D
first off ALl i want to thanks to Frank for unlocking the topic and for giving me the permission to make all this public, and i apologies once again for my behavior
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now, thank you Nagual, yes i agree with you, from my research ur correct but the sadness and the fear overruns the other feelings. I can say that she appears to me as a very healthy person (her body) but i did not went 2 far with this research.
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Nostic -> i find your comment to be funny but i did not posted to hear such things, not offensive but i take this person (research) in a very serious way and i am not hear to laugh about her appearance or comment that although later i would like a comment about it but no such things
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i will repost one of the deleted post in which i explained the reasons why i did this as i found that i made a mistake by not doing so.
i must say once again that it may be funny i do not take it as a joke and please help me out as i "need" to understand, after all the events in the past few days i lost hope but now i feel somehow more curious inside of me.
so here it goes:
Posted: Today at 18:53 Post subject: (need some help)...***
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Thank Nagual, well i can say that her body is healthy, i did not went into her body (energetic) so much but it seemed 2 me very healty...
i couldn't go into the emotional part cause i have myself big problems, but i can confirm what u said in a proportion of 70% (***bla***), if u could take your exploration deeper or anyone else, please help me out.
i do not know her, i talked to her several times on the net, but she is one of the persons that i do not understand and this happens with 1 person in 1000 (4 me).
Another strange thing, i showed her picture 2 some of my friend (around 9 persons maybe fewer), 2 of them went wild about her and another one but not that much. Yes she is cute but if u would know this guys, they have high standards and they do not fall crazy about "a picture".
Maybe i'm just paranoid...maybe not, but one thing i know 4 sure...i am very curious abut "what/who is she, what happened"
maybe she is "looking" (searching) also like this guys and some very strong emotional/mental connection took place...
Pls help me out, this is nothing more then research, tell me all u can so i can understand what happened. I find it very funny (the situation) but i'm kind of shocked...
maybe some deep thought of mine created all this...i just want to understand...
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thank you and excuse me 4 my poor english
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i seek her, what\who she is, why is she like this...she is an enigma 4 me, i really don't understand her and this not happens 2 me often. I kind of know people, what they r able 2 do and what r not, but about her i can't say anything and more i think more unclear is.
The events that happened (described in the post), what happened here on the forum...i think that i'm even afraid to look at her, 2 feel her energy, she seems so clean so healthy, but her psychological profile i think for this one the result is very unstable.
don't know, i wanna know...is she "special" or not...and i bet that if i show her pictures to more of my friend "she will trap some of them", i find her cute but not like...they become obsesed...i don't get it, i make fun of them look here is a little story.
i was with 3 of my friends taking a ride with #1 (first trapped), he was the driver. i saw some girl from behind about 30m - 40m away, i told him to go on as he was supposed 2 stop the car there, he did what i said and passed near the girl, i looked at her and she was not the girl in the photo. we driven further and another friend of mine screams "hey look i think is her". #1 pulls hard right stops the car, he gets off and goes to look at her. That was kind of mad. And this is just a small part...
#2 is the most f* up, when this started he had insomnia for 1-3 nights but now he does not want 2 speak about her cause i make fun of him, sometimes...
#3 with this one was the weirdest experience, first time he saw the photos he went mad, i almost slapped him cause he wouldn't stop to ask "what is with her" (language problem) the correct question was "who is she", but he went red, blocked on the question like he knew her and knew her very well, and he thinks the he saw her a few times in some clubs...but ...he is now blocked on his new obsession...
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i was supposed 2be #2 but she is annoying 4 me like i was (hope i'm not anymore) 4 you...
much to be said about this but...i don't know so many words...
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so i think this is it...
well, i hope that you will help me out into this quest
thank you all
update!
i just recived a message on yahoo messenge from someone
"i wonder who is this"..."who ru"...
