Divine brainfart

[Homesick]

Last evening i had this strong sense of knowing about inner workings of consciousness and how it effects our life after death. I explain it here even tho it's kind of hard to but in to words, need to use some paradoxes and age old questions as an example or i get nowhere

Let's start with free will.
Past effects ones choices and actions just as choices and actions effect ones future, then is there free will or are our choices determined by our past events? How i see it is that while on physical our free will is limited, mostly illusion where we have rare moments of choice taking form of it's own separate from past and this is what could be called our higher self or divine guidance, funny thing tho, it's still not you doing the choice in materialistic ego sense if you identify yourself like this. Chain of cause and effect broken by occasional intervention of divine, how much your willing to give yourself in to higher self and listen determines how often this chain is broken.

Afterlife.
My belief is When we die we go trough most relevant and emotionally charged events of our life again to get second look at them from another perspective to grow. Then comes time of choice, either we continue towards the source and endless possibilities or we find way to reincarnate here again. Here comes the shocker, whatever you think and feel, however much you want to leave all behind you always come back. Let's try and understand our higher self when making this choice, either you want to protect, help, love, give joy or just be present in someones life or either you feel you need to grow more, right the wrong doings from past life... there's so many reason to come here again when we feel with our hearts and only one reason is enough. Would be selfish to leave all behind, you think your higher self is like this?
Only when we as a collective decide to go forth we do, leaving no soul behind.

Time travel paradox where you go and kill your father before your born.
From perspective of time traveler you get born, live, travel to past and kill your father, nothing happens.
Back when you where in afterlife and about to reincarnate there is no option to born as this time traveler so you just pick another option like nothing ever happened. Our higher self perceives time very differently and is not bound to one reincarnation, place or time at a time.

Time travel paradox where cause and effect breaks down, other words you take action to correct something in the past and end up causing whatever it's in the first place.
Now we are getting somewhere Everything happens at the sameeee timeeee, cause and effect go hand in hand, it doesn't matter what came first as they both emerge at this same instant. If we go deep enough in to it, reality, world, divine source, whatever doesn't exist in frame of our understanding. no time, no dimension, just spark of consciousness beyond time and space, nowhere and everywhere happening in an instant and for eternity.

So let's enjoy our life and be present in now with all our heart and stop wasting this experience.