Hello I am new :)

[Chaos11]

I stumbled upon this amazing forum site I haven't seen anything more like it. So much focus on astral projection and the spiritual or mental strength of others deep subconsciousness really astounds me. I hope I can learn more on here I'm not doing much in reality and for what it's worth would reject all psychical motions except for fighting if i could as I live my life with no regrets. I believe my mind and spiritual knowledge is more important at this moment.
Ever sense I was a little boy up till even now no one understand me ect.. I had numerous of crazy encounters with all sorts of entities. Still can not explain why they chose me to mess with but w/e. So because of that I decide when I was older to understand my self I would take on a serious goal to explore the unknown and maybe even find the answer to my mysterious questions. I know I'm not the guru with phenomenons and i don't have an ego. Lately I have been lead to believe my self deeply that possibly I could be psychic with all sorts of random psychic abilities and such all at a medium or low level cause no ones welling to help me explain my experiences or they could care less which is foolish in my opinion as well as their religious believes that could also blind them from the truth.
The last time I tried to explain my happenings someone made a joke out of me and used my exact words into a stupid website post thing. Which really upset me. The more people or society ignores me the more i grow with anger and pure hatred towards them I was scorned. So that is how I came to be when I decided to go beyond the negative the hatred go beyond death to enter the realm of chaos and understand what keeps the universe bind and intertwined into the balance . I could go on and on but rather not right now. I mean go figure how I could grow up in an xtian family, then when identifying who I really am shift beliefs around teenage years, to have a more open perspective of things and then find my awakening later there on.
I tried to keep documents and recording of what I have heard or saw but most of my stuff was set ablaze by my xtian family because they think it was the devil or some other excuse. the other half lie dormant in a secret box I had to hide and tape up for same reason it's really sad.
The only thing that keeps me sane is my best friend or blood brother and yes we did the ritual was proud of it too. It seems because he had the same issues in his life it was fate it seems. That's not to say I didn't have a few g/fs before and after same applies for him as well. I'm so unique my world has been hell sense day 1. I don't think anyone would want to be in my shoes it is insane. "People come and go, but no one really stops to star at the belly of the abyss" as that phrase says yet I choose to.
I don't know where I get my 6th sense or psychic abilities from it's differently not from my family but I know for a fact I have some abnormalities.
Anyway there's no one word to describe me maybe free spirit, but i stand my ground.

[Xanth]

Welcome!
I just signed up as well yesterday after lurking for a while...

I'm actually trying to find a new "AP forum home".

In any case, you've always had these "6th sense" abilities, as you call them... you're just noticing them more than your family does. 

[Stookie]

Welcome to the Astral Pulse Chaos11! Hopefully you'll find some folks here who can help you in your search.