"i'm #3"
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he created like3-4 aditional accounts in the last days so he can speak with her cause he gets on ignore list after a while....
well i think this one is more affected the i believed
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looks like any teenager, sexuality and curiosity, blah blah, looks like she spends a lot of time on the computer, the lighting adds a negative vibe....
the lighting adds a negative vibe....
can u rephrase this please cause i don't understand
thank you
ok...im scared...
i have the confirmation from 2 ppl that she is way dangerous
Hmm... I don't see any picture, just total black. Eh, I wouldn't freak out just yet darkheaven. :)
Nay, I think you need to get a monitor with better contrast (up your gamma or something). It shouldn't be totally black.
I find nothing at all peculiar about the picture.
what, more to come?...come on guys don't scare me... :P
well i would ask for that one that pm to make public his message please, i lost the other log from the other person, techincal problems....
....this is wierd....i'll go and get my blanket to cover myself so i can protect me :D
ok check this one out...
http://profiles.myspace.com/users/6315245
her public profile on a web page, one of my friends told me that he found some wierd pictures on a webpage somewhere but he lost the link, something with candles or something...from there my paranoia started...i forgot to metion that...stupid me
Ok, now I see the little pixie.. :)
She wont give me nightmares, except the nightmare of me having grey in my hair for the rest of this life.. :P
Is she trying to scare you? Does she know you're talking about her? (sorry if you've already answered these questions)
Nay
The energy connected to that picture moves slow, tends to go directly to the middle of my body and slowly leave, and theres a small chance she's a psi vamp.
well i don't think that she's around here, very small chance, if she knows what happens she might find it also wierd for so many ppl scaning her...
nay this is the first time when i look at your signature, superb...
"...she programmed the shield to "dummy"answer, which would explain some of your confusion..."
this is what i recived as a PM
"...she manipulates people to boost her self-esteem and cover fear..."
my friend hear seems like he has a problem...ohhh
and someone is f*ing my head up, just started...and he/she want me 2 know that i'm in and i can't do much
brb
Quote from: darkheavenwell i don't think that she's around here, very small chance, if she knows what happens she might find it also wierd for so many ppl scaning her...
nay this is the first time when i look at your signature, superb...
"...she programmed the shield to "dummy"answer, which would explain some of your confusion..."
this is what i recived as a PM
"...she manipulates people to boost her self-esteem and cover fear..."
my friend hear seems like he has a problem...ohhh
and someone is f*ing my head up, just started...and he/she want me 2 know that i'm in and i can't do much
brb
Oh man I'm really confused!! You mention my signature, then you go on to talk about a PM...
Who is doing the talking in your quotes?
some one from this forum...
what is happening to my head, ok need assistance cause this is annoying...pls help me out
last night i was attcacked, and hey, that was something...she was all over me and i believe that she is really ticked off. I shall take this an handle myself altrough she is much stronger i can face her and throw her away if i really want. I alowed her to do all this as i didn't care much. I shall see how i'll play this but now i have her...i know the rage/anger/fear...all she feels comes from what i ran from, and she rans 2. The diffrence is that i don't go and push my luck aroud with people.
yes this become more interesting that i believed first.
If u can tell me more things please help me out.
Dude(tte?), chill. Are you really sure she's some psychic vampire and this isn't just paranoia?
Looking at the first picture, I see a girl with bad lighting, you should see the lighting on MY web cam. She's not a supermodel, but she has a certain cuteness to her, though I wouldn't recommend the neck exposure. The posing of her face does look a bit creepy, but she may be going for that effect.
Have you spoken to her? Why not ask her if she's into the occult, and if she's psychically draining you?
Going by the second picture, she looks even more normal. She looks like your average teen goth/punk who doesn't eat enough and doesn't get enough sleep, and doesn't like to fit in with people. My type of person! :) She's a bit young though, so wait until she's a legal adult before you start stalking her.
A little out of topic but it reminds me of this little story:
QuoteTwo Monks and the River
It was early morning, and the two monks set out on their last day's journey back to their monastery.
At mid-morning they came upon a shallow river, and on the bank there stood a beautiful young maiden in a lovely silk kimono.
"May I help you cross?" asked the first Monk. "That way your garment won't get soiled."
"Why, yes, that would be most kind of you," replied the maiden, bowing politely.
