Life Course

[kmd242]

why question it then. be happy with what who you are today, and be wise not to make the same mistakes you have made in the past.

[the_demigod]

ah, kind Sir, but I am questioning the past in an attempt at figuring out the [possible?] FUTURE............

[cainam_nazier]

Take a moment and think about all your adventures and mis-adventures.  There must be some common bond between them?  And did you learn from it?

David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com
I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.
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[fredhedd]

i kinda think everything is relevant to how many squares of paper you use in the bathroom.  that's where they key lies.

[kakkarot]

well, the_demigod, you had to make decisions in your life, right? you made certain decisions, and certain actions came about because of it. the path(s) you choose seemed to be chaotic and to no end, and so there wasn't much distance between where you were and the starting point. and when you are at the starting point of life, you can go where ever you so choose. now, it seems that you have either choosen the path you have finally ended up with, or you have been fortunate enough to have accidentally found it. many are not so fortunate. as to being guided... well, you'll know when you find out, eh?  

~kakkarot

Secret of Secrets

[wisp]

the_demigod, I like how you can sum up your life experience.. It sounds to me a chaotic path to arrive at the right place. For me I've made a point to make right decisions along the way. I make choices that has the least effort on other people. A passive role perhaps but a lifestyle that suites me. The right decisions and your path gets guided (God, guides,universal, or some energy source I'm not sure). I do know God is in it.My lastest journey has been without my usual ways or doors (or windows). I have been on many journeys. Recently the old (and supreme) power that has been a big part of my life is returning (never left I'm sure, but...). Whatever I was suppose to learn has been learned? I can now separate myself from the other influences and my choices. I have discovered my personal power, though I'm not alone in the spiritual sense. During this time I explored outside my usual  boundaries. I learned I was on the right track all along. The questions about right and wrong is clearer. I took a little trip on the the other side of the fence (not pleasant but I felt guided to go there). The results were that on the other side of the fence is filled  with anger, bitterness,jealousy, walls, and barriors that people would die to defend (scary stuff). So, I would say you may have learned the same thing in a different way. It sounds wonderful for you.  http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/images/icon_Smile.gif" border=0>

[the_demigod]

I still battle the negative forces inside me--I can switch from perfect happiness/calmness to absolute rage [with related homicidal tendencies/impulses], but I have come to believe that its is also INTENTIONAL--only those of us that have experienced black and white will know how good the white is, plus we'll know that grey is also a very specific mixture.

:}

[the_demigod]

I'm 29, and have been involved in the wide range of Arcane/religious research for last 14 years. Started off with Huna and moved on.
I've acquired a lot of knowledge and plenty of insight/understanding.
My skills are improving [if slowly--have been working on OBE-related stuff for 3 years now].

The crux is this:

When I look back on my life, I see a chaotic trail filled with major mistakes, big enemies, plenty of violence, blood, pain and suffering [most of it MINE...]. I've hurt people, acted like an idiot [a rarity now] and have made a few cities across Europe inaccessible to myself on penalty of severe repercussions.

Yet, my IQ is imporoving to beyond-MENSA levels, I have managed to initiate a successful career, am writing 2 novels, am setting up an internet business and gym-work is going amazingly well.
Admittedly, no women--not that THEY ain't interested, but I prefer the security and low-cost of celibacy [for now].

My point--looking back over my life I see a jumbled collection of weird twists, strange [and at the time illogical] decisions, highly improbable happenings, and coming in contact with strange [wonderful OR scary] people that have pushed me in new directions.

I feel that my life has been guided. Why?? I don't know. Yet. But the sheer probability of the events in my life coming together to get me where I am today [ie, with a huge baggage of good and nasty experiences, knowledge of how to progress and dedication to achieve it], is incredibly small.

I'd appreciate Ur comments.

Vendi, Vidi, Vici, Mucho denero.
[I came, I saw, I conquered, I got paid--my mercenary motto]