So the first Monk hoisted the maiden on his back and carried her across the river. Once across, they bowed and went their separate ways.
A few minutes later, after the maiden was out of earshot, the second Monk said to the first Monk, "I can't believe you did that! I just can't believe it! We take vows of chastity, and you touched a woman. You even asked her! I know that touching a woman doesn't break our vow, but what's the Abbot to think? This is awful."
Several hours passed and the second Monk erupted again. "How could you do that? She didn't even ask. You offered! What are we going to tell the Abbot when we get home? He's going to ask how our journey was, and we can't lie. What are we going to say?"
By late afternoon the two were nearing their monastery, and the second Monk, now filled with anxiety, said, "I can't believe you did that! You touched a woman. You even carried her on your back. We must think of something to tell the Abbot. He's going to be so angry we'll be working in the onion garden for the rest of our lives."
The first Monk stopped, looked at the second Monk and said, " Listen, it's true that I carried that maiden across the river. But I left her at the river bank hours ago. You've been carrying her all day."
She's hot.
darkheaven I agree with Tyciol. Is that a link to her blog you posted above? I read through some of her blogs and she seems normal, certainly not like someone who would try to attack you, although she may be depressed. I think you're right about some of the stuff you posted above though. Keep us posted, your research is quite interesting.
Alex
That's a great story Nagual. It is very true.
Alex
I just signed up for an account and when you click on the picture on the main blog page it has other pictures. I think you guys should have a look. There is definantly a very surreal and cold vibe coming from her. It sends chills down my spine. She is very beautiful though. Look into her eyes.
Alex
Nope, she still looks completely normal.
This is a good idea for getting people to fawn over pictures of someone though - go to a highly impressionable New Age forum and say you have found a dark nymph of evil...
It's a good experiment on the susceptibility of people's impressions.
she looks normal, but is she? that is what i'm asking...paranoia no way, there could be someone else atacking me but...
another starge thing or not...on the roumanina forum she is gay on that link she is straight...i shall talk with some people soon about her...
be carefull
Humans are not a normal species of animal.
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Looks like normal nowadays teenage angst to me. I remember writing poetry and being ticked off, and feeling lonely too. Nothing new in the universe.
Not enough mental disipline to be any threat, unless of she does something stupid for attention and burns down someones house, then she's not powerful, just needs mental health services.
If you felt attacked and felt it was her, it's possible it's from the etheric larvae you've made of her and your own obviously growing obsession. You might want to go read about psychic defense if your that concerned.
Sorry this sounds so harsh, dude. But from my 40 year old, female, been there there, done that; My intution just sees a scared kid growing up in a hard world. Someone reaching out for help, for someone to be saved by, without relising that noone saves you, you save yourself. One needs to take responsibility for there own energy. (That includes you dear. You are responsible for your own energy. Your the one choosing to share it back and forth with this girl.)
Try listening to happy music awhile??
Something less intense??
don't know what else to suggest. Looks like you are your own biggest threat. Just like she's hers.
Good luck.
(Addendum thought: The kids nowadays are some of the strongest, brightest, and best the world has ever produced. They are learning faster, have more information then ever. They are dealing with more garbage and other peoples head-trips like never before.
I know that getting to know yourself, and feeling like you can take care of yourself, while still having to be dependent on the local bill payer is tough. It always causes alot of angst.
I just wish.... I dunno, I wish the youth today just knew how bright and beautiful they really are. I wish I could get through to them that it's all okay. It may look bad politically, socially, enviornmentally, economically, and that IS alot to worry about....
I'm sorry. I'm sorry for this screwed up world that they've been handed, but the ironic thing is that if one looks at it from a broader perspective, it's a change time. It's not screwed up, it's changing, and change is always a bit chaotic.
I know it's hard to believe, but it's really fine. Everything is going to turn out okay. Especially if all that 'angst' energy is taken and focused into action. Get involved. Find something that bugs you, find a local volunteer thing for it and DO something. (I help in homeless shelters and abused pets) Sitting in front of your computer for hours on end complaining isn't going to speed up the process.
And will you or nil you, the world must change because it cannot sustain what is happening.
Heaven help these wonderful, kids. If they were to unite and get involved.... ahhh, ticked off kids, getting a grip and changing the world for the better.
Makes me smile.
*end of addendum rant*)
cristaphin: thank you
yes i share it, in a way, i do not mind, obsession she is not 4 me, i am thinking about her maybe 2 much but i'm not obsessed
"it's possible it's from the etheric larvae you've made of her and your own"
can u explain this cause i don't understand
"Looks like you are your own biggest threat." - i allways was and allways i will...and i have done alot stupide things...this is the reasons why i refused to atack her, the reason that i share my energy, the reason that deep inside me i let her in...i seek 2 but my days as "me agains the world" are finished for some time now, the idea is that i know how she feels in some way now, i accepted what is happening 2 me (in general terms) dump the fear, sitting down and enjoying the show (not doing anything :( )...
i was in her same position not long before, maybe this is my scream for help ;) ...he...
about the music...i like what i'm lisetening, about the intense part i don't get it...
and once again thank you, thank you all
Then I acknowledge the error of my pop psychology and commend you to listening and trying to help :)
Larvae-
Everything (matter/energy/everything under creation) is made up of song/vibration/thought web (who you talk to calls it different things. For the sake of description I'm going to use the web analogy here).
Since everything, including yourself, is composed of individual strands of this web, everything is encompassed in it. We are all the same web, just different aspects of it.
The ether is like the spirit realm, and the web composition is just a little variant in chemistry. Like in a real spider web, some strands are tougher, some are sticky, some more elastic, and so forth.
You, having consciousness, direction, and having multi layers of web in you (Body, Soul, Spirit) are capable of affecting the web around you. If you think on a thing long enough and give it your energy (more web) in the etheric / astral realm it begins to form. For example, you ever seem to notice that life seems to kick you when your down? That's because you draw like energy to you. Positive breeds positive, negative breeds negative.
You make up this girl (Yes, I know she really exists, stay with me here), you 'breath life into her', you give this entity powers and sinister attributes, and that's what you make in the ether. Given enough energy, the "larvae" will begin to "function" on it's own.
If you think about this image you have of this girl (You don't really personally know her or her motivations do you? It's things you've surmised??) think she's powerful and attacking you. The lavaes feeds from that energy and gathers more web for it's incorporeal form.
I doubt very highly that the girl could attack you. To affect the web to that degree takes a tremendous amount of energy, and much discipline. Most, and I mean most people don't have the kind of focus and understanding to break out of their own web section and affect another to that degree. That's one of the restrictions of this plane; It has to be because we all have wildly swinging emotions (Oh, drop dead) and while we're learning to control/discipline our thoughts and ourselves these safeguards are crucial.
Not that you can't affect things, we are all made up of the same web after all and you tug on one section, it's felt all over (why it's so important to give out love and positiveness).
But you definitely can affect yourself and your immediate web area.
Larvae aren't only negative little bloodsuckers, by the way. Take for example...oh.. childrens imaginary friends. They make up a friend specific, that larvae fills the need. Or, along the same lines, people who want to connect to higher realms. They gather positive energy, imbue it with a "transmitter frequency", the 'higher friend' reads the akashic records (book of life as it were) and since this particular larvae is part here and part there, it is easier to access.
If you do this consciously, make sure your very deliberate about it tho. The akashic isn't really something to fool around with, even though we alter it a little every day. That is why mindful living is so important.
Well, this was a couple years worth of study compressed into a sloppy readers digest version. Look around the other sites here for perhaps a clearer version of what I'm trying to say.
But I hope this helped a little bit.
Namaste
it helped alot...hmmmm...but i must be sure cause i do not recall that i created this, everything started with my friends and my only thoughts were that she may have something very attractive in her aura...
thank you
i'll try to absorb the larve back into me if there is one...i'll continue my research and keep you posted. I'll try to speak with her and see what she will say, work out on my defense and all i can
thank you all
Larve eh?
I liked that monk story.
the monk story is the best story...i know it for some time now...
my new favorite story i luv it :D
Try sending her loving/positvie